HAPPY NEW YEAR.

Welp. This year is finally ending. I'm a little sad that I'm leaving such a wonderful year behind, but excited for what's to come. The future holds so much promise, more times filled with fun and happiness. Sure. There will be pain and sadness, but in the end, It's all worth it.

I got this Prom Dress Magazine in the mail today. GOD. THE DRESSES ARE SO TACKY, IT MAKES ME LOL. XD. Jeez, Why do they think of sending these things to ME?!

And also. I can't go to Winter Formal next year. Sad Face.

Well. It's been all good fun. I love you all.

HAVE A GREAT NEW YEAR EVERYONE :D

How far away.

Last day before the year ends! WOAH MAN.

I've been listening to this one song by Sara Bareilles. It's called Gravity, and it's so beautiful and heartbreaking. I love it so much. You shoud listen to it. Go on Youtube and look up Gravity Sara Bareilles.

Been reading a great Stargate Atlantis fic. Man, Sheppard is so cool in those fanfics. The author captures each character wonderfully. Even though I miss Dr. Beckett after it. But I love Dr. McCay even more after reading it.... XD. Arrogant little jerk. :P

Lots has happened this year. How far we've all come...

I'm glad this year is winding to a close. Goodbye 2008. It's been fun. I will always remember you and cherish this. But we must look towards the rising of 2009. What will the future bring?

Only time will tell.

RONOMNOMNOM.

Welp. This weekend's been pretty good. We mostly played card games. And on Sunday we played a game of Call of Cthuhlu. Great game. WE SAVED BOXCAR. And the only one who died was the "NPC" Climber guy. Who died because he didn't tie his rope. XDDD

Stargate Atlantis is Awesome by the way. I seriously love every single character on that show. Especially Dr. Beckett and Dr. McCay. Beckett has the greatest accent ever and he's freaking adorabe. McCay is so arrogant you want to punch him and hug him at the same time. Shepard is great, as is Teyla. Ronon makes me laugh. Especially his name. Ronomnomnomnomnomnom... XDDD;

End of the year approaching. Look forward to the last post of the year coming your way! :P

Christmas time

Well, Christmas is winding to a close. All in all, I enjoyed it. I love Christmas and I always will. It came really quickly this year though... Christmas time.

Anyways, here's what I got;
- Bones, Season 2
- New Fall Out boy CD
- Beach Boys CD
- Sudoku books
- Money
- Letterman Jacket
-Necklace with my birthstone on it
- Enchanted Blu Ray
- Sleeping Beauty Blu Ray
- The Polar Express Blu Ray
- Revelations book

Yesterday I watched 2 hours of Bones. The Christmas episode, which was wonderful. I got to see Booth and Bones make out. AWESOME. >:D.

Then today, after opening presents, I sort just hung around and did Sudoku with my mp3 player on. After dinner, I watched The Polar Express. I love the architecture of the North Pole... and the music is beautiful. It's a wonderful Christmas Movie.

So it's been a great, slow day. Nothing really happened, Life just went on.
And now my 17th Christmas is coming to a close. I hope you have enjoyed your Christmas as much as I have mine. You all deserve love and happiness.

Happy Christmas.

Dear Boy,
Well, it's Christmas Eve.
Do you know what I'm wishing for?
No, you probably don't
I've driven a wedge between us
And it won't be fixed anytime soon.
I'm wishing for peace & happiness
Because no one deserve to die
or be saddened
by things out their control.
I'm wishing for material things;
video games, CD's,
I'm wishing.
and sometimes it's for you.
I'm always watching the rain fall,
hoping that you will
someday, somehow
show up at my door,
and break out into some corny lines,
like in some movie,
take me into your arms
and the world will be right.
I know.
Funny, right?
I'm such a romantic fool.
I'll live without your love,
but that doesn't mean I want to.
You deserve every kind of happiness.
And even though I know
I could probably never fit in
to that perfect puzzle of your life.
I hope
that tonight
For just a moment
you think of me.
From
the girl who stayed up
wishing at 11:11.

Merry Christmas everyone. <3

Some things change

God, yesterday was so fun. A bunch of went down Christmas Card Lane. It was awesome. Also CALVIN WAS HERE. I missed him, I'm glad I got to see him again before he leaves Christmas eve... day.... >_>; Wow, so confusing.

Jessica was getting really annoying with her ranting about her crush, but I suppose I'm the same. She thinks her situation is so hopeless... aha. My situations is laughably pathetic. I like a guy who could never like me back in a million years, who I've liked for much longer, who....

This year has been very interesting for me. I think I'm starting realize that I am changing for the better. Sure I'm pretty much, but I'm starting to learn what really matters in life, not letting things get me down as much.

The year is ending, but some things are just beginning.

NUES.

Oh my gosh. O Parts Hunter is awesomely confusing. Apparently they had a time skip like Naruto. (well the 2 mangaka's are related... which is really WEIRD. GAH). Jio is so hot after the time skip. And all the girls have giant boobs. It's kind of scary. XD

Ball & Mei are adorable though. XD;. And Cross is so girly it makes me cry.

