FUUUUU CHARACTERS. D:

Spent my memorial day hiking & playing Final Fantasy 13. And I gotta say, it's not terribly hard at the moment, but I am taking my sweet time with it, haha. For one thing, it is an absolutely GOREGEOUS game for starters. Really, I just like to sit there in awe sometimes. The music is pretty nice too. :).

But the characters. I remember one review saying that Vanille was so annoying, that she is a fatal flaw in the game.

I believe they are mistaken. Hope and Snow are FAR more annoying. Snow won't FUCKING SHUT UP about Serrah. I know she's your fiancee, but it's COMPLETELY nauseauting. Shut up before I punch you. And Hope, I know you're only a kid and you're mom just died. I can only sympathize with you for so long. Look, MAN THE FUCK UP. Why don't you freaking tell Snow off if you hate him so much for gods's sake?? You're almost completely useless as your always moping and never willing to man up. Look at the fucking situation your in. GROW SOME OR DIE. I WISH YOU'D DIE SOMETIMES.

... On that note, I'm not that far in the game, maybe they get better. But right now I want to punch them. :D

sherlock holmes plz

No icon today. I'm not on my own computer, so not going to use one. :). I'm up at my grandma's house for the memorial day weekend. All I've really done is read about 200 or more pages of Anna Karenina (more than I have in like. the past 3 months.) since I NEED to finish the book over the weekend. That and I watched Sherlock holmes with my cousin.

It was a very enjoyable movie if I do say so myself. Robert Downey Jr. makes the entire movie. He reinvents Holmes into something very incredible and is probably the most intriguing as well as the most fun character I've seen on film in a very long time. Although, I did find the relationship between Watson and Holmes very lacking. Sure, it was there, but I feel like it should have been either developed alot more. They should learn more about a bromance through watching Kal ho naa ho's Aman and Rohit, HAHA. (no seriously) Adler was an interesting character. Many have talked how Holmes is supposedly asexual, but I feel like their relationship is a bit more ambiguous. I think he likes her more than others, like he does with Watson, as she's almost as smart as he is. He's intrigued by her more or less. Although yeah, it is kind of blatant how they try to make in a romantic attraction on both sides, but I like pretending that it's not so, haha.

The story was very interesting. I really enjoyed how Holmes tied it all together in the end, :).

Well, I'm getting tired. Probably gonna turn in early today. Tata darlings.

We have love.

We live in a world
so heartbreakingly beautiful & tragic.
We have death
famine, poverty,
pain, sadness.
But we also have love,
we have the ocean on sunny days
(Love)
and sunsets and sunrise to die for
(Love)
Bubbles and long grass
(Love)
There is alot in this world
to be ashamed of.
But there's alot in this world
To love. Sometimes
I think we all forget how
to remember that there is good.
There are beautiful people
And there are the ugly ones.
Don't turn the blinders on
because all you see is the ugliness.
In there own ways, we're all
beautiful, and loving.
At least
I want to think that.
Love and acceptance
is what we really need.

I could really use a wish right now~

Hun, you go far enough into the country, you don't need no airplanes to wish on. You have plenty out there to wish on. :). Haha, listening to Airplanes by B.o.B. It's only decent, what really sells it is Hayley Williams singing part of it. B.o.B. isn't that spectacular of rapper. But I'll listen to it. He's better than Jason DeRulo.
Haha, watched this REALLY stupid Scooby Doo episode. About Japan. Yeah, it was a little painful how misconceived they were about Japan's culture and all. But there were two lines that made it awesome. Both from Fred. "Jinkies!" "Jeepers!" "...I STILL don't have a catchphrase" and "NINJA ROBOTS? DOUBLE COOL! Uh... sorry. Geeked out there for a sec." Haha. Rest was mediocre. At times it was pretty cool, other's it was weird. Oh. and Daphne = Azula. Weird. :X

BTW Rang De Basanti was TERRIBLY depressing, with a TERRIBLY moving ending. I loved it. Good movie. :)

You are the greatest thing about me.

Rang de Basanti is TERRIBLY DEPRESSING. It's a good movie, but it's so damn depressing after it's terrible tone shift. Like every bollywood movie. Except for Lagaan. fffttt.

Man, What to do with this free time. :

I'm just going to post some "givesmehope" because... well damn they're so touching. Maybe even son "lovegivesmehope"

I saw an old Catholic priest being helped up the church steps by a young man.
At the top he turned to the young man and said "God bless you." The young man smiled nervously and said "I'm Muslim."
The priest smiled back and said "Allah bless you then."
Their religious tolerance GMH.

