Bye 2009. It's been alot of fun!

2009 is ending, time to ring in the new decade!!!
All in all, it's been a pretty super awesome year. Sure it could of been better, but that's ok. Time goes on. There has been good and bad this year, and that's ok.

So g'bye 2009, hello 2010!

Anyways, I'm really liking the steampunk style. That sounds really dumb, but I'm OBSESSED with Steampunk Goggles and pocketwatches. They are fucking awesome. Seriously, alternate Victorian Era England is pretty kickass. Plus, some of the steampunk fiction looks really good. I'm going to list some examples:

- A Calculus of Angels (This one is borderline. More like alternate history)
- Ichabod Hart and the Lighthouse Mystery by James Roy

- Boneshaker by Cherie Priest
- Leviathan by Scott Westerfield (Author of the Uglies? Better impress me!)
- Whitechapel Gods by S.M. Peters
- The Translated Man by Chris Braak
- Ave Molech by Michael Hurston
- Clockwork Heart by Dru Pagliassotti (reluctant to read this one. It's a romance... >_>)
- The Irrelevant Redemption: A Steampunk Fairytale (I'm sure this one is graphic novel, but it sounds pretty damn good).

WELL I'M OFF TO WATCH STUFF ABOUT ENGLAND IN LIKE THE 1700s (PRIDE AND PREJUDICE) TATATATA HAVE A GOOD LAST DAY OF THE YEAR!

LADY GAGA.

FFFFFFFFT, OHGOD. Today was awesomeeee. Or at least the last two hours were. XD. Practice today was a bitch. D:. I felt naseous the entire time, blah. But haha, Mendel's Pho Party. :).

So I got there at 6:40ish. It was hard to find since it was rainy and stuffff. We waited for Mijo Fishie and Josh by playing Super Smash Brother Brawl. Hahaha, loads of fun. :).

When they got there we had the Pho. REALLY good beef, ok soup. I'm kinda picky though, so no worries. It was still good. Afterward, we spammed Mendel's Facebook. "IT'S LIKE TWITTER!" haha, oh Kevin.

Sliding on the floor, commentary on Tales of Graces... AWESOME looking game. I really want it when it comes out in the US. Since Mendel's not legit enough to wait for it to come out in the US and downloaded it. Foo. One guy had a boomerang which Kevin was obsessed with. Another character looked like Lady Gaga. And then the main guy jumping on the water. He SOOOO walks on it. They just can't show it cause it's blasphemous! :O.

And the enemies looked like pokemon! XD. Beedrill, Ursaring... HAHAHA, we're such noobs. Then Mijo and Fishie not realizing it's wet outside and walking out in their socks... FAILLLL. And Mendel's floor is awesome. It's so slipperyyyy :).

Tee hee lots of fun. :D

WATCH PRINCESS AND THE FROG

Saw Princess and the Frog today. GOD IT WAS SO AWESOME.
Naveen & Tiana were great. They're personalities compliment each other. :P. Such a cute couple. I love how Naveen is fracking broke. And Tiana... God I love her voice. It's so sassy. :P. And her swinging voice is awesome. :).

Louis and Ray are cool too. Louis = BIG LIPPED TRUMPET PLAYING ALLIGATOR MOMENT. And the music is so awesome. Jazz at it's finest. Favorite one is Down in New Orleans. So damn catchy and so damn good. Makes me want to get up and dance.

GOD, ONE PIECE IS ON BREAK FOR TWO WEEKS. FML.

one piece rocks.

Ace is so cuteee in this picture. I couldn't help it. :P.

So before I go into ONE PIECE land, I better report how Christmas went: Got alot of goodsies - mostly gift cards and clothes, but that's what I wanted, so I'm not complaining. :). I got sick on the 26th though and was stuck in bed all day. D:. Luckily I got better in time for the game, although I was still feeling queasy. (LOL, 11/16THs. TRY PLAYING THAT ON THE PIANO. :P). Still feeling not so hot today, so I stayed home from swim practice, Finished One Piece (when I say one piece, I mean got up to date :P), watched Raymond play Uncharted 2 (BLOODY HELL, THE GRAPHICS ARE GREAT). Btw Orange Range is awesome. Their Asterisk Romantic Version is hilarious. It's practically him talking. XD.

I feel like something's wrong with me. I was drawing these really creepy eyes and stuff while Taylor Swift was on. lolwut.

NOW ONE PIECE TIME. 8D.

ohgod, I really want to know if they rescue Ace or not! I'm pretty sure they will, but still~. God, Oda sensei is such a jerk. How could he seperate the crew! I feel betrayed. It's like NONONONO GIVE ME BACK MY CREW ;_;. Haha, but Bonclay and Luffy's friendship is really awesome. and the doctor with his death wink. BEST ATTACK EVER. I WANT IT.

Now I'm going to go ranting about one piece couples I like / tolerate:

Usopp / Kana:
ONLY PERSON ALLOWED TO BE PAIRED WITH USOPP. I'M SORRY. BUT NO OTHER PERSON IS ALLOWED. It makes me not feel good when people pair Usopp up with anyone else. Because it's Usopp. I love him, but he's not really... well I just don't like him with anyone else other than the girl he left from his village. I mean I like his friendship with Nami... but no romantic connections other than Kana :P

Hancock / Luffy:
Hancock is adorable. Arigatou = / = Ashiteru! XD. She's soooo dumbly crushing on Luffy and he's like lolwutno. I love it.

Luffy / Nami:
I'm obligated to like this pairing. All because of the Arlong Arc. Mostly the Arlong Arc anyways. I enjoy this pairing because it's balanced. Even though yeah, Luffy is a COMPLETE DUMBASS, Nami's smarts with Luffy's strenght... I dunno, they just compliment each other perfectly.

Zoro / Nami:
Eh, this couple is only ok to me. It has potential, but neither character has as big connection. But it could still work.

Zoro / Sanji:
This type has to be written VERY WELL. AND I MEAN VERY WELL. I'm very picky with this coupling since I adore both characters, you have to make them in character, at least a LITTLE BIT for me to accept it. Because they do have an awesome nakama thing, much as they don't want to admit it. The arc with Moria proved that. Mostly anime in which I like them, but whatever.

Zoro / Tashigi
IT'S JUST TOO FUNNY. How Tashigi looks like Kuina... GOD I'M SORRY, They don't even interact that much, but it's just too funny to ignore. It's like ODA SENSEI, THANK YOU FOR COMPLETING THIS AWKWARD CIRCLE. Everytime they meet, it's awesome. Because of the awkwardness.