And everyone's outfits is Asymmetrical. So if Death the Kidd ever read it, he'd FREAK OUT like I was freaking out about the sluttinesssss XD;. Gar, Men are Pervs. >:

I like these indie shonen though... Rave Master, O Parts Hunter, Eyeshield 21... only good mainstream shonen is One Piece. Because One Piece was the beginning of awesome. And before Naruto stopped SUCKING. :D

Kind of a slow day. Friends are all away at Disneyland, and I'm at home. Sadface. Oh well.

... I loveee christmas time, don't you?

MOMMA CAN'T FIX THIS.

BREAK! HELLZ YES. NO SCHOOL FOR A YEAR. HELLLLLLLZ YES MAN.

Okay. Down to a depressing subject.

I'm a fool. A total, utter fool. Because I like someone who could never like me back. Ever.

I've liked him for awhile. I just can't tell myself he's not worth it. Because he is. He is worth every single moment I'm with him. He's made feel so sad, but he's also made me so happy. I've tried to stop, but it just doesn't work that way for me. When I get over him, I will. But til then, I'll be a stupid fool who admires someone way out of her league.

Even though, I know. I can read body language so well. It's one of my strenghts, but one of my greatest weaknesses. I know how he acts with another girl. It's so heartbreakingly obvious. He likes her. She likes him. And once again my heart is on it's way to break.

Why do we draw hearts in foggy windows? Because it's the closest thing some of us will ever get to love. Like me.

He makes me feel so silly.. for being so happy around him. I hate liking people. So much.

Cause you can't fence time.

Things are really confusing for me right now. So here's a survey. :D

STEP ONE:
Spell your name with songs.

H-Hero by Superchick
O-Over You by Daughtry
S-Step by Step by Battle
H-How Far We've Come by Matchbox Twenty
I-If Everyone Cared by Nickelback


STEP TWO:
– Name: Hoshi
– Birth date: September 4th
– Nickname: Hoshi
– Eye Color: Brown
– Hair Color: Brown
– Zodiac Sign: Virgo

STEP THREE:
–The shoes you wore today: My skater shoe vans
– Your weaknesses: Good food.
– Your fear(s): Knives.
– Your perfect pizza: Hawaiian.
– Goal you’d like to achieve: I just want to be happy.

STEP FOUR:
– Your bedtime? Before 11.
– Most missed memory? hm.

STEP FIVE:
This Or That…
– Pepsi or Coke? Either.
– McDonald’s or Burger King: NcDonald's
– Adidas or Nike: Dun care
– Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Snapple.
– Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
– Cappuccino or coffee: Ew to both

STEP SIX:
Do You…
– Smoke: No.
– Curse: You have no idea.
– Sing: Yes, all the time. Just not well. XD
– Dance: All the time
– Take a shower everyday: Pretty much...
– Have a crush: Yes.
– Do you think you’ve been in love?: No.
– Want to go to college: Yes
– Like(d) high school: Yeah.
– Get motion sickness: Nope.
– Get along with your parents: Pretty much.

STEP SEVEN:
In the past month…
– Gone to the mall: Yes,
– Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No. My mom doesn't buy oreos. D:
– Eaten Sushi: Nah. I don't like it that much.
– Been on stage: No.
– Gone skating: No.
– Made homemade cookies: Haha, YES.
– Gone Skinny dipping: Ew. no.
– Stolen anything: Ew. No.

STEP EIGHT:
Ever…
– Played a game that required removal of clothing: NO.
– If so, was it mixed company: -
- Flashed anyone:... NO.
– Been beaten up: NO.
– Shoplifted: NO

STEP NINE:
– What country would you most like to visit?: Japan. Or go back to Germany, England or Hong Kong.

STEP TEN:
In the opposite sex..
– Best eye color?: I don't care. As long as their pretty.
– Best hair color?: Darker colors.
– Short hair or long hair?: Just as it's not longer than mine
– Height: taller than me.

STEP ELEVEN:
– Number of people I could trust with my life: 2
– Number of CDs that I own: So many. It's not even funny.
– Number of tattoos: NON.
– Number of piercings: NON.

Just dance

Sorry it's been awhile since I updated. Things have been a little, well hectic this week. Getting a break this weekend. YES >:D

So I figured out another thing the US ruins. Anime. The ouran and the Princess Tutu dub are TERRIFYING. SERIOUSLY. They make Princess Tutu sound like some run of the mill show. It's anything but. I love princess Tutu so much. Because not only is it entertaining, its DEEP MAN. Really DEEP. D:

And the voices totally ruin it ;______;''

Life just pulled a shojo manga on me also. I mean seriously; I actually saw this happening. I won't talk about it until later, but I thought it would be longer; like January. But I was off by a month. So if my life is like a shojo manga, I know what will happen next. And it will be greatly satisfying on my part. For not the same reason.... Ahaha.

To coicide with some things (which I don't want to talk about), here's just going to give some pointers to people with friends who broke someone they really care about.

1. If they say they are fine a month later, they are either lying to your face or they obviously didn't care enough for it to be too deep of hurt. Because it takes a long time to get over those things. But if they say they're fine, just let them think that unless their obviously very depressed. Then it's time to intervene

2. Subtly make sure they're ok. People get annoyed if you keep asking them if your ok. Just check up on them and remind them your always there and how much you really care about them.

3. Bring them sweets. That puts them in a good mood. :D

Peace out, beitchs. :D

I do it for...

Everyone's been going into relationships lately.