This morning my car was being serviced, so I had to catch a bus to the city.
I'm heavily pregnant. It was pretty full, and there were no spare seats.
Everyone avoided my eyes and ignored me, but one boy stood up and offered his seat to me, without even thinking.
He couldn't have been any older than 9 years old. His respect GMH.

My grandma died a week ago, and we were driving behind the funeral cars.
Very little people stopped to let us go, even though we had funeral flags and everything.
A whole construction team took off their hats, let us by, and stopped working. Their respect GMH.

My dad saw a homeless man digging through the trash.
He offered to buy the man food. Once he had the food he thanked my dad and turned to leave. Dad said to eat with him. He almost cried.
They ate & talked, and he tried to give my dad the only thing he had: a Beatles record.
My dad and that man GMH

My 8 year old friend, who has had brain cancer for over 2 years, had surgery for a port the other day (for chemo treatment)
I asked her if she was scared. Her only response, "Am I going to be able to swim?"
The whole ER laughed, including the surgeon. Her positive personality and courage GMH.

There is a seventh grade girl at my school who has an extremely strict mother.
Emmy's mom doesn't let her go out to recess, go on field trips, eat lunch in the cafeteria or hang out with friends on the weekend.
Today I learned that the boy in 8th grade who has Asperger's has stayed with her, inside, for every lunch and recess.
Their friendship GMH

A friend of mine ran out randomly into a parking lot and almost got hit by a car. Twice.
He was chasing a balloon and we couldn't figure out why... until we saw him return the purple balloon to a two-year-old crying girl, who he never met before - just because.
GMH.

Today, my girlfriend's teacher told her that she had to keep her opinions to herself because she is a lesbian.
A boy in the front of her class - a stranger - stood up and told the teacher he was protesting HER opinion. He walked out.
EVERYONE followed.
Their willing love and acceptance for her GMH.

My mom is severely ill with ALS and my grandma's kidney's are failing.
We didn't have any money to pay the nurses taking care of my mom. My girlfriend works 8 hrs/day after school and used all her savings but $120 to pay the nurses and doctor's copayments for my grandma.
The $120 is for our last senior Prom.
Her generosity and love GMH.

(From MLIA) Last night for homework, our class was assigned to write a report on our "dream person." Today in class we were peer editing each others papers. My crush and I always partner up, and so we peer edited each others.
When I looked at his paper, it only had a single word on it:
"You."
(^This one is my absolute favorite.)

For my English class we presented things we couldn't live without.
I showed a locket my first and current girlfriend gave to me for Christmas - revealing to a class of nearly 60 students that I was gay.
I was abandoned by my "best friends" but a class of complete strangers congratulated me.
Acceptance GMH.

Go to www.givesmehope.com and read more. Seriously, you won't regret it.

PROMNOMNOM?

REALLY BUSY WEEKEND. haha. I guess I'll start talking about it now, haha.

Friday: LAST DAY OF PRACTICE EVER. It was alot of fun, since we really didn't do anything, haha. x3. Then we had the parents bring out pastas. There was a REALLY GOOD lasagna that one of the parents mom's made. There most definetly wasn't enough for all the swimmers there, haha.

Saturday: HUGE SWIM MEET, haha. Carpooled with Sarah, Rachel, Jaromy and Jonhu. It was pretty ok, I only had to swin a 50, lol. It was also Jaromy's birthday, so we sang to him and everything. :). We cheered, and we swam the 200 free relay. I dropped time! :D. Haha, overall it was alot of fun. And really sad as the last meet with those guys. :(. Then promnomnom. It was alot of fun too. Good food, good friends, good fun. Slept over at a friends house afterwards, hahaha.

Sunday: Woke up, ate breakfast at home and worked on the speech for the rest of the day. FUUUUUUUU. but it's ok. I had it today, and I only needed to prompted once! :). Stupid memorized speech. But now I'm pretty much set for the rest of the year! Hoorayyy.

And in art we're doing an huge art project of found objects with all of the 3-4 students. AWESOMEEEE.

Life is good.

Bollywood, I love you.