Robin/ Franky
CP9 arc. That's all I can say. That whole arc made me like this couple.

Robin / Zoro
It's hard to explain this one. read the manga and it just works. IT JUST FREAKING DOES. XD. Mostly the Skypeia arc. (as little as I remember of it)

STRAW HAT CREW X ADVENTURE
BECAUSE ODA SENSEI SAID SO. ONLY CANON PAIRING :)

DAIJOBU~

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! And have a happy holiday for all of those who are celebrating something else. :).

Hahaha, I spent like the entire day reading One Piece. I fail right? Well I stopped reading it around 8th gradish, So I had to catch up ALOT. They're on chapter 568 now... Well I kept reading and reading and now I'm chapter 501! (Starting around 380ish, yaha!)

One piece is the only manga I will ever forgive for going on for an eternity. Because I just don't want it to end. Unlike Naruto, which should die a horrible painful death since it's so boring, One Piece has alot of heart, alot of laughs, intense, kickass, and generally an enjoyable read. I love the characters, I love the messages, I love how FREAKING HYPER the music is.

Yeah yeah, the anime. Granted I stopped watching it around the time they entered the grand line since it was sooooo slow (the fight scenes... god they drag on forever. You think the manga drags a tad? the anime shows the same shots over and over. NOOOOOO) , but the Japanese Subs were WONDERFUL. The voice actors are great, and I always crack up while watching it.

One Piece... well it's One Piece. Nothing can really replace it in my heart.

So you may think I'm pathetic spending my Christmas Eve reading One piece. Well I say whatever. I regret nothing :)

Silver dishes for the memories~

----> Fruits basket is possibly my favorite shojo manga ever. Because god damn, I love how Natsuki Takaya develops her relationships, and the complexity of her characters. Yuki and Machi are my favorite couple in the universe <3. Kyo and Tohru are adorable, but I love Machi. And I love Kakeru. :). Tee hee. Every single couple in that series I support. Akito & Shigure, Kureno & Arisa, even the (weird) Uo & Kazuma. I think that's just it's so hilarious to see Kyo go NONONONONONONO. XD.

Gaaah! Pandora Hearts went Kuroshitsuji on me! and Kuroshitsuji went Case Closed on me! WAAAAAAAH.

And at this time, I would like to add how much the music of Kuroshitsuji and Pandora Hearts OWNS. God, Kuroshitsuji is positiviely oozing with dark gothic chords, (I'm Alive to portray the humor in the series I think. LOL, I like that song too). Pandora Hearts is bittersweet and melancholy. The song Everytime You Kissed Me is GOREGEOUS. It's like a music box - nostalgic and bittersweet. Wonderful.

... 8D SO GO LISTEN TO EM YES? :)

I WANNA STAY LIKE THIS FOREVER~

Oh my gosh, Christmas Card Lane was soooo fun!

Playing with Darren's lightsaber the entire time. Waving it around a stuff, giving everyone seizure's hahahaha. And then the LSD glasses. I remember I was running towards Kevin F. with my lightsaber and he screamed like a little girl. TEE HEE HEE. LSD glasses were awerrrrsome. They made everything rainbowy.

THERE WAS A NEW TETRIS BLOCK ON CHRISTMAS CARD LANE. IT MADE A CHRISTMAS TREEE. :).

omg omg, I miss the Winnie the Pooh movie. It was so sad, but awesome. I want to watch it. :3. Christopher Robin has a British accent, lololol.

FOREVER AND EVER, IS A VERY LONG TIME, POOH.
FOREVER ISN'T LONG AT ALL WHEN I'M WITH YOU <3

hmm hmms

Got the Coldplay CD finally. Viva la Vida. The first song is completely instrumental, hahaha. It's pretty awesome. :). When we were playing on the way back from the store, everyone was so confusedddd. xD.

oh yeah, and Planet Earth is so freaking depressing. It's like wtf, it's about earth, it's frakking beautiful filming, but telling us the Polar Bear that we just got attached to is going to die? YEAH THAT MAKES ME WANT TO CRY BUCKETS. THANKS. T__T

... Other than that, pretty sad day. I really don't want to talk about that.

Other than this: There is no God. I can't believe that he'd ever do anything so cruel to people who did nothing in their lives other than love.

greatest day pretty much. :)

Oh wow, today was really really awesome. <3

So getting to school carryin 2 packs of Caprisun and my beautifullll stain glass cookies. Coming in and helping set up for our amazing potluck. There was so much food in WHAP! So much goooooooood food. omg there were these really good chocolate peanut butter truffles. And Ham. And Carrots.

We kidnapped SOOOO many people! Like Felicia and Tiffany, haha. and Eileen and Connie coming. HAHAHA. And watching David's video with Insomnia man and Narcalepsy boy. TEE HEE FABIO METALPUFFS WITH STRAIGHT HAIR. SO AWESOME.

In APAH we had our presentations. Most people did foods, but we had 4 song people. OH GOD ROSHAN'S. Repousse to Single's Ladies. With the leather pants. I laughed so freaking hard. Karl's was pretty funny too, even though probably not as intentional. XD

And then Gov. First just sitting around. We looked through Karl's wallet, and I stole his license and his monies. Then Christine, Barbara and I went on a field trip to Scruggs. I got some cards from his room, which was an incomplete deck. and went to visit Tanaka's to get some tea for Jeff (That lazy bum). LOL at Barbara trying to be discreet and yelling "HE'S NOT HERE" when he was talking to some students. XD. LULZ FAIL.

Playing Spoons where I failed. Urmila would have won, but there was no 4th queen. XD. And the fail 8 drawn on in pen. Then playing BS and having 7 kings and 5 jacks. EPIC WIN. >:D. Hahaha.

And then Karl figured out someone looted his wallet. So he stole Christine's stuff cause he thought she stole it. Then stole Barbara's license cause she thought he stole it. LOL at Christine trying to get Barbara's license out of his butt pocket by using a candycane. And Barbara: "IT'S IN HIS LEFT BUTTCHEEK!" XDDDDDDDDDD. Oh god, I've never laughed so hard. I love my Gov class. So awesome. 8D.

Ok, I'm going to finish this manga now. Lol I love the not so subtle Ryuu. "DON'T KILL YOURSELF!" @___@; XD

COOKIES <3

Anddddddddddddd I finished my stained glass cookies. They actually came out really good. I'm pleasantly surprised. :). I had one too. Pretty goooodddd. Now tomorrow all I gotta do is put black frosting on em! Hee hee.