I feel like everyday, someone else I know is holding hands and being mushy gushy. Not only is it disturbing, it's scary. Because sometimes I really wonder; "Are they happy?". Everything for them is going at the speed of light; too fast, too far. It feels like yesterday something totally different was going on.

And then there are those people who are stuck in... love squares. It's amusing watching it, yet also so sad. When love is so close you can taste it... and yet they do nothing. It's like it's right there in front of them, but their too blind to see it.

And then there are those who don't appreciate it; who keep overthinking and overcomplicating. Who can't leave a sleeping dog lie, who go out of their ways to make things miserable for everyone.

Love is supposed to be sweet. Everyone's adding unessecary ingredients to something that shouldn't need anything else. Love is just love.

And honestly, I'm scared for these people. Because I know if anything happens, they are not going to be ready at all. They are going to shatter into a million pieces over things so stupid, it sounds like it belongs in some movie.

We've tainted love so much. Women and men alike get tossed into things that shouldn't be. Very few couples to me, it seems, can avoid entanglement.

So this is a warning to everyone. No lies. Just Love. Love with your heart, not your eyes. Love as wide as the sky, just love love love. Nothing else.

Don't think too much. You don't love with your brain.

You only get what you give away. So give love.

love y'all k?

There are things I should talk about, that have been bothering me lately. But for some reason, I don't feel like talking about it right now. So here's a survey. I love you all. <3

Positive Thoughts.. Maybe i am not so bad afterall?

List 3 things about yourself that you like: I'm honest, I'm pretty easy going, and I don't care what people think of me.
What makes you proud to be you?: When I do well on tests or in swimming. And after reading a good book and just sitting and thinking afterwards.
What makes you unique?: That I don't let things get to me; I know what matters to me and what doesn't.
What does your family specifically rely on you for?: To correct any letters or assignments in English.
What do your friends count on you for?: I'm not very sure. :<
What meal are you really good at making?: premade Cookies! :D. And Ham and Swiss sandmiches.
What compliments do you often receive?: My clothes are cute / I'm cute. Which is not true. e___e;
What do you like to do to help people?: I just like to listen to them rant and then afterwards try to make them happy again.
What is something that you are really good at doing?: Correcting papers. XD
What do you do to try to cheer up other people?: Tell them the silver lining of the situation and shower them with compliments.
Are you thoughtful of other people's feelings?: I only care about people's feelings if they've taken the consideration to care about mine. <3
Do you hold doors open for other people?: Yes. All the time.
If you see someone struggling with something do you try to help?: I try, but sometimes I make it worse.
Do you apologize once you realize you were wrong?: Yes. Most of the time.
Are you patient with other people?: I try to be, but sometimes, my patience runs thin.
Do you volunteer anywhere?: Not yet...
Do animals and children like you?: Animals sort of like me, but kids like me alot for some reason. o-o;
Do you recognize the beauty and potential in people and things?: Yes. Especially in things everyone ignores and don't really pay attention to.
Do you respect other people's time and belongings?: Belongings, it depends. Time, I try to.
Do you perform random acts of kindness?: I don't know. Any act of kindness is nice.
Do people genuinely like to be around you?: I'd never notice.
Do you try to look your best whenever you go out?: HA NO. I just wear what I want.
Are you happy when you are with people?: Sometimes. Sometimes not.
Do you acknowledge milestones & b-days for people you care about?: Ha, I tell them happy birthday and stuff, but I don't get them anything. I should, but there's never enough time...
Do you accept apologies and grant forgiveness?: Most of time I do. It's only when sorry's not going to cut it is when I don't.
Do you smile at people as you pass them?: To some people yeah. Others I start waving frantically and scream their name. I'm sooo embarassing XD

WARNING! Curse words ahead!

Just finished reading Girl in Blue. I was so ready to tell off Sheldon. Seriously, he's freaking dumb ass. God, thank god I wasn't born in any other generation as a girl. I'd probably be ded by now then. XD;;

Err, so lately I've been seeing all these couples around, which is REALLY kind of freaking me out / really funny. Their popping out like daisies man! FREAKING DAISIES D8.

And people are pissing me off on "HOW TERRIBLE THEY THINK THEIR LIVES ARE." Oh, FUCKING can it. You are loved, you are talented, you have arms and legs, you are alive. People like you gotta learn to start LIVING and stop THINKING. (this is mostly directed towards one person at the moment, so I apologize if I offend anyone. Unless it's that person. Fuck him. He needs to learn to be a fucking man anyways.)

Especially when I hear the word "overthink". It's the most goddamn annoying thing in the world. WHAT IF HE DOESN'T LOVE ME. WHAT IF HE'S CHEATING ON ME. OH MY FREAKING GOD. IT'S CALL TRUST. DON'T GET IN A FUCKING RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE IF YOU CAN'T FUCKING TRUST THEM, YOU KNOW?!

I mean wow. You waited for how long, and your still scared of SOMETHING?! Come on. She's actually tolerated a shitbag like you for 3 years. Whatever the FUCK your thinking about, stop. Just fucking stop. Yeah. The teacher's unfair. Yes. you're life fails yadda yadda.

SERIOUSLY?! OPEN YOUR EYES. YOUR LIFE IS FUCKING WONDERFUL. YOU'D BETTER START LEARNING IT OR I'LL START TRYING TO BREAK YOUR KNEECAPS.