KAL NO NAA HO IS AN AMAZINGGGG BOLLYWOOF FILM. I love it. Even though it can be extremely emotionally manipulative, and some of the character's logic is stupid beyond all reason, the movie is HILARIOUS. And it's also really cute. Honestly though, I feel that Naina and Aman's relationship is a bit contrived. I really didn't feel it that much. While the one with Naina and Rohit? That was adorkable. Rohit is so awkward, and Naina is just so... well they work good together. I mean I can see that Aman and Naina could be in love, but in all honesty, I found Aman a tad creepy. I do understand how she could come to love him, due to him opening up her heart. But what about Aman? I didn't really understand why he cared so much for her, when he'd never cared so much for other ones.

But the strongest relationship in the movie? Rohit and Aman. As friends, as rivals, just as people. They were HILARIOUS together, and were very great at being friends throughout the entire movie. It's really hard to explain, but I felt more connected to Rohit and Aman's relationship by the end than Aman and Naina or Rohit and Naina. I mean, after Naina and Rohit find out about Aman's condition, Aman runs to ROHIT'S house. And then the very last scene with Aman, Rohit is the last to talk to him.

ANYWAYS BIG SWIM MEET TOMORROW. GOTTA WAKE UP SO EARLY IT HURTS. OBAI.

Haha, this was fun

What I'm about to write is completely random, but I love it. :)

THE FOLLOWING IS A (fictional) CONVERSATION BETWEEN LENORE AND CERBERUS OVER FACEBOOK WALL. Bold is Cerberus, Italics are Lenore.

So I'm going to do what you hate the most and proclaim my love for you over facebook.
You're cruising for a brusin, dear. :D
Like you'd be able to hit me hard enough for me to bruise.
Try me. Besides, you live next door to me, wouldn't it be more effective to just scream your love for me THAT way? e___e
Hmm perhaps you're right.
... FUCK YOU. YOU KNEW THAT WAS SARCASM. YOU, AS THE KING OF SARCASM, KNOWS THIS.
Sarcasm doesn't translate well over the internet
The neighbors already think we're crackpots. That most definetly DID NOT help.
Oh hush. Or I'll be forced to pull out fluffy pick up lines.
You wouldn't dare. I'll break up with you and start dating Leo.
And you wouldn't do that. Even just to spite me.
True. Leo is far more annoying than you'll ever be.

Aw thanks. You're so sweet.
I KNOW THAT'S SARCASM, BUT I WILL TREAT IT AS A COMPLIMENT. :)
Why is this conversation even going on? We live right next to each other.
All because you felt the need to declare your love for me over the internet. :D
Do you want me to do it again? Fine, I LOVE LENORE ROMILLY.
I LOVE... CAKE.
You and your obscure TV show references.

It's why I'm so charming. ;D
Quite. You're lucky I know what your talkin about.
If it makes you feel better, you are second in line after cake.
That's ok. I love cake better than you too.
CAKE LOVES ME MORE.
I'm sure I love you more than cake loves you.
PROVE IT.
If I eat the cake, it can't love you anymore.

That's bullshit. It will go to the cake underworld and still love me.
What should I do to prove I love you more than cake then?
... Bring me cake? :D
Only if you provide the house to eat it in.
As always.
I'll be getting chocolate ice cream cake then.
Dammit you know me too well. You care about me too much.
I just pay attenttion. And I'm not as dense as a brick wall.
pft, you're bringing cake, so I'll forgive you for now. Btw, I love you. Just in case it didn't get through.
I know
Does this make you the Han Solo to my Leia?
No. You're much better than Leia.

I hate gov. :)

YES I FINISHED MY GOV PROJECT. Well one of them anyways. Oh god it's only been one. I have two more. Fuck my life. Or actually no. I hate my gov teacher. Life is awesome. Went climbing with my WHAP class today, haha. I'm such a wuss and couldn't go that far up and all, but it was pretty ok. I'm kind of uncomfortable with heights, so it's all good that I could do what I could. :). And I got this cupcake. And on it was a carebear ring. I'm wearing it right now. I'm SO BADDASS. 8D

Haha, Climbing also provided plenty of awkward photo shoots. 8). I enjoyed the awkwardness of every photo <3. Teeheehee.

... Gah, only 9 seats left in the Chinese class. I hope they don't go away, fuu. D:. And Christine NEEDS TO POST THE NEW PICTURES ON FB, FUFUFUFUFUFUFU.