Welp break is almost here! I can almost taste it on the tip of my tongueee! D:. Why is it so far away.... ;_;.

Excited for break this year. Christmas card lane, Dim Sum party, Pho party, Princess and the Frog, Avatar, Call of Cthulhu game... Yayyyy.

So better go study some apah. Tata. :)

We've been jimmy-jacked!

LOLOLOLOL NO WAY HE CAN'T. :). SORRY, HE'S GROUNDED.

Haha, last night was awesome. Big debate over facebook on stargate. It was pretty cool knowing that other people know about sci fi shows that awesome.

Watched Night of the Museum 2: Battle for the Smithsonian. I LOVED IT. Hilarious stuff. Amelia and Larry's interaction was GOLD. And watching them go into a museum and seeing art pieces you recognize? God, a night guard in a living museum would be FREAKIN AWESOME. New awesome job!

And oh god, this manga is hilariously awkward. I'm just trying to imagine my reaction to these things. Actually it's pretty accurate how I'd act. Except more retarded / violent. Hahahaha... >_>;

But if Lancelot came to visit I'd be like LOL WHERE'S GWENIVERE first. And then I'd be like wait. If you exist that means King Arthur is real...

HISTORICAL FIND OF THE CENTURY! 8{D. YEAHHHH.

Who

I am a product of my environment. Of my childhood.
I am the result of watching so many disney movies as a kid, and loving the ones that no one ever remembers.
Of a nerd father who filled her childhood with Star Wars, Indiana Jones, Star Trek.
And books. Lots of books.
I am the product of spending hours in book stores and libraries, finding things to read, anything to read, to expand my imagination.
I am a product of TV shows filled with superheroes, fantastical creatures, adventures in the worlds beyond, with tough characters and real life lessons.
I come from a land of comic books, any kind - the complex stories, the lessons.
I am made by my heritage of two - a mix between east and west.
Made by my own choices, no matter how small.

I am a product of all my experiences.
This is who I am.

Might as well jump~

OMG, the Glee finale for this year was yesterday. It was sooo dramaful. D:. Damn I really don't like Rachel. I love the rest of the characters though. XD. Well not all of them, but you get it. Awesome songs, and I loved loved loved the end of the episode. With the group singing "My life would suck without you" and then Will chasing after Emma... TEE HEE HEE I giggled like a little girl when I saw that episode. :)

Watched Bones too. Made me sad, but also made me giggle with the awkwardness. And the christmas spirit. :3.

Hahahahaha, so gotta get to work! Busy busy busy~.

YAY I'M GOING TO COLLEGE

I'M GOING TO COLLEGE! HOORAAAAY!

... SORRY THAT'S ALL I REALLY HAVE TO SAY. I got into my ED school! YESYESYESYESSSSS!

I'm sooooo happy and so thrilled! No more worrying! ^^ Now I can... concentrate on school work.

... hooraaaaaaaaaaaaaay. xD

christmas list, lol.

WHAT I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS (The selfish list) :
- Sunglasses. Not overly big ones.
- Scarves. Monochrome are my favorite. :3
- Gloves. I like the kind that convert from fingerless to mittens :3. Or Armwarmers.
- Big Rain jacket. They can be as obnoxiously colored as you want.
- WARM FUZZY SOCKS.
- Hair ties. Lots and lots of hair ties.
- Beanies / other hats of that are warm.
EX: Grey Plaid And Black Faux Fur Ear Flap Cap (check hot topic site, on gifts under 20 bucks on the holiday guide)
- Ugly Doll, Ice Bat. The Black one
- Transformers Megatron And Optimus Prime Messenger Bag (Check the clearance for Hot Topic website)
- GETTING INTO A GOOD COLLEGE
- LOVE
- Books. Doesn’t matter what they are. I love books and everything to do with them. Like gift cards.

wow, comic nerd rant, haha.

Bah, didn't do that great at the swim meet. :/. I did drop time in one event, but still not good enough to be considered a notable meet. :[

Hummmm, other than that I spent the rest of the weekend decorating the tree, studying for APAH, Watched Harry Potter and the Sorceror's Stone, watched part of the live thing for TGWTH.com for the donation. I can't believe that Doug has a girlfriend! O___O. I want to know who it is though.

AND OMG I DIDN'T KNOW SPOONY HAD SO MANY FANGIRLS. O___O. SO FRAKKING SCARY. D:. I love Spoony too, but it was quite disturbing what they were saying about the poor guy. Personally I like Doug better. And Linkara. Linkara is adorable. XD. I should probably watch some of his Atop the 4th Wall ones, although I'm not that much into comics... I mean I still love them but...

SERIOUSLY, the new flash is insane. They brought back Barry AND Bart. WHAT THE FUCK. Don't kill of Bart, have me sob my freaking eyes out and then be like "OH YEAH HE'S BACK NOW!". Oh, and this whole thing with Dark Flash (not really dark flash. I forget his name. He's the yellow one. I know, I fail.) alternating history and stuff? Killing Barry's mom and then going to kill Iris before she marries Barry so then none of the other flashes will exist, but then neither will he?

... clearly he doesn't know about time paradoxes. Or if he does, he's just stupid. :. Blah DC is so complicated. They have this whole thing with reinventing Supergirl... Gah. And Wonder Woman getting a fiancee, then losing him and shit... UGH. Green Arrow and Black Canary being lurvy and stuff, Canary kicking ass while Green Arrow is has OMG ISSUES.

:. I miss the old days of comics. I love the old Spiderman's & Fantastic 4. But now everything needs to be complicated and have issues -___-;

I DON'T WANNA LOT FOR CHRISTMAS!

Johnny Depp is such an insanely awesome actor. He can do ANY role! It's so crazy... And yeah Edward Scissorhands is freaking adorable. That scene where Kim asks her to hold her, and he says he can't... and then... WAAAAAAAH. That movie is awesome <3.

Jon Stewart is awesome too. I love his sense of humor. I love the daily show. He always makes me laugh. :3

GOD DAMN YOU MARIAH CAREY. ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS SO CATCHY. I love that song though, even if I don't care about the subject material. :X. Damn she can hit insanely high notes.

Tee hee, been making snowflakes in the library. I love it! :) Soooo much fun!

I had a reason for starting this but now I'm in too good of mood to discuss it. OBAI BAI.

whoever she may be.

Ugh, this week has been pretty trashy. So tired and sore. Blah.

Listening to alot of differnet music lately. It's sort of nice.

... I'm sorry, alot of things are happening right now. And fow now, I'd like to keep them private. It's unavoidable I know, but... Well I don't want to talk about it right now. My family's going through a hard time. All I can really say.