... this avatar is so appropriate XD.

SO SAY WHAT YOU WANT!

Last day of break. Wunderfullll e_____e;;.

I... don't know what to talk about. I'm tired and sore (I fell asleep for two hours! D:). I need another vacation. And I really need to tell some people some things I'll never tell them. Oh well.

It's like... I don't know what I want anymore. It's... really hard to explain, you know? I wish I could leave my memories lie, but some come bubbling up. But I don't want to talk about it, and I don't want to write about it. What do I do then...?

Seriously, I just need someone to rant at for a long long time. And I might not even take it if they offer it. I might just start rambling at someone one day. It's like this; I can only really ramble out my feelings to some people. Don't know why. >:.

There's one thing I REALLY need to talk about with someone. But... who I wonder.

I give thanks...

Today is a day to give thanks. So here is my list of things I am thankful are in my life.

I am thankful for...

1. Family.
Sometimes, I'll admit, I'm not thankful for you guys. But other times I am. I'm thankful my family understands that I don't have to be normal, and understands my interests. My dad for being really smart and teaching me things that will help me in the future and answering any question I have; whether it be about Star Trek or JFK's presidency. My mother for being the one who drives me to swimming and always supports me in it, no matter how much time it consumes. And my brother; no matter how annoying he is, there's always someone to talk to or just hang out with when we're both stuck at home.

2. CORN
Sure. The name died out a long time ago. But Dobby Tsui, Nicole, Ai, Jessica Moya, Risu, Sora, Neko, Jen, Tori, Saru, Ronnie, Natalie, Tsuki, Katie, Erika, Sam... I love all of you guys for having dealt with me for so long and for listening and being there. And also for giving me the strengh to laugh when I should cry. I'm truly lucky to have such great friends, and I love you all very much.

3. My Older Brothers.
Mostly, it's Yang I'm talking about, but even Ben Y and Reggie; I am thankful for them. Thanks for being there when no one else was and when I was falling apart at the seams. You helped me be strong enough to stand on my own. Thanks you for listening when I could turn to no one else. And thank you for just existing. The world would be a much darker place without you. I love you all so much.

4. Dobby Tsui
I know I already mentioned her, but I need to give so much thanks for her again. Thank you for always being there (since 3rd grade. Wow, how have we DEALT with each other that long?! xD), thanks for always listening, thanks for always being there to talk to, and thank you for existing. You a wonderful, kind, person that makes the world better every day. I love you, and don't you ever forget that.

5. My guy friends / Ramen Shop
Oh you guys. Chicago, Jason, Fujii, Boots, Ryan, ASP, Ben J, Ben Y, Yang... You guys make me laugh, and you guys are great friends and people. Without you all, my high school years would be so much more dreary and lame. You guys are the greatest, and I will miss you when you graduate. Except for Boots. Yeah. I'm stuck with you for another year. Should I be grateful? xD

6. Dan's Swim group + Dan.
I don't talk to you all that much, but thank you for graciously accepting me into your group, even though I may not be that fast. You all make me laugh, whether you mean to or not, and you give me something to look forward to everyday I have swim practice. And Dan, you are a great coach, and you deserve much thanks for how much time you give up just to make us great.

7. Ben & Tony.
You guys are new additions into my life, and very surprising addition at that. Thank you Ben for choosing Risu out of all the girls in the world, and thank you for being a great guy that actually might deserve her. You're both great friends and I look forward to spending more time with you guys.

8. The Librarians
Thank you for reteaching me to love reading again and again, and for introducing me to the start of my obsession with it; Twilight. You guys always make me laugh and you always have a big smile when I need it.

9. My teachers
Thank you all for teaching me to love learning and how to go above and beyond. This especially goes out to Ms. Tanaka, Mr. Scruggs and Mr. Subbiah. You are all great teachers who deserve much more than you think.

Now here's a list of things I give thanks to which I care not explain;

I give thanks to...
the rain
Hong Kong
Switzerland
Long grass
Music
San Diego Comic Con
Books
Sudoku
Comics
Swimming
Jason Lezak (F0r his inspiring last 100 @ the olympics!)
Michael Phelps
Anyone who works in the movie / tv industry
Sunny days

There is so much to give thanks for. And I thank whatever brought them my way from the bottom of my heart. Thank you all for making my life wonderful. I'll never forget any of you, and I love you all too much.

Happy day of giving thanks everyone!

Change

I've been thinking. (Uh no, that's not a good thing)

Well before I get to the serious stuff; Go watch the series Bones. It's witty, poignant, and laugh out loud funny. The characters are charming and lovable, the stories are unique and emotion envoking. It's a great show that's smart enough to make you cry and laugh in the same episode.

Zack is the greatest. He's adorable & I love him D: <3.

Anyways.

I feel like the people all around are changing, the very world is changing, but I'm still the same. After all I've been through, I still feel like the same girl who performed on the field during sophomore year. People are falling in love and changing, and sometimes I don't think it's for the better. But I'm still here. People are leaving and becoming different people.

Yet, people pretty much stay the same. They are far too easy to read, and even though they change, humanity hasn't changed.

Like me. Little ol me, a spot in an endless sea of sky. And I wonder why people have to change drastically? For what? Do they mean to, or are they even aware how much they change?