I don't know what I was going to talk about. I was going to have a totally serious convo, but yeah I don't feel like it anymore. FML. I guess it's just what I wanted to talk about... well I don't really think about it anymore. I'm kinda just chilling with life and having a good time.

le fu?

Gonna be ok? :0

Haha, so leagues was only ok. We got 2nd, lost to MC, booooooooooooo. But there were some good races. Hope I got good enough time to go to championships next week! :). I hope, haha.

So on Friday we watched My Mighty Princess in WHAP. And omg. ADORKABLE movie. It's also extremely hilarious. I wish to purchase it. Even if the ending was the biggest cop out EVER. DAMMIT I WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENSSSS. I'll just pretend they all get married in the end. Yeah. 8D.

No seriously, the movie was like, LOL FUNNEH STUFF IS HAPPENING YAY. And then it went in a complete u turn and went SERIOUS. But still adorably ridiculous. I loved it and you should watch it. Even though it's a Korean movie. So it's probably hard to find. Also, watch My Sassy Girl. It's by the same director and writer and it's LOADS of fun, as well as heartbreak, as well as just a very awesome movie. :3

WHAP ATTACK

So GREAT AWESOME DAY TODAY! :3. I love my WHAP class, haha. So yeah, today was the last AP test of the year. Our class got together early to eat breakfast. It was very awesome. And fillling. But I noticed the lack of nutella. D: Which made me sad. Than we drove over to the testing area to take the test. It actually wasn't that bad. But I took the APAH test yesterday and that one was INSANELY HARD FUUUUUU. Don't even want to TALK about that one. FFFTTT.

Anyways, afterwards I went to the beach with a bunch of WHAP kids. It was LOADS of fun. Even though I didn't boogie board much because the waves were really harsh today. And the rocks are really harsh. It totally banged up my knee. But anyways. We built the Stonehenge and the Taj Mahal out of sand and rocks. And we fed squirrels. And played down by the hanky banks. And planned for French Revolution in a high school situation. I'm going to be Charlotte Corday. I get to kill Marat. :D

... and if you get that you're really nerdy. No really.

And HAHA, we were trying to find some guys to take a picture of us. And they turned out to be Australian. After they left we spent like 20 minutes thinking of how we should of gotten to stay and stuff... And apparently I'm a Future Serial Accent dater in college, HAHA.

Just a few quotes from our awesome class.
"Nassif, the edge ruiner!"
"Emily, the dolphin saver!"
"Wait if you can't be elected, why are you even a political party? You're just an interest group!"
"Sorry I had to borrow your sandals to get some minarets."
"Can I have your phone number? I want to call you to thank you for taking our picture."

LURVEEEEEE my WHAP class. <3. Omg Leagues tomorrow. So excited. Gotta go work now! :)

Cerberus Spiros sheet

Oh Cerberus. I adore him as a character. I abuse him so much, but it's all good.

On the Mary Sue tests, he was about a 14, then a 20, then a 24 on the other! That's a borderline gary stu for that last one! Oh Cerberus. :P

SPIROS, CERBERUS
-19 in his universe. Therefore that makes him about 665 in ours. :D
- He's obviously from an alternate universe from ours, in one which is almost mirrored to ours save for well, they have superpowers in our universe. Oh, and they're entire planet is run by a monarchy. Along with a bunch of other things. So technically, the ethnicity thing is hard to determine, due to so much interbreeding.
- Their worlders are called "demons" in ours due to... issues in the past with them.
- In his universe, he's relatively normal in income. But in our world, he's filthy rich, due to 'connections'
- His parents passed away of 'natural causes' and is left with his brother, Ignatius, who is a year older that him, at around the age of 10.
- He's average in intelligence. He has his moments of clarity, but at times he becomes very confundled.
- Sarcastic and a smart ass. He is much less easily amused than Lenore. But can keep his mouth shut and be polite and kind when he wishes to be. He doesn't like to show it, but he is very understanding and kind. Just not openly, he's much more subtle about it.
- He is relatively unknown in his world, but has many friends the 'demon' world and is very much loved there.
- Very emotional, especially in battle. He lets them get to his head a little too much.
- His interests are much more like that of a normal teenager you'd expect. He doesn't care much for sports though.
- Battlewise, he has many of the powers other 'demons' receive when making the jump between universes: Creating portals to other parts of the world, Super strenght, Super Speed. He also has limited heat manpulation, light manipulation, and shape shifting abilities. And can turn into a huge dog when extremely angry and he loses control. He has excellent endurance and strenght for his race, his form is very clean, but his speed is not nearly up to par with most others.
-He can be extremely cocky about his abilities. He does enjoy compliments and some bragging (especially to Lenore)
- He's lived with his brother and a family friend, Leonidas since the death of his family. He's been visiting Lenore's world since he was about 5 with Leonidas though, so he's been through many periods of our world.
- He wears jeans, a t-shirt, a huge black jacket almost all the time. And a spiked collar. It's all part of his dog persona.
- He's athletically built. Not really much to say other than that. He's kept in training most his entire life so.
- Black hair, and red eyes. Everyone from his universe has unnatural colored eyes, and he can change them if he really wanted to, but he likes being different than the rest of people in this universe.
- Very loyal and very affectionate to those he cares for. Even though it may not seem like it. Although he can be quite open about his feelings, about his thoughts he keeps concealed most of the time.

