WHAT

I'm really god damn confused.

WHAT DO I WANT?!

I don't know anymore. What do I want to be, what do I want to do, who I care about, EVERYTHING.

I just feel like screaming at something. Just plain SCREAMING. I want to tell someone how fucking frustrated I am with so many things in my life. I just want to scream and cry and not give a damn.

But I can't.

I can't open my mouth and tell anyone what's wrong. It's just silence. They want to help, I know. But something inside of me tells me to shut the hell up. Stop trying to shove your problems on other people, just bottle it up and it will go away.

I can't even type down what's wrong anymore. It's all bottled up inside.

It's never the right time to bring it up, it's never the right person. It's just silence.

I CAN'T EVEN TALK TO MY STUFFED ANIMALS ANYMORE.

Why won't it come out? WHY.