Maybe there's something wrong with me instead. Maybe I'm supposed to be changing, but I'm not. Is that bad? I don't know. I'm not sure.

Hm. Oh well. If people change, I won't change with them if I don't feel like it. I don't like being directed against my will. I will change for myself if I want to.

If I want to...
... What do I want anyways?

I CAUGHT MAHSELF.

Went to the zoo and stuff on Sunday. Not really anything I want to talk about. (because I want to go and watch Bones. XD)

So just a survey~
1 THE BASICS
2 Name
Hoshi

3 Gender
FEmale.

4 Age
Teenager. :P

5 Screen Name
Hoshiiakaruii.

6 Birthday
September 4th.

7 Race
Chinese & White

8 School/Grade
High Schooler.

9 Job
Ninja of lightning.

10 Status
Singular :O (Raising the bar ;D)

11 Home town
La Palma

12 Current Town
A city in California.

13 Parents Still Together
Yep.

14 Siblings
In reality, I have a little brother.But in my “OTHER” family, I have 3 older brothers, 4 sisters and one younger brother (actually I’m not sure if he’s my brother or not. It was never clarified.)

15 Pets
None.

16 Smoker
Hell no.


17 Drink er
Hell no. Alcohol tastes nasteh.

18 Virgin
Yes. (God, do these surveys assume all teenagers are sluts or something? -__-; )

19 Orientation
Straight.

20 Drugs
Hell no.

21 APPEARANCE
22 Hair Color
Brown.

23 Is it Dyed?
Au natural ;D

24 Eye color
Brown

25 Height
5'5”

26 Style
What is this style you speak of? I just wear what I feel like. xD

27 Glasses/Contacts/None?
I wear Contacts most of the time, and glasses when I’m too lazy to put them on. XD

28 Freckles
Some.

29 Body Type
Somewhat thin? I don’t really know…. e_e;

30 Shoe Size 8?

31 Piercings
None. :P

32 Want More?
Maybe I should get my ears pierced… :<

33 Tatoos?
no.

34 Want More?
Nah. when you get old, they stretch and look nasty. XD

35 Braces?
NOT ANYMORE >D

36 Overall Best Feature?
I wouldn’t know.

37 Overall Worst Feature?
I wouldn’t know.

38 Do you get most of your trait s from mom or dad?
I think my dad. :P

39 LIKES /DISLIKES
40 Favorite Color
Silver.

41 Worst Color
Pink.

42 Favorite Number
2.

43 Favorite Animal
At the moment it’s the red panda, but it changes often. XD

44 Least Favorite Animal
Spiders. D:

45 Favorite Flower
Iris.

46 Favorite Food
I have too many. Depends on my mood.

47 Worst Food
There’s a long list of these too. XD

48 Favorite Junk Food
CHOCOLATE. ALWAYS.

49 Worst Junk Food
Candy that’s far too sweet for it’s own good.

50 Favorite Restaurant
Hm. Probably that one ramen shop at the Hong Kong airport. :P

51 Favorite Ice Cream Flavor
Chocolate <3

52 Favorite Candy
Too many. God, I’m such a fattie. XD

53 Favorite Alcoholic Drink
None. They’re all nasteh. :P

54 Favorite NON Alcoholic Drink
Er. Either Cream Soda or Izze, Blackberry flavored.

55 Worst Alcoholic Drink
EVERY SINGLE ONE. :D

56 Worst NON Alcoholic Drink
Hm. Warm Milk is nasty.

57 Favor ite Genre of Music
Probably Alternative and rock. <3

58 Worst Genre
Hip hop and Rap. Those are ugly genres. D<

59 Favorite Band/Artist
Paramore.

60 Worst Band/Artist
I don’t know… e___e;

61 Favorite Song
I never have a favorite song, but these are the songs I really like right now;
Sweet and Low; Augustana
Pretty Girl; Sugarcult
Already Gone; Sugarland
I Caught Myself; Paramore
BIRDLAND; THE BEST JAZZ SONG EVER.

62 Worst Song
Girlfriend by Avril Lavigne. Because it gets stuck in your head SOOOO EASILYYY

63 Favorite Radio Station
I don’t have one. No radio fo me.

64 Favorite Book
Probably The Host.

65 Worst Book
Of Mice and Men. DARN YOU JOHN STEINBECK AND YOUR ABILITY TO RUIN AN OTHERWISE GOOD BOOK WITH YOUR STUPID ANALYZING.