Lenore Romilly sheet

Lenore Romilly is one of my favorite character's (along with Cerberus) because they're just such a fun pair. Their interactions are just fun. I'm still working out the kinks in her character as well as Cerberus, so I'm trying to do character sheets and such. So here's the one for Lenore Romilly.

I took some Mary Sue tests on this. First one I got a 10, which means I may need to add more to her, and 24 for the other, which is about the same on the scale. Took anthor and she got a 12. Apparently an Antisue... haha. XD

ROMILLY, LENORE.
- 16, and a junior in high school in California.
- Ethnicity is French, Chinese, and Italian.
- Lives in a relevantly affluent neighborhood
- Her parents are rarely home due to frequent business trips which began when she was about 15. This has lead her to become very independent. She can clean and cook quite well after having to do so for about 2 years.
- She is relatively intelligent in school, excelling in English and History, Only reasonable at math due to her reasoning ability. However, she is quite bad at science comparatively, and abhors it.
- Easily amused, for the better or worse. Tad immature in this sense.
- She has a very quick tongue and very blunt in her manner of speech, which alienates her from most of her peers.
- She does have quite a few friends in the "smarter" students at school
- Annoyed very easily.
- Logical and level headed, especially under pressure.
- Esoteric interests - Novels, TV series, Manga... you name it, she's most likely part of the fandom
- Battlewise, she is quick but not very strong. Her reflexes are superb as well as her force field powers (after training heavily), but her endurance is her weakest point. Although force fields are traditionally a defense power, her creativity in it's use makes her balanced on the offensive as well.
- On her powers... well she doesn't really have an opinion on them. They come in handy, but she also gets alot of crap for them. So she's just kind of dealt with it. It's more of an annoyance.
- Her childhood is relatively normal, for an upper middle class family.
- Death is a big soft spot for her. She's had relatives pass away, and has never really 'gotten over it'. It's probably the bigges thing that effects her emotionally.
- She's more of a Tshirt and Jeans person. That's her entire wardrobe. She also has black glasses either on top of her head, or wearing them. Also wears a necklace with 42 engraved in it. (2 reasons. 1 is a reference to Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy, 2 is that's her and Cerberus's team number.)
- She's thin. She has almost no chest, wide shoulders, long legs, and is pretty average otherwise. She becomes more toned throughout the series as she trains more with Cerberus, but she's still not very strong.
- She has a tattoo on her left arm which is a seal of the contract between her and Cerberus, which winds up her arm as more time passes, starting off as a bracelet looking tattoo.
- Average light brown hair and Dark brown eyes.
- She doesn't really like bragging, but she does acknowledge her skill. When complimented on battle or smarts, she'll credit it to her hard work, or it's just how she is.
- She doesn't really strive to look pretty or anything. When complimented on her looks, she'll usually just say "ok." and have an awkward silence ensue. She won't refute it, but she doesn't care for it in particular.
- She is not sympathetic, or overtly kind. She is honest about her feelings, and deals with people the way she feels like they should be treated. She can be a tad selfish, lazy, and eccentric, but hey, she doesn't care what you think.