Welp, tata.

raeg about lurve

I'm going to rant about love because rewriting A River Sutra essay made me want to kill myself with all the BSing.

Ok, Love isn't like some romantic comedy, dammit. You do not look at someone and automatically decide you love them. It takes TIME to work out a relationship. It takes time to become friends, to become something more. And after that, your not even sure you can go farther. If you really fall in love, it's not just by looking and deciding it. It does not take a fucking week. It takes REAL TIME to do so. I know they always portray those whirlwind romances and shit. Where she falls in love with just one trip together by happy coincidence.

So romantic. [/sarcasm]. It takes alot of time to make a relationship work, and sometimes even that doesn't work. And being in love and having fallen once does not guarantee happiness. Because fuck, I know someone like that, and she's still probably fucking bitter. You know what it takes.

BACKBONE. It takes someone saying "enough is enough" and getting the fuck out of there, getting on with your life. It takes someone saying "I won't give you the satisfactory of taking all the happiness I'll have for the rest of my life. Goodbye". Sometimes you just have to do it, leave. Cause you know it's going nowhere. Not because you love another boy or some shit like that. Because you KNOW. No amount of damn work will fix it.

You know what would be a great date? Just sitting at home, watching a movie with the person you love while chatting. Baking cookies. Playing Video games. Having a bowling battle. Lots of damn average things.

Blah, I hate how some people betray love. I may have never felt it, but I know when you've got it wrong. Perhaps it's up to interpretation or whatever, but when you've got it wrong, I mean FUCKING wrong.

freaking ouuuuut

WARNING: MAJOR COLLEGE FREAKOUT, SO SORRY. I NEED TO START RANTING OR I'M GOING TO DIE.

So yeah, I dunno it's surreal thinking that someone else in the world is applying early decision to your same obscure major at a school. wtf wtf wtf. D:. I'm so nervous. What if I don't get in?!?!?!

And this one person said they found out if they got accepted or not on DECEMBER 5TH. OHGOT THAT'S JUST WAY TO CLOSE.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

Thanksgiving was catty

Watching Chocolat, so I'll make this brief as possible.

Thanksgiving was awesome. Good food, really lazy... sitting around doing a puzzle, reading MLIA / reading books, chasing the cats around. I was a little sad, cause my favorite cat in the whole world, bear, passed away a year ago, with the bad cat food thing. I wish I could've known, I loved him so much. He was so chubby and cute and I just loved him. D':.

Yeah, so I found a new one of my favorite book. Chocolat. It's such a nice story. Like a fairytale. Which is why I'm watching the movie now, haha. Although Roux name doesn't make sense in the movie, since Johnny Depp doesn't have red hair. :/.

But I love the atmosphere, the themes, the characters... BWAAAAAAAAAAAAH. <3

Btw. VIKING WARRIOR IS SO DEPRESSING, WHAT THE HELL. IT'S TEEN FICTION, STOP BEING SO DEPRESSING. It's even more depressing than fight club, wtf. D:

AND KNOWING IS HALF THE BATTLE.

Watching GI Joe. So mindlessly action. I love pointing out the plot holes. <3. Nostalgia critic has taught me very well. :3. Tee hee hee.

Seriously, snake eyes? Totally awesome. I love his kick ass powers. I'm jealous cause I really want that kind of athletic. Haha, but this movie has soooo many amazing action cliche's. I love it. 8D.

GAH I LOVE SNAKE EYES. And Channing Tatum. Teehee, he's so adorable. But he plays like. All military guys. And military guys aren't quite dorky enough D':. And he's married too. But he's a dancer HAHAHAHA.

Teehee this movie is so lame. I love it. I want to see snake eyes face. D':.

AND DAMMIT BARONESS ISN'T QUITE AS AWESOME AS IN THE TV SERIES. D:. NO ACCENT AND SHE HAS SO MANY DAMN TIES. -____-;. And he starts developing a conscious reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy late in the movie. It's dumb.

Ok well that's enough of GI Joe ranting, haha, XD

Random quotes :D

And every heartache makes you stronger, but it won't be much longer.
You'll find love, you'll find peace, and the you you're meant to be.
I know right now that's not the way you feel, but one day you will.

There's always going to be an occasional night
when you break down and cry, because you
know things will never be the same.
Turn up the radio and sing your lungs out.
Cause kid, this is it, and this is all it ever will be.
So get used to it, suck it up and just live your life.

I just think happiness is what makes people pretty.
Period. Happy people are beautiful.

Sometimes you just feel empty, lonely, insignificant. And it doesn’t matter
what you do, no it doesn’t matter how many laps you run, musicals you join,
classes you skip or how many pairs of shoes you buy - you still feel like crap.
Sometimes I just feel like taking off, selling everything I own and running
away to somewhere so distant, running away into the unknown

So don't let the world bring you down.
Not everyone here is
that fucked up and cold.
Remember why you came and
while you're alive,
experience the warmth before you grow old.

My thoughts tend to sound better in books I didn't write, and in the songs
I didn't sing. Even then, sometimes there is no piece of literature, no song,
no work of art that can really explain the way you feel. There is a
double-edge comfort in knowing that no one really knows.

Life takes your dreams and turns them upside down; people talk about you
when you're not around. People make promises they just can't keep, and I've
come to realize that talk is cheap. Too often we don't realize what we have until
it's gone; too often we wait too long to say "I'm sorry, I was wrong." Sometimes
it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts,
and we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart.

What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?

And the secret is,
this will hurt less and less each time.

Until you can't feel a thing.

Sometimes you just have to turn your back
and walk away, whether you're walking out
on your friends, or the love of your life. Sometimes letting go
and moving on is the hardest thing to do,
but the best thing in the end.

don't think I don't think about it.

Washington again. Bah, I had to swim an hour today. D':. I really want to go ice skating though... Dx. My bro doesn't want to go though. So that's no fun... but maybe I can get him too. And the stupid light in the room isn't working. D:. waaaah.

Made spaghetti with minimal help today! Yayyyy. Although I still needed some help. I think I overcooked the spaghetti a little, but life goes on. :X. I fail so hard though. D: bah.

I'm so immature it's a crime.
I'll laugh at all the inappropriate things.
Like love.
Just thinking about it makes me giggle.
Perhaps I'll be prone to this forever.
Forever blissfully naive.
Maybe if I'm that lucky.
Or unlucky.
I don't know what to think.
I just can't take lines like
"I love you"
seriously anymore.
Maybe I'm too far gone.
Maybe if I'm that lucky.
Or maybe someone will change that.
(I hope not.)