66 Favorite Type of Movie
Animated movies :D

67 Worst Type of Movie
Scary movies. ;_;

68 Favorite Movie
Anastasia. That Movie gets me every time ;_;

69 Worst Movie Ever
Lady in the water. Seriously, worst waste of my time ever.

70 Favorite TV Show
Bones & The Daily Show.

71 Worst TV Show
The Hills should never have come into being. :D

72 Favorite Season of the Year
Summer.

73 Worst Season
None.

74 Best Friend
Dobby Tsui. <3

75 Worst Enemy
Nyeh. Don’t have one.

76 Favorite Day of the Week
Sunday and Wednesday.

77 Least Favorite Day of the Week
Thrusday is pretty bad.

78 Favorite Sport
To do: swimming To watch: American Football.

79 Sport You Hate
Hm. I dunno. I find track and field sort of boring.

80 One thing you cant get enough of
Music & Books.

81 One thing you hate more than anything
It’d probably be senseless death.

82 LOVE LIFE
83 Are You Single?
Hell yes ;D. No one’s awesome enough for meh >D

84 If not, who is your bf/ gf?
:D

85 How Long Have You Been Together?
:D

86 If You' re Single, Do you Like It?
I’ve never known anything else, so I guess I do :3

87 Do You Have a Crush On Anyone Right Now?
I’m not sure. o-o;

88 First Kiss
NEVER.

89 Ever Kiss in the Rain?
NEVER.

90 In a Movie Theater?
NEVER.

91 Under water?
LOL, I KNOW KELSEY AND NGUYEN DO THAT ALL THE TIME XDDDD
… NEVER.

92 First Love
None. :D

93 Have you ever Cheated on Anyone?
Psh. No. No one to cheat on. :D

94 Been Cheat ed on?
No.

95 Used Someone?
I don’t think so.

96 Been used?
Sometimes I feel like I was, but probably not. xD;

97 Lied to your bf/gf?
Of course. I’ve never had a bf so that makes SO much sense! :D

98 Ever Made out With Just a Friend?
Of course. I’ve never been kissed, so that makes SO much sense! :D

99 Ever Had Sex With Just a Frien d?
Ew. Nasteh. I’m pretending this question doesn’t exist k?

100 Are You a Tease ?
Er. No.

101 Do you Flirt a Lot?
I don’t even know how. ._.

102 Longe st Relationship
0 DAYS.

103 Shortest
0 DAYS.

104 Have you Ever Gotten a Poem?
… no?

105 Ever Get Flowers?
No. :D


106 Sweetest Thing You've Ever Gotten
My “older brother’s” trucker hat that says “KILL EM ALL. LET GOD SORT EM OUT”.… then again, I sort of just asked for it and he didn’t really care. It wasn’t sweet. I just love the hat. XDDD

107 Do you Like Valentine's Day or Sweetest Day?
I like white day. Then the guys have to give you thank you gifts for your chocolate :D

108 Do you Believe in Love at First Sight?
Maybe for other people. But not for me.

109 Do you Believe in
This is so not a complete sentence. :D

110 Do you Fall in Love Fast?
Ha, I’d never know :D

111 Are you a Player?
No. :D

112 Would you ever Hook Up With Someone of the Same sex?
Nah. Maybe as time passes on, but right now I doubt it.

113 Have You ever Kisse d 2 People in One Day?
Of course not.

114 Kisse d 2 People At One Time?
Of course not.

115 Had Sex with 2 People in One day?
Of course not.

116 Had sex with 2+ People at One Time?
Of course not.

117 Ever cried over someone of the opposite sex?
Yes.

118 Ever Been Dumped?
HAHA NO.

119 Ever dumped someone?
… no.

120 Ever been rejected?
…. Only once. :D

121 Do you have a lot of ex' s?
I HAVE NONE.

122 Are you a slut?
I don’t think so.

123 Ever been called one?
If I have, then I’d be the worst slut ever. XD

124 Ever dated someone more than once?
NO. >D

125 Do you ever make the first move?
…. I’m not sure.

126 Double dates or single?
NONE.

127 Do you want to get married?
Maybe. Who knows what the future holds.

128 OPPOS ITE SEX (what you're attracted to)
129 Hair Color
As long it’s not the same color as mine, I’m fine. :D

130 Short or long?
As long as it’s not really long.

131 Style
I don’t really care.

132 Age
Not too young or old :3

133 Height
Taller than me.

134 Weight
Thinnish but not fat. :D

135 Muscular Or Skinny
I like muscles, but I don’t care. .

136 Boxer s or Briefs ……. e_____e.

Yes. An entire post on men.

School is done for 10 days~ YES.

Well, I'm reading People's Sexiest man alive issue, so I'm going to talk about guys for this post. XD

... lol, I love this icon. Jacob is adorableee with short hair.

Hugh Jackman is the sexiest man alive. Hmm. I agree, he is VERY nice to look at as a cowboy in the movie Australia, but his frame looks a little wide in the pictures People took. >:. But I guess that's better than Brad Pitt or Matt Damon or Tom Cruise (None of them are hot or sexy, whatever.)

Penn Badgley was in the issue. (The guy who plays Dan in Gossip Girl). He's sort of cute in the series, but the problem is, when he has a stubble he looks funny. But he's better than the other Gossip girl guys, like Chace and Ed. xP

Why is michael phelps in here? He's not THAT good looking... e___e..

Jake Gyllenhaal is adorable. I wish they'd given him more than a tiny little thing... D:

George Clooney is nice to look at too. He has good facial structure and he looks good with gray hair. (Just saying this as a girl guys...)

EW ZAC EFRON AND KEVIN JONAS.

Oh my gawd. Robert Pattinson looks EXTREMELY hot in the pic people took. Woww, I want to give him a nice long hug and pince his cheeks. He's got nice facial structure AND beautiful eyes @_@

SIMON BAKER FTW. He's adorable too. XD

Oh my gosh, James Franco. He's a wonderful actor and he is freaking GOREGEOUS. I love him. <3

Now I'm going to list some people who would be on MY sexah list.

