YOUR MOTHA.

Geeking out over Ctrl + Alt + Del. HOMG THERE WAS A BATTLESTAR GALACTICA MUG. BASED OFF STARBUCK. TEE HEE HEE HEE. AWESOME SAUCEEEE :D <3

... Gah, I'm such a geek. xP

Hahahahahaha, I find it highly amusing to watch when younger kids have crushes. And the fact it's so freaking OBVIOUS. For example; Josh and Kelly. Josh just turned 14. He wants to go to the same school as Kelly. GEE I WONDER WHY. What a loser. I hope she doesn't like him.

And the fact Eric has a girlfriend? LOLWUT? That kid is such a... I don't even know. Just what kind of girl would want to go out with HIM? Especially since apparently she is a very happy person. o__o. He's like MISTER RAIN CLOUD.

Okay. Yeah.

Btw, Matt Nathanson is love. I adore his music. Go listen to it. xP

Hmm

Dear Boy;

There is no words for how pathetic I feel when I'm with you. How utterly disgusting I find it that your so damn comfortable to be with. It's utterly and totally wrong. It makes me want to strangle myself sometimes you know? How I can just treat you like I've known you forever when we all know... I haven't.

But GOD, just when I think I can get out of this shit for once, it comes back. I wish I could pull away, get to chance to breath. But... I don't know.

I'm don't know why I try, you know? It's obvious that we're not ever going to be anything.

... I don't know. I don't know. I'm sorry.

Pancakes <3

CREEPER PAN. ROBBING YOUR CHILDREN FROM RIGHT UNDER YOUR NOSES 8D.

.... Ahem. Gah. My leg still hurts from trying to jump Boots at lunch and then he side stepped and I landed on the pavement. IF I CAN'T SWIM IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT YOU JERK. D':

Ergh. Morning practice all this and next week. Soooo sleepy! ~_____~. Plus I hit my hand on the lane line, so inside of my pinky's nail is bleeding and very irritated. I keep getting hurt ;___;

Eh, I'm really cranky at the moment... although I DID get free pancakes. Yay <3. Thank you Andrewww. :3

Ah, I'm going to go get ready for swim practice nao.

JAI HO!

Just finished watchin the Oscars. HEATH LEDGER WON! YEAHHHH.

Man I really need to see Slumdog Millionare. Listening to Jai Ho right now. And it's amazing good. Dev Patel is adorkable. :3

Although I wish the academy would have given TDK more love, but Heath Ledger winning is still YAYY! <3 Tee hee I'm happy for that. :D

Hmm. So what's up with me? Well I had a really deep entry planned out, but... then the Oscars came on and I couldn't resist. >__<

Uh. Yeah. I totally lost what I was going to say. .___.

ahahaha...

Oh gosh, I enjoy reading people's rants to no end. Maybe because I'm somewhat sadistic and enjoy reading people's problems that I will probably in no shape or form have. Because I'm such a loser, and most of their rants are about... boys and friends being stupid.

...I love my friends. Heh, I really can't imagine any of them doing anything as bad as what the people on Twilight Sucks talk about. My life is too good. I have a good family, awesome friends, good school... Life is good.

It's just one step away from typical "perfection". I'm guessing you all know what it is. LURVEEE. LIKE IN A SHOJO MANGAAAA.

... Seriously? SERIOUSLY?

I don't think I like anyone right now. Except for Edgeworth. And I'm paranoid some stupid guy is going to start liking me now and I'll have to reject him and feel bad.

... Haha, and then I remember that it's ME. Stuff like that doesn't happen to me. XD. Shojo manganess is reserved for the rest of this crazy world. I just sit back at watch. :x