FEMINISM CRYS. D:

Up in washington for Thanksgiving. We drove through snow! It was sooo cold / still is cold outside. In the 30's! It's crazyy. D:. But good food - good fatty food. Apple Cobbler, Omlettes, French Dip sammich. Yummyyyy. I also had a raspberry shake, but it wasn't that good. Too artificial. D:

So yeah, I'm watching JFK conspiracy specials on Discovery. GOD I love that channel. Mythbusters <3. I also watched Man v. Wild. Which is freggin insane. Erggggg, eating rattlesnake or scorpion.... EWWWWW. Dx. Bah humbug.

So yeah, I'm reading The Master and Margarita right now... and it was getting kinda heavy. So I started reading Destiny's Embrace, by Suzanne Elizabeth, some bad harlequinn novel lying around the cabin. And... omg my eyes.

Wow, I mean... at first it wasn't too bad. The main character was witty and intersting, and I really liked the bantering between her and the guy. And then the book goes OMGSEXYTIEM on you and she loses all coolness. Jeezus Christ am I ashamed of her. She just gives herself to him! What the hell. You spend the first part of the book building up a character, and then the author goes "Naaaaaaaaaah, let's make this completely ridiculous. UNSPOKEN ATTRACTION TEEHEEHEEE." Ok, I'm fine with that stuff. But at least build the attraction up more than omg she's hot. I mean they try to make it SEEM like it isn't but they fail. Terribly. Oh, and how all the characters are so accepting of their relationship and shit? Dear lord. It was 1879. I don't CARE how liberal you were back then, that's still very UNLIKELY that'd you trust someone enough to take them into your home / have sexytiems without being married. e_____e.

UIHERHTKJERTBREYTY. I mean the character was such a strong character. And then bam. Now she's putty in his hands and damn useless, needing saving. :. Gosh darnit.

<3 assassin's creed 2. xD

Yeah, it's been pretty busy. I did ok at the swim meet. I did drop time in the 200 breast and the 400 IM. But I feel kind of guilty that I'll be gone from practice all next week cause of break. Up in washington to visit my dad's family. Mostly my grandma and grandpa noel. I don't wanna tell coach, but I know I'll have to... lesigh.

OMG ASSASSIN'S CREED 2 LOOKS SO GODDAMN AWESOME. O__O. Watch the trailer if you have time. It's insane. :0

welp, off to work. tata. :X

Can't feel a thing?

THIS WEEKEND SHALL BE THE DEATH OF ME. WISH ME LUCK: I HAVE A SWIM MEET TOMORROW AND SUNDAY, HAVE A CASE BRIEF TO WORK ON IN GOV SINCE I'M A LAWYER ON ABORTION WITH THE SUPREME COURT, COLLEGE APPS, AP ART HISTORY CARDS...
Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

I descend into my own paranoia sometimes.
I'm scared that you'll leave me.
You'll forget about me
I know, that can't happen
in a week.
But you're going back
What if?
I am quite forgettable.
Even though I am assured I'm not.
I feel as if I am.
Maybe it's best if you do.
I have no heart to give
but I remember how to feel.
I think I'm kind of like a nobody
like that.
And it's just I'm scared
that you'll leave me behind
more than anything.
Nobody's don't feel.
Nobody feels.
No body.
No.

If you only knew.

Yay day off tommorrow!! :). So excited. Even though I have to wake up early. Boo hoo. D:. Practice at 7:15 at RA. :. Thanks Dan. mucho gracias. Especially that pool. Ew. Dx.

It's nice to feel something, you know? Being conflicted again. Even though some thoughts haunt me to no end. Or maybe that was just last night. I dunno, last night was frustrating. Couldn't sleep til midnight. :<.

I mean it's not a nice feeling. I guess. It depends really on which one. The regret and the worrying, oh yeah that's annoying, but that's ok. At least I'm sort of feeling negative emotion again.

But well... it's just I like someone, ok? It's hard to admit I guess. I wish I could elaborate, but I'd rather not. But I will say, he's adorable. And I adore him as a friend. So I don't really care what happens. Just as long as he doesn't leave. :P.

Not love, probably never will be. I'm not fickle. Too logical for my own good, I think.

Watch out for the flying desks.

LOL, M*A*S*H. "I think I just got turned off permanently." XD. Oh Hawkeye, what a chap. And the pick up lines they told the poor new nurse? I don't understand how she seemed so flattered, haha. I was facepalming at all of them though. And also laughing. Poor chaps. And I know how to cheat at boxing now. GET THE ETHER, STAT. :D

So I finished everything yay~. 4 1/2 page essay on A River Sutra when Scruggs asked it to be 2-3. LULZ I FAIL SO HARD. And it's about love. I had ALOT OF FUN writing the sarcastic and mean stuff about love. And then I had to do the 2nd paragraph. Ohgod that was painful spitting out such bullshit about love. I couldn't concentrate on it since I was so... yuckkkk. D:

Oh it's not I don't like love. It's all fine and dandy. But I so love making fun of it. So writing stuff that's so positive... D:. It makes me sadface.

Now excuse me while I go read some ANGSTY ASH MISTY. Ohwow, it's so funny. XD SHE DIED AND NOW I CAN'T LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE WITHOUT YOOOOOOOOOOOU. HAHAHAHAHA

Lost and insecureee~

I've been way too happy lately! Time for a rather emo post~
... after telling you what I did today, huhuh.

So I helped out my bro in his eagle project in the canyon. It was hard work, but it was ok. Finished it all today, so I'm pretty free tomorrow! Yay!! I'm excited, haha. Not really, I finished my APAH card, but haven't studied them. And I'm on my 1st body paragraph. Blaaaaaaah. D:

So yeah depressing shit.

I dunno, I guess I'm just worried about college. Not getting in or anything. But... adjusting. I've rarely had to go and make entire new group of friends. What am I going to do when I go to college and meet people I don't know, and even... make friends?? The truth is too hard to bear. I'm scared I'm going to be so unbearably lonely.

I'm not a terribly social person. So what am... what am I going to do? I don't know, what do I do, what do I do...

... Looking back I shouldn't have done anything. I should of shut myself off before I could screw that shit up. I should of told myself to wait. Maybe you'll feel something more, a hopeful voice would say. Maybe you'll learn to do so.

And then I wake up.

I did what I did because I hate lying to the people I care about on how I feel. I don't care how many people I hurt. If I know something's wrong, then I'm going to voice what I think. If I don't want to talk about it, I won't. But when I say my feelings, I mean everything that I say.