Cerberus will come later. :0

Persuasion love :3

So I just watched an extremely, EXTREMELY good Austen novel film. 1995 BBC version of Persuasion. It. Was. GLORIOUS. I really have no idea where to begin. It's a really slow, but beautiful movie. The love between Anne and Wentworth... is just beautiful. It made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I love Austen at times. I love the characters she can create and their love. I've watched the 2007 version of Persuasion, but it's nowhere NEAR as good. And the ending scenes? Heartwarmingly beautiful. When they almost kiss as the circus goes by... and then walking down the lane by themselves... it was just... :3. And whenever he'd start that line "I never..." It was just... I love Persuasion

"You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it, eight and a half years ago. Dare not say that a man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have been, weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant."
^Wentworth's ending letter. I loved it. Blah, I'm just all warm hearted and stuff from the movie. I love Anne. She is uncommonly thoughtful and kind, as well as level headed, who tries to hide her emotions so as they don't trouble anyone... She is one of Austen's finest characters. :)

Now excuse me while I fangirl more over Austen. :D

Change into digital champions!

Watched Avatar with my swim team yesterday. It was GLORIOUS. No, not the movie. Just the experience watching it with my swim team, haha. It was a very pretty movie (especially on Jaromy's HUGE ASS TV, LOL), but not really good. Alot of plot holes, and a little annoying at times. :D. But haha, it was loads of funnn. Especially seeing the "Forever Strong" chant our team captain wants us to do for leagues.

Omg. Jason Momoa is going to be Conan in the 2011 Remake. DON'T DO IT RONON. DON'T DO IT. IT'S A TRAPPPPPPPPP ;___;. Fuuu. Also, the guy who plays Beckett (WHO I LOVE. HANDS DOWN) was apparently in Star Trek (the 2009). Wtf JJ Abrams. Don't blow off such an awesome actor and not have him have a big role. FUUUUUUUUUUUU.

So I was obsessing over digimon (thanks to JesusOtaku) and I started thinking up characters of my own for Digimon. But I always felt there needed to be more diversity, but not so much as they can't understand each other due to language barriers and it doesn't make any sense, as they have like no access to computers or something. So I got some things down. :D. Btw I tried to make all the digimon not from any of the series / not prominent enough to matter so different digimon could shine. Since I love them all. 8D

- Hannah Sheppard (F), American, Dracomon. Main character (since I'm american, it's the easiest to write... OTL. Shut up I'm lazy. She's a tomboy, and also a complete bonehead. :D)
- Nikolai Toledo (M), Maltese, Labramon. (EXTREMELY SMART MALTESE GUY WIN. Sarcasm is funnn).
- Tahlia Harris (F), Australian, Lunamon. (All I know is she's going to be chasing after one of the guys, much to his dismay haha. And she's a girly girl, like mimi. Ok, maybe not that girly. But she gets the extremely girly pokemon).
- Lesedi (M), South African, Elecmon (Couldn't find a last name I liked. :<. He's the first one Hannah meets, so they are probably the best of friends in the group). - Wai-Ling Cheung (Shortened to Ling since he gets far too annoyed that everyone else messes up his name) (M), Hong Kong, Ryudamon (He's the wannabe gangster. Like my friends are. Thinks he's soooo cool with his spiked hair and dance moves and fashion. We all know he's not). - Gabriel LeBlanc (M), Brazil, Coronamon (Hot headed and cocky idiot. With the fire digimon. Awesome.)

So yeah. Sounds like a more whitewashed cast of Captain Planet? Well I'm still debating whether to change Tahlia. But it's hard to think of countries which speak English enough... :<

lulz whut.

Today was pretty cool. WHAP was the greatest. I loveeee the APUSH kids for bringing so much food. :3. It totally made my life, haha. Sitting around watching My Mighty Princess in class... Asian movies are killer. :). Especially that one. Sohwi is ADORABLE. I love her. And the guys are too. Well, not the biker one. The other creeper one, lol.

OMG IRON MAN 2 IS OUT THIS WEEKEND. SOOOO EXCITED, HAHA. <3. But seriously, I have APAH & WHAP to study for... which I'm not. OTL. No motivation... thinking of maybe going to see Avatar with a couple of peeps though, haha. Gotta check with the parental units before I do so though :0. And maybe watch the original Iron Man with the family this weekend in between studying time, haha.

I keep wanting to talk about my girl characters, but I never have the motivation to do so. Which is a shame because I really like them. Because 1) for my stories, (which are 3 so far), the main character is a girl. 2) In all of them, they are not romantically driven, like every other novel with girls as main characters. 3) I think I've made them to be strong capable females without being mary sue's. Which is awesome. But alas, I'm lazy. OTL.

Ya win some, ya lose some

Gaaaaaaaaaah, this cupcake looks CRIMINALLY DELICIOUS. FUUUUUU.