Choices

It's come to it's end it seems,
In it's own way.
I'm walking away,
hopefully for good
(but only time will tell).
You are too young
too naive, too wrapped up in
everything that doesn't matter.
Someone's gotta teach you someday
(but only time will tell who will).
Yet the world keeps spinning
and I stand at the fork in the road.
Left. Right.
I'll take the middle, thanks.
I'll walk through the forest -
my path was never meant to be clear cut.
It's funny,
I don't see why anyone's jealous of you.
They're too wrapped up in delusions
You are far from enviable.
Then again, I don't envy
(anymore)
I'm walking on a rope
above the world
Fall or Fly. Left or Right.
Why are there only two choices?
Let go or Hold on.
Two choices.
Yeah, I'm letting go
of something for sure.
Maybe it's not you. Maybe it's just
an idea.
The idea love will just appear.
I don't know, but
I'm learning that
Love is the most important thing in the world
but
when it deems me ready
it will come and find me.
Maybe that's what you need to learn.
To stop caring about what they think
and start caring about what you think.
(Misery doesn't suit you)
It's like wearing a tux in the rain.
Standing under your umbrella,
alone.
Someone's going to teach you to dance out in the rain
(I wish it were me)
And it's better if you don't
try to resist.
Drop the umbrella and run. Scream.
Your good shoes will soak through
and your good suit will be ruined.
But when did that matter anyways?
I'm not walking away from you.
I'm walking away from this.
Whatever you call it.
I won't stand under this umbrella any more.
I've gone to dance in my good dress,
get soaked to the bone,
(maybe I'll catch a cold)
But hey.
I'm having fun.
Drop the umbrella and dance, sweetheart.
(With who, I wonder)
Happiness comes with risks.
Stop caring, start living.
(The rain's not going to stop)
Take my hand, or someone else's,
but hunny, it's time to learn.
I've made my choice.
(You won't drag me down anymore)
Time to make yours.

BOYS ARE DUMB :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOBBY TSUI. I ADORE THEE :D <3. Hung out with Dobby Tsui for a long timeee with Angie then went to the swim meet. :D Tee hee.

They're not worth it.
No matter they tell you
Nothing is worth continuous
unhappiness.
I still ask myself
"What do I even see in him?"
He's disrespectful
and clueless.
Not exactly what I'd consider
good looking.
Sometimes I just want to
scream at him.
Just scream.
What is wrong with me?

HAPPY V DAY

Merry Valentine's Day everyone! Hope it's full of love and happiness~

Tell Me About Your...
[made by www.xanga.com/surveysofboredom --- leave tag on!!!]

You can obviously skip whatever doesn't aplpy.
...Home
1. What type of home do you live in (apartment, house, etc)? A house
2. How many people do you live with? 3
3. Who pays the rent/mortgage? Already paid off.
4. How many bedrooms are there? 4.
5. How many bathrooms? 3
6. Do you have more than one home? We used to have a house in Lake Arrowhead.
7. Do you consider one of your friend's houses your second home? Haha, no.
8. What is your favorite room? Mine.
9. What is the worst room to clean? Mine. XD
10. What city/town is it in? An awesome one.

...Favorite Movie
1. What is it? Howl's Moving Castle
2. Who directed it? Hayao Miyazaki <3
3. Who's your favorite character? THE SCARECROW :D
4. What genre is it? Animation.
5. What year did it come out? 2004 in japan, 2005 here.
6. What's your favorite line? Don't have one.
7. Is it a popular movie? In Japan YES.
8. How many times have you watched it? Several xP
9. Can you recite the lines along with the movie? No. xD
10. Would you recommend this movie to other people? YES. I love it.

...Car
1. What is the make and model?
2. What state is it registered in?
3. Who paid for it?
4. Was it bought used or new?
5. What color is it?
6. How many doors does it have?
7. Does it have power locks and windows?
8. What's the fastest you've gone in it?
9. Does it have cloth or leather seats?
10. Can you play your iPod through your car speakers?
...Family
1. Are your parents still together? Not with each other.
2. Do you have any siblings? If so, what are their names? Yes, Andrew.
3. Do you have family reunions? No.
4. How many grandparents have you met? Four.
5. How many grandparents are still alive? Three.
6. Have you ever drawn out a family tree? How far back were you able to go? No.
7. How well do you get along with your family? Pretty well.
8. Do you get along better with your mom or your dad? Either.
9. Do you have a favorite aunt and/or uncle? Who? No.
10. How often do you see your extended family? Not often.

...Job
1. Where do you work?
2. What do you do?
3. How much do you get paid?
4. How well do you get along with your co-workers?
5. Do you like your boss?
6. Is there any workplace drama?
7. What is the worst thing aboug your job?
8. Do you have to wear a uniform? What does it look like?
9. How long have you been working there?
10. What is your dream job?