I won't say "I love you" if I don't mean it. Some people will. To make people happy. I think I want to kill them for ridding the value of such a wonderful word. I'm tired of people who just give up for other people's happiness. That's how I got into that situation. Because I wanted to make someone HAPPY. And then I realized making them "happy" wasn't going to make me happy. So I got off that cloud rather quickly. I did what I did.

I'm sorry I'm so selfish. I'm sorry that I know when lying to others just makes them more unhappy. That I won't just sit by and think "Oh things will change."

Things don't change unless you make them so.

HAHAHAHAHA, I started on one rant and moved to another. INCONSISTENTTTTT. xD

getty villa awesome!

OMG, the Cal Poly password was such a pain in the ass. I want to kill things, it was so bad. Plus my printer hates me, YAYYY.

So busy this weekend; A River Sutra Essay due & APAH test on Monday, Assignment notebook due Tuesday, and volunteer days of 9-4 for tomorrow and Sunday! Ahhh the stress!

Well, the field trip was awesome. Soooo pretty. I was in Scruggs group again!! Tee hee, awesome. Watched Zoolander on the way up. Such a dumb movie, but I love it, haha. MAGNUM LOOKKKK. It's a beautiful area with some extremely exquisite pieces. Chimera of Arezzo and Getty Bronze were there! Yeaaaaaaaaaaah! Lol at Will, Karl, Courtney & Legarlin dressing in togas. And the Discobolus pose, haha. Roshan breaking the popcorn discobolus, and the group picture. Roshan lifting up his shirt and going "SPRING BREAK!" XD. God, so fun. I love my WHAP and APAH class. :X

Welp, gotta work! tata!

into the hurricane~

Finished A River Sutra. OMG IT BLEW MY MIND. D:. The ending was like... OMGWTFBBQ. And then everything made sense. Wow. My mind is still reeling. What the heck. Omg omg omg omg.

Ok. Yeah. FIELD TRIP TOMORROW. SOOOO EXCITED I GET TO MISS GOV. XD. And going with my class? Fun stuff. I'll probably end up fangirling. Tee hee.

Man, We have a take home essay due for A River Sutra. I'm still not sure what to do it on. I could do it on love, but that's so... TYPICAL. D:. Man.

... TEE HEE FIELD TRIPPPP.

take it back, take it back~

Man, my whole body aches. Hard practice today. :<. blah, and I got morning practice. Oh well, I chose this sport. Got to make the sacrifices in order to do it. I really dislike daylights savings, since now I have to drive home in the dark. :/. But well I like autumn and winter. Although I do wish it would be a white christmas for once in my life. But I digress.

Watched the pilot episode of M*A*S*H. Sooo funny, haha. Actually, old shows can be pretty hilarious. Actually old shows in general are really funny. Watch some Golden girls. It's about 4 old ladies, but MAN do I adore that show. So funny. xD.

Welp, tata for now. Gotta go dream up a different world. ;D

last call, lost cause

Halloween was bunches of funnn. Went to Bando party and trick or treated for like an hour and a half. I GOT CRAYONS AND A SPIDER RING. TEE HEE HEE. AWESOMEEEE. Then we went back and watched Eight Legged Freaks. As much as I'm scared of spiders, it was actually very very humorous. We barely paid attention, and were pointing out all the untrue stuff about it and stuff. GG old man with pitchfork. And sheriff with chainsaw and token crazy black guy. :D

Then we watched some of Nightmare before Christmas before I had to leave. Lulz, it was great fun. What an average halloween, (referring to MLIA).

Breathe in. Breathe out.
The night is filled with stars
which I can't see.
Is it weird that I won't wish
for anyone tonight?

Breathe in. Breathe out.
I'm too scared to get close to people.
I try to push them away.
Don't get too close
I warn myself.
Don't hurt anyone else.

Breathe in. Breathe out.
Why am I so chipper
when there's nothing to be happy about?
Why do I find love
so hilarious?
My mind still reels at all
the differences I share.

Breathe in. Breathe out.
Breathe in. Breathe out.

What do I have to lose?
Breathe in. Breathe out.

the realm of possibilities

So I finished my first application yesterday.
Dear lord, I've never been more stressed out! It was an early app to the one college I really really want to go to. I'm so nervous. I don't think I can wait til Mid December for the decision! I can't imagine going to any other school...

But maybe the good increase in score this time around for the SATs and all.

It's just... I looked more in depth at my program and the projects look goregeous. I'm so excited to learn to design such beautiful things.

I have so many dreams in my head, you know? I wish I could write down all the ideas I have in my head, all the worlds, all the characters, all the lines. But it never comes out quite right. So I just expand my mind even more by reading, and imaginging.

The possibilities are boundless in my head.

Not at least til I have to~

<-- oh god, it's like a shojo manga all over again! D:. Yeah, the text in red is so my reply, haha.

Seriously, reading shojo manga outloud in a very dramatic way can be extremely fun. Especially Fushigi Yuugi tee hee hee. I'LL NEVER LET YOU GO, LULZ LULZ.

Well I have nothing to report from the land of... land. I'll just post some quotes that I like from A River Sutra. :]. They are all from Tariq Mia. Cause he's just so awesome.

"You mustn't be so frightened of love, little brother."
"How can you say you have given up the world when you know so little of it?"

"My students will thank Allah for their good fortune, knowing they must endure me for the rest of the day."
"The human heart has only one secret. The capacity to love."
"Oh little brother, are you so unfortunate? Have you never beed scalded by love?"
"But, as I say, I am an old man and too close to meeting God myself to exhaust what little energy remains to me in singing to him all night..."

FAIL PEOPLE. D:<

I'm going to start this entry with one thing:
I am probably one of the most unsympathetic people when it comes to unrequited love.

You want to get over them? MOVE ON.
You can't do it? WELL YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO.
I know that sounds really rough, but if I've done a million and one times, you can do it too. I'm fine if your trying, then I sympathize cause it really is hard. But if you don't even try. You automatically go "Oh I can't". Well fuck you. Seriously, I hope you die alone then. NO ONE WILL BE BETTER, WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. SHUT THE FUCK UP. Seriously - one. No one really cares. You'll just push people away if you whine and complain about your tru luvvvv and how much you luvvvvvvv them, but they luvvvvvvv someone else. Be fucking patient then. If it's meant to be, you'll have to wait until they come around. And well that's all fine and dandy, but your wasting away your life on something your not even sure off.