- Jensen Ackles (Supernatural's Dean Winchester)
This guy is beautiful, sexy, and he plays the best character on television. Love you Jensen~

- Jared Padalecki (Supernatural's Sam Winchester)
ADORABLEEEEE. And he's tall and he's got ABS, it's so crazy. Still, he's freaking adorable, even if he's like a foot taller than me. XD

-Ewan McGregor (Obi Wan Kenobi in the 1-3 of Star Wars)
I love his accent. And he's got these stunning blue eyes. D:

- Gerard Butler (300)
I LOVE HIS ACCENT. I DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE. SEXIEST. ACCENT. EVER.

- Justin Hartley (Green Arrow from Smallville)
BEAUTIFUL EYES. BEAUTIFUL FACE. I love his guy and everything he is in. CW picks the best guys, fo sho. XD

- Michael Steger (Navid from 90210)
Very "Exotic", but he also has very beautiful eyes and a very nice face.

- Adam Gregory (Ty from 90210)
He may play a jerk, but when he first walked on screen for 90210, I was speechless. He. Is. GOREGEOUS.

- Taylor Lautner (Jacob Black from the movie Twilight)
Sure. He looks terrible with long hair. But with short hair, he is ADORABLE. Seriously, I love him so much, and I've only seen pictures of him. XD

- Zachary Quinto (Sylar from Heroes)
Not only is he taking on Spock in the new Star Trek movie, this guys got beautiful, sharp facial structure. Wonderful actor and very nice to look at

-Chris Pine
He is a VERY NICE Capt. Kirk if I do say so myself. He's got LONGGG eyelashes and very nice to look at too.

... okay. That was so not an entire post on me judging guys.
What can I say. I have a very refined taste :P.

Life is a runaway train....

Procrastinating on pretty much everything, so here's my post.

Only a few more days til Thanksgiving break. I look forward to doing nothing <3. That's the life, babeh.

Go listen to "Already Gone" by Sugarland. Because it says everything one should know about life. Well most everything.

You know what I'd like to do before I graduate from high school?

Fall in love.

I know, what a silly goal. Don't you care about college? your grades and friends? Yes. I do. But for 16 years I've known one thing, but I want to know what it's like to really fall in love. But that's the future. I can't go back and live high school again.

And you know, I don't want it to be something DARK AND INTRIGUING. As much as I love Zutara, I'm not that type of person. I just want something simple. Just laying out watching the stars, walking around holding hands, silly teasing, dancing out in the rain...

Something sweet, something real. Young love.

... ah, who am I kidding? Men these days aren't... well, I don't know. How they should be?

Life is a runaway train, you can't wait to jump on...

Random Survey

Survey. If you want to know what's up with me, just skip this post. Posted earlier, so just scroll down =D

When was the last time you let someone know you truly love him/her? Hmm. I'm not very sure.
Do you complain when you are bored or look for something to do? Yeah, I do.
Do other people's complaints ever get on your nerves? Alot. Even though I complain 10 times more than anyone, haaa.
Generally, what is your favorite ride at an amusement park? Rollercoasters.
Do you think that music was better when your parents were young, or now? It depends. Some artists fom then are just wunddderful. But they have good artists now too.
How did you develop your specific taste in music? At first I just listened to my dad's music, which is oldies. Then I started to branch off when my friend Michelle introduced me simple plan. I got music from friends, anime, and then I started listening to country stations and watching youtube videos. So really, It's mostly my dad, but there are other influences.
Did your parents sign you up for things like piano lessons and ballet? I did T-ball and cheerleading.
Are you uptight, or are you easy-going? I'm pretty easy going, but sometimes I'm a real bitch <3
Other than gas, what do you frequently purchase at a gas station? Probably Soda / other drinks.
Ten years ago, did you think that this was how the world would turn out? Nope.
Ever think you might be better off living in a different time period? Nah. I'm far too outspoken for my own good.
Think of your favorite band. What album by them is your LEAST favorite? They're all good. ._.
Have you seen your favorite band in concert? I have several favorite bands. XD
Did you take a health class in high school? How was it? I did. It was easy and I don't remember anything from it :D
Do you like any bands from other countries? HELLZ YES. Big Bang is back. >D
When was the last time you mailed a handwritten letter? I have nooo idea.
Do you still receive Christmas cards? Not really.
Do you know anyone who is really hard to please? Yep! Me at time! XD
What gets you through the day? My music.
Do you have a "before bed" routine? Sort of.
Have you called anyone today? What did you talk about? I don't enjoy calling people. So no.
When was the last time you went bowling? Long time ago. Might be going again with friends soon though!
Do you drive around the neighborhood to look at lights around Christmas? Usually me and my friends go to Christmas Card Lane, this cool neigborhood who REALLY goes all out for Christmas. It's really fun.
Why are so many single people bitter on Valentine's Day? Because they don't get chocolate. D:
What holiday is a big deal for you? Christmas.
Have you ever been sledding? No. D:
Have you made a fool of yourself today? Lol, everyday.
Is there someone you wish you could talk to, but you're too afraid? Well sort of. I'd want to talk to him like we did in the old times, but he's in a bubble of LOVEEEEE and if I do, I'd probably pop it. Not that I wouldn't ENJOY doing that... XD
Do you have a favorite cookie? All of them.
Would you say that you are an accepting and open-minded person? Yeah.
Have you ever been convinced to try something you didn't want to do? I believe so...
When was the last time you cheated -- at anything? ... I don't know o-o.
Do you play any online computer games? If so, what? I played Maple Story, Guild Wars, and Ragnarok. I didn't enjoy it that much.
Why do a lot of people say they like MySpace comments over messages? Was MySpace ever a popularity contest for you? Myspace is for losers. :D
What food can you not seem to get enough of? PS!
When you are mad at someone, how do you show them? Usually I ignore them until I'm ready to forgive them.
Have you ever felt out of touch with reality? Alot. What can I say? My head's up in the clouds.
Have you ever been sick to the point of possibly dying? mm, nope.
Have you ever had a tooth pulled? Several.
How long do you you usually chew a stick of gum? I can chew on one for about 2 hours.. XD
Did you chew gum in school, even if it was against the rules? Dur.
Did you take a foreign language in school? Taking Spanish righte now.
Did you attempt to make Honor Roll? Did you make it? I probably could.
What was your favorite school project? Sophomore Thesis <3.
Did you attend any school dances? Yeah. XD
Were you in any after school clubs? In middle school, yeah, sorta. High School, I'm in one club. XD
Was there any teacher that made life living hell for you? Oh yeah.
How about any student(s)? Yep.
Which parent are you more apt to go to if you're upset? Neither. I usually just listen to music.
Do you have any coffee mugs with funny pictures/sayings? I dunno.
Do you ever worry about where the world will be in 20 years? Yes.
Have you spent much time contemplating your death? I spend time contemplating other's demises. :D
Do you know what you want your funeral to be like? I want it to be awesome and not ALL depressing. Celebrate life I lived instead of the death that came, y'know?
Who was the last person you saw cry? Hm. Probably my brother.
Do you give a good back massage? I've never tried.
Do you think that feet are disgusting? My brother's are. XD
Do you have a girlish scream? Only when I'm in pain. XD
When was the last time you screamed? Friday, at the MC game. Which was INTENSE STUFF.
Do you think you would enjoy living in college dorms? Who knows?
Have you ever been to the YMCA? Hellz yes. XD
If you ditched school, where did you go? ... GAME CRAZY LOL. (only color guard people will get this)
Have you ever been offered drugs? No.
Are you put off by overly social people? At times.
What do you think of people who are shy? I can be shy, but some of them annoy the crap out of me. =____=.