...School
1. What type of school is it (middle, high, college, etc)? High school.
2. About how many students are there? ALOT.
3. What is your favorite subject? History and English
4. What is your least favorite subject? All of them.
5. Are most of your friends in your classes? Not really. But I have friends in most of them.
6. What school do you go to? WVHS
7. What is/will be your major? I don't know.
8. How do you get to school? The bus.
9. Are you in any clubs or on any teams? Which ones? Nah. Well, I'm going to randomly start crashing Tri M if that counts XD
10. When are you graduating? Next year. :O

...Pet(s)
1. What kind of pet(s) do you have?
2. What are their names?
3. Did you adopt them from a shelter?
4. Do you want another pet? What do you want?
5. Do they eat "human" food?
6. How big are they?
7. How old are they?
8. What color are they?
9. Are they social or do they hide somewhere in the house?
10. How playful are they?

...Boyfriend/Girlfriend
1. What's his/her name?
2. How long have you been dating?
3. Who made the first move?
4. Are you in love?
5. Where did you meet?
6. Have you talked about marriage?
7. What do you typically do on a date?
8. Who usually pays for dates?
9. Do you ever have romantic nights in?
10. What attracted you to him/her?

WHAT

I'm really god damn confused.

WHAT DO I WANT?!

I don't know anymore. What do I want to be, what do I want to do, who I care about, EVERYTHING.

I just feel like screaming at something. Just plain SCREAMING. I want to tell someone how fucking frustrated I am with so many things in my life. I just want to scream and cry and not give a damn.

But I can't.

I can't open my mouth and tell anyone what's wrong. It's just silence. They want to help, I know. But something inside of me tells me to shut the hell up. Stop trying to shove your problems on other people, just bottle it up and it will go away.

I can't even type down what's wrong anymore. It's all bottled up inside.

It's never the right time to bring it up, it's never the right person. It's just silence.

I CAN'T EVEN TALK TO MY STUFFED ANIMALS ANYMORE.

Why won't it come out? WHY.

NO BOOTH NOOOES.

First off, I'd like to say the canyon is beautiful after it rains. It's the greenest I've ever seen it. It was a really nice day. Although a little windy, it was somewhat warm and the clouds were beautiful in the sky.

I was watching the new episode of Bones and homg. You should have heart how LOUD I was screaming. STUPID JUDGE. IF BOOTH DIES BECAUSE OF YOU I'M GOING TO DESTROY YOUR SOUL. NUESSSS. And today I was watching and episode from season 2 where Booth gets taken and Brennan and her dad have to go rescue him. I was like. GTFO NO. STOP PICKING ON BOOTHHHHHH XD

So. Yeah. I so did not get sidetracked.

I don't feel like writing anymore... XDDDD

Teehee stupid romans.

A week til Valentine's Day. :O

Eh, It's not like I'll do anything. I don't even remember what I do on Valentine's Day. Oh btw, Valentine's day started out as a Roman festival where they would beat women to make them more fertile for childbirth. ISN'T IT ROMANTIC? :D. Tee hee.

Those silly Romans. :D

Ahem. Anyways, eh. One of my friends has been complaining a little about what her boyfriend is doing for Valentine's day. I mean I get why she's a little upset about it. But not really on a personal level.

But really that's no mystery. I've never been in a relationship in my entire life. I don't understand really all this... romantic notions about Valentine's Day. Or any day. Or whatever. With romance, I'm a blank stale. I've only read about it, and watched it. But never really... felt it.
Sometimes I doubt I ever will. Or know I never will. Depending on how hopefull I feel.

Ugh. There are other issues that never seem to come out. I don't know why I never have to nerve to talk about them. Maybe because I'm afraid once I start, I won't be able to stop...

This hill

The world goes on without me.
I have climbed some large hill
and now I look down
and see.
I wonder if it's
what God feels like;
looking down at all this confusion
unable to really help.
Just watch.
It gets lonely
watching the world change
without you.
It's like I'm
Benjamin Button;
The world is aging
and I'm... not younger
nor wiser.
Just me.
Is this the price of freedom?
Away from the world
we find who we really are.
Who am I?
Someone who's quiet
someone who listens
someone who finds herself
too easily entertained
and who can read people,
but not well enough
to fill her own selfish needs.
Everyone gets lonely
but here, on top of this litte hill,
where I come to watch the world change,
sometimes it is
the loniliest
place
of all.

Gah. Today was so fun. Went to Nicole's house to watch the Superbowl with Dobby Tsui, Nicole and Labsan. Lol, the Steelers are Twilight fans! That's why they have SPARKLES for their... whatever the hell it is. Seriously. They have the lamest... mascot thing. SPARKLES?

Steelers stink. I don't like them and their yellow tacky PANTS D<.

Good game though. I loved it.

Man I want a dog. D:<