To the kids who don't want to make a decision? TOO FUCKING BAD.
Make one and live with it. If you're afraid of hurt people. Well guess what. PEOPLE GET HURT. Stop treating them like babies and decide. I did. I lived. What happens is what happens. MOVE THE FUCK ON.

And yeah guess what, Trying to make people jealous doesn't work. It only pisses people off. So fuck you, people who think freaking with another girl when you like another to make the other jealous is all fine and dandy. You're not even worth looking at.

/rage

Love your life.

<--- Isn't it sad? :<

You know, I've changed alot in the past few months. Everything used to bother me. I used to care about everything, I was indesicive, I was anxious, I just wanted life to go away.

But now... after all I've been through... well, I love my life. I swim my heart out everyday. It feels good to be exhausted. I love my classes. Yes, even useless AP Gov. I love sitting next to Jeff, Karl, Christine, Urmila, and Charles, who make the class a billion times more bearable. I love WHAP & APAH as the history buff I am - the books we're reading, the material we're learning... I don't care if everyone else thinks it's useless. I love it.

I love my friends. All of them. Even the ones I barely talk to. They make me smile and they give me a reason to interact with people, even when I don't want to. I love my family. I love how I can tell them practically everything, and how silly we can be, even when there's trouble afoot, I know I can depend on them.

I love the books I read and how they make me think. I love beautiful things that no one else really considers, I love the music that surrounds my head.

... I actually love myself for who I am.

HOMECOMINGGGG

OMG HOMECOMING WAS SO AWESOMEEEEE <3.

So let's start from the very beginning, shall we? :)
So I didn't go to the game this year. Whatever, I was able to sit at home and do some serious Kingdome hearts playing done, haha. And yeah, just a lazy night.

So then Saturday comes along. Got a swim swim meet for the first part of the day. Which was ok I guess. I dropped time in most of my event except for the 100 back. Boooo. But anyways. We hurried home, and I headed out to Felvic's house with my delicious brownies.

Got there and ate dinner with the group. LOL, Alex fails at cutting up the brownies. He cut up the foil at the same time, LOL. So all us girls got changed after we ate (ON THE FLOOR. WIN). The boys were downstairs screamin about spiders which Fishie had hid around the area. And they wouldn't stop. Gawrsh. Mijo had to straigthen everyone's hair and Felvic had the greatest hat ever. :0. Gary came late with all his soda, LOL. We took pictures. And then walked to Home Coming. SO HARDCORE.

Got checked in by the librarians, HAHA. They're job was to make sure people weren't freaking. Wouldn't that be really awkward though? Have the librarians catch you dirty dancing? SNAP. We were part of the first 200 to get in, so we got smoothies. Which I spilled all over my white dress and got my hands all sticky. WINNNN.

And the rest of the night was spent just dancing and having a crazy time. Shouting "Don't Stop Believing" was pretty awesome. And our fail dancing. Me running around and seeing bunches of people I knew. GARY CAN FIT 4 GIRLS UNDERNEATH HIS ARMS, AHA. And Gary and Alex fighting over the hat they found lying around. And the guys being extremely gay with each other. WIN.

The whole dance was just win. Afterwards, our group walked back. I got cold, and said so, and Gary was like "Do you want my shirt?" He didn't understand why I said no, HAHAHA. And complained especially loud when I took Kevin's jacket, haha. Got back to Felvic's house around 11. We proceeded to eat all her food and lay around the house until she kicked us out. :X. I drove Gary to the stop light. He wouldn't get out of the car, LOL. xD. Almost missed the light. XDD.

Great homecoming. Best one EVER. Had TONS of fun. <3

GG planning.

LOL. Tomorrow is Hetalia day and we're having a axis power themed cooking party at Felvic's house. Excellent timing! XD. Tee hee, I'm so excited for tomorrow. I hope I can get done with the meet early so then I can go and help cook! >_<;;. Ah well. Well I finished the brownies! I loveeee mixing brownies. It gets so thick and gooey. It's wonderful. It doesn't stick to the pan as much this time around haha. Hopefully I'll have enough for tomorrow. :]. Since I am the only Germany one, haha. AXIS POWERS, TEE HEE HEE.

To you, the world is filled with hate I suppose.
People like y'all.
You make the world feel so dark.
You're the reason people
are afraid of being themselves.
They're afraid of being judged.
Or being thrown away.
Well you know what?
Screw you.
If I'm going to Hell
at least I'll be hanging out with all the cool people.
Since your "God" hates everyone but you.
What a lonely heaven, I'd think.
I'll take my fire and brimstone.
Over your 'paradise'.
Cause your paradise?
That sounds like my hell.

I just keep losing my beat~

Bah, I'm sooo sore. Dx. Hard work out today. I could barely breathe during the few precious seconds we had for rest. Coach came to ask our times, and I was too busy breathing to even do that math to tell him the time. But it was a satisfying practice, if I do say so myself. C:

Man I'm so sad. Bones isn't on tonight. D:. Life is so empty without Bones. D:. Lack of awkward lurve makes me sad.

Btw, Puck and Rachel are a cuter couple than Finn and Rachel from Glee. For serious.

Man, today was pretty good. Especially offroll. Me and Amy are going to be the only ones to survive if the country enforces a natural selection on anyone who can't get a rubber 'get strong' bracelet with one hand fast enough. Hahahaha. Perhaps I'm destined to be a halo spartan. :X.

Well I'm going to go read cheesy pick up lines and play video games. Life is so simple and sweet right now. I love it. xD

who you gonna call?

<--- IN HONOR OF THE STAY PUFF MARSHMELLOW MAN, LOLOL. Seriously, catchiest theme song ever. And being a ghostbuster would be an awesome job, don't you think? It'd be like a firemen. Except more awesome. Tee hee.

"I AIN'T FRAID OF NO GHOST!" >:D.

Haha, new goal in life; be a ghostbuster. I wanna be on a team with the nostalgia critic. :B. And James Rolfe. We'd kick nerdy ass. :D

College fair todayyyy. Just picked up alot of shit for my bro, and checked out the room with my current IWANTTOGOTO college. I should have asked more questions, but well... I don't have any questions really. I know I want to go there. XD. It's really hard to explain... and I've meaning to talk to my friend who's going there now and ask her about it, but I'm afraid she's too busy and I don't want to waste her time. >___<;;

Tee hee, I saw something on Rofirazzi about Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers. My day is complete. :D

Welp, gotta study for APAH~.

high hats, narrow collars~

Today was a relatively good day~. Although the APAH test sucked. I still love that class haha. And Hinduism presentation with food & bollywood?! WHO CAN RESIST?! D:. We has a Lagaan song in there. Freaking love Lagaan. I had it stuck in my head for most of the period, haha. At least their songs actually make sense. And it's a funny movie, just because of the english girl. :B.