Over it.

Sorry for not updating lately. Everythings cool now, so not really anything to write about.

Well, I got 2 new CDs. Taylor Swift's new CD and Twilight Soundtrack. I SERIOUSLY recommend you by Taylor Swift's. She has wonderful songs on there that are just GOLD. Seriously, she is one of THE BEST song writers out there. Her lyrics and melodies and harmonies all fit together. Although she does not have the best voice in the industry, it fits her songs almost perfectly.

The Twilight CD is better for those who enjoy rock, like Paramore for example. Still a great CD though, even though I haven't really listened to all of it yet.

We beat MC on Friday. It was an INTENSE game, and it was really fun to watch with Jessie and Labsan. Boots, Fuji, Ben Y, and others were there, but mostly I just hung out with those two. Even though they made me sit next to Boots. e__e. Psh, whatever. They tried to leave me alone with him, but I'm not stupid.

I may be a hopeless romantic, but I can be disillusioned. I can cure myself of heart break, and I can come out the better. Sure, he may of gotten his girl, but I don't think he even knows how exhausted he looks lately. Catching up all his school work, band, being sick has not beed kind to him.

It's kind of funny when people think things can't get worse or their life's are so terrible. You're loved, you can still laugh, you can still have fun. What's there to be crying about?

So who won this one? I think I did. It just took a long uproad hill to reach the top.

So am I over Boots? Pretty much. I still have to look after him though, because frankly, he fails at it. e _ e;

How did I do it? I just did.

Time heals all wounds unless you pick at them.

NO NOT THE PUPPY.

Chose this avatar because my brother was watching Yugioh, where they have the motorcycle riding guys and the seal of oricalcoas and Mai's a bad guy and her voice makes you want to puke. And Valen's accent is hilarious. XD

... And Kaiba needs to get laid. Seriously, what a prick. XD

Some things in life are good, some are bad. Nothing really to talk about... :D

I really want to see Australia. It looks like an awesome movie with beautiful scene and a very scruffy Hugh Jackman as a cowboy. Soooo niceeee to look atttt. :D. And it's a romance. Even if I really don't like Nicole Kidman that much, I still want to see itttt :D

Huck Finn making fun of Romanticism Literature FTW BABEH.

Now I leave you with some quotes I made up. Enjoy. -bows-

"Roll your eyes and move on. That's all he's worth anyways."

"And when you finally realize she’s what you wanted all along,
she'll finally fall head over heels for a better boy."

"I draw hearts in foggy mirrors for no one and I write love on my own arms."

"Everyone wants you to do something, when sometimes the best is doing… well nothing."

"“He’s just not worth it” sounds better coming from your own mouth than someone else’s doesn’t it?"

"They’re all surrounded in a bubble love… and it’s my job to pop it once in awhile."

" & this world is too small to live with hate, and too big to live without love."

My thoughts you can't decode...

Is it weird for the me to wish that I ever fall in love, I want him to be one of my best friends?

Because I want someone who I trust. Who I can tell everything, and they won't think any less of me. Someone who will sit outside with me and watch the stars. Who