So my computer's being extremely slow right now. Weird. Haha. Well today was definetly not the greatest. I'm really annoyed at some people. And I mean really annoyed. I'm annoyed that they never seem to get things done until it's imperative, and that they have seemingly no respect for anyone. And annoyed about some religions and how they think preaching their "awesomeness" is awesome. Cause it's not. If you are not among that religion, you get annoyed because, as you are free to do that, I don't want to hear it. No really. Shut the hell up. I don't force my religious beliefs down your throat, stop trying to "save my soul" and some shit like that.

And also I couldn't fucking park today. That was annoying. I had to try like 10 times. :\. But it's all good. We got out of practice earlyyyy (Since AJ totally read the set wrong, HAHAHAHA. Awesome). And then went home and watched Bones. KILLER episode today. Although the Hodgins and Angela thing was kinda random, not gunna lie, I loved it. The ending, where the sheriff throws up the confetti and everything? Gahh, so cute. And Cam's line, haha: "Sorry guys, it's like arguing with a founding father!" XD. Srs cop ftw.

So yeah. Gonna go watch some Spoony Experiment. Then study for APAH. Kinda. Maybe. Ok not really. Ffft.

weird dreams!

Hahaha, sorry. There's this one really good Kagome & Sesshomaru doujin on dA. I don't really care for inuyasha, but it's adorable. And I really liked this icon so. :).

So I had the WEIRDEST dream last night. I don't remember the first part other than my cousin, bro and dad were in it. And we were in a disney store. And my cousin was scared to go in for some reason. Then somehow I get transported to this... almost video game level where I'm in a dream world and I have to shoot the "fakes" in this huge crowds of people which this android girl points out which ones they are. While on top of a moving train. And somehow I manage to do it. Then I started noticing that whenever I'd shoot someone, everyone would stop, (and alot of them looked like sailor moon characters. There was like 4 chibi usa's in one, haha), and they'd turn into different people. Then I find some guy who looks like Tuxedo mask. Which it turns out I'm supposed to find him, as he is the only real person. Later, we cut back to me pacing back and forth singing and dancing to "one week" by barenaked ladies (LOL). And Tuxedo mask is looking at an autopsy report the people in my team made for someone... He agreed that the team was all good except for me. He was still unsure about me being on the team.

Then the dream ends.

... As I said. WEIRDDDDDD, lol.

WOO HOO!!!!

OMG. OMG. OMG. OMG. OMG. WE BEAT MC. THE FIRST TIME IN THE HISTORY OF WV GIRLS. WE BEAT MC. WE BEAT OUR RIVALS. OMG OMG OMG. GREATEST DUEL MEET I'VE EVER BEEN IN. :)

I can't even put into words how excited I am. We've got a 3 way tie going on for leagues right now. And no way in hell are we NOT going home with that first place trophy this year. No waaaaaaaay. :). Man man I dunno. I'm totally pumped for life. I could so fail my WHAP and APAH test at the moment and I wouldn't give a fucking shit. So. Damn. Excited.

Man life is just... I can't put into words. Pretty damn good. I was going to talk about my story characters and such in my next blog post but welll... I think this is much better. Best school of my life. By FARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. :)

:/

You know, I was having a fucking fantastic day. And well you can't allow that can't you. You know what fine. Fine. I'll express what I'm feeling all the fucking time. I'm sorry I think about other people and don't want to let people know what's bothering me because, hell, maybe I know they have bigger problems than I do! Or maybe I'll just completely give up on being strong! I'll be some weak little girl who cries herself to sleep every night over every single damn mistake she's made and everything that eats her up inside.

Yes, I feel FUCKING GUILTY. I'm sorry I don't let it show like you want it to. I'm sorry I don't want to do anything wrong so I ask you alot of questions just in case I don't. And I'm sorry you have such a useless daughter. You know, you don't need to tell me that I'm fucking useless. I know I'm fucking useless. It just hurts a whole fuck load more when your own fucking mother calls you useless. I don't need to be told I'm useless. I already know that for a fucking fact. Ok?

I'm sorry I make fucking mistakes, I'm sorry I'm human, I'm sorry I'm still LEARNING. Seriously just fuck off. I want to get out of this house because of what you've done to my self esteem, what you've done to me mentally. I love you, but you've made me such a fucking nutcase.

I'm just gone beyond fucking repair.