Man, swim practice was hard today. Bah, I'll be dropping off for bed soon so I can make it to mornin practice. Wake up time at 4:30! FUN STUFF GUYS. 8D

Yesterday I bought some chocolate pretzels at Henry's. Sooooooo goood. I don't care if their fatty. I can afford to gain weight. :X.

Oh and btw? Fred Astaire is awesome. Seriously that guy is an amazing dancer. And the first jedi. Just watch Puttin on the Ritz and you will open your eyes. >:D

I WANT TO BREAK FREEEEE.

The world's not fair hun. It never will be.

It's the best thing I can say to you.
I could be hurt, I could be depressed,
In a way I am - we had our good times.
But I threw that away and I'm living with my choices.
And I'm not going to lie - I do miss it sometimes.
But honestly?
I'm just so happy with myself. For once.
Cause I don't care what you say anymore.
Or anyone else for that matter.
(Not that much anyways)
I hurt you. I'm sorry about that.
But hun, it's time to drive away and never look back.
The future is a marvalous thing.
And the past always has it's nostalgia.
But there is only now, you know?
Now.
NOW.
I know there will probably be plenty of other boys,

plenty of other friends,

plenty of other life changing experiences for me.
They'll never be the same, yeah.
But that's the beauty of memories.
(Can't believe it took me til senior year to figure this shit out.)
But well.
Life goes on.
So long dear.
I sincerely wish you have a pleasant life.

I work til I ache in my bones~

Wah, next week is going to be hell. D: APAH TESTS FAIL ;_;.
Plus Religion presentation due Tuesday. I finished my part, but blah. Just nervous about it.
Although I'm actually in a pretty good mood. I've been watching alot of monster madness stuff by James Rolfe, who runs Cinemassacre. Because of him, I've learned alot more about classic horror movies and such. Man, the horror movies before color are... soooo awesome! They look so intriguing and spellbinding. Bela Lugosi and Boris Karloff (especially Karloff <3) are wonderful. And then we get into the gorey stuff. It's so disgusting and unpleasant. :/.

Bought Queen's Greatest Hits CD. Soooo awesome. No Bohemian Rhapsody though, FML. Dx. Oh well. :B. Still awesome classic rock <3

You know, I've been in a general state of happiness lately. I don't know, I've been working hard, with all my free time learning new things and spending with my family... Drifting away from some friends, growing closer to others...

And yet I'm satisfied with my life. I'm actually okay with the choices I've made this year.

I was afraid after all this I'd feel all this regret. But I don't.

Weird how I start to receive closure now, huh?

But on the other hand.

SO YAY SATS ARE DONE WOO HOO.
... but my face is swollen with a potential infection, I have a dull headache, Alotttt of APAH cards to do, Gov to BS... Fun weekend, haha.

I would just like to take the time to say that Ancient Indian History is awesome. Especially Asoka. I wish they had more of him in my WHAP reading. He sounds like such an interesting guy. :X

Meh, I hate being sick. :/. I'm not in such a good mood right now, since my mouth is really bothering me and so is my head.

DUMB PRINTER.

Damn printer hates me. :/. Seriously, why the hell does it have to do this THIS YEAR. THE YEAR WHERE I ACTUALLY NEED THE PRINTER ALL THE FUCKING TIME. TOP NOTCH WORK HP. HAVING THE SOLUTION THING ONLY WORK WHEN A PRINTER IS CONNECTED. WELL YOU KNOW WHAT, THAT'S THE FUCKING PROBLEM. MY PRINTERS NOT CONNECTING FOR SOME DUMB REASON AND YOU CAN'T GIVE ME AN ANSWER CAUSE "no product is detected". BULLSHIT.

... So anyways. Reading new volume of Case Closed in the library today and... well. First I'm going to state this; Case Closed is much better at developing believable and cute relationships than most shojos. And it's a crime solving manga. SERIOUSLY.

Anyways, it's one with Serena in it and... WOW. That's all I have to say about her relationship with Makoto. It's freggin BEAUTIFUL. I love Jimmy and Rachel's, but... SERENA AND MAKOTO ARE ADORABLE. BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. Dx.

... ok I'm done now.

to say anything else

Today was such a beautifulllll day~. The air was crisp, but the sun was still shining. It was kind of like after the rain, except I don't know... more crispy. :3.
That's why I like fall - mostly because even though it's getting colder, it's not too cold. Especially where I live haha. As Gary puts it: "It's sunny every. single. day." XD.

YARGH, My whole family is sick! So annoying. I hope they get better soon. :[. Plus I'm the only who's not sick, so it's like... I'M NEXT. O_____________O

And I got the new KH game. What's it called again? 382 1/2 days or something. I'm not far into it cause I'm so busy, but dang, alot of the organization 13 members are totaly jackasses. Except for Axel. Man, I love Axel. Next mission I get to go on with him. >:D.

BTW XION WAS SO INVENTED TO MAKE AXEL AND ROXAS SEEM STRAIGHT. THE FOOLS. D:<

"WHY DO ALL THE GIRLS LEAVE ME?!"

Ohwow, Saturday was soooo fun. <3.
So after piano theory and getting my car washed, I went to volunteer at the WV gold tourney. WV gold was practicing on the field when I got there, so I hung out with VJ, Yang, Dale & Fujii. Makes me miss the guys even more. D:. School is so weird without them... even though it's already been a month or two since I've had to adjust without them. Can't get over that they're gone. D:.

So after WV gold was done, we retreated to the bandroom. All the bandos went their seperate ways. Dobby Tsui went with Charbear. (THAT IS HIS NEW NAME, I WANT IT TO CATCH ON. D:< CAUSE IT'S WEIRD TO CALL HIM CHARLES. I KNOW TOO MANY CHARLES, SO I THINK OF THE ASIAN ONES IF I CALL HIM CHARLES. D:). ANYWAYSSSS, so then I hung out with Brenda, Gary, and other random bandos until I had to volunteer.

MC'S SHOW IS AWESOME BTW. SO IN AWE OF THEIR SHOW. T___T

Afterwards, I hung out for a little longer. Lulz, Denise and Tom spinning around the band room, and then Tom fell on his tailbone. "I feel like I was penetrated by a blackman." XDDDDD.

Overall, a great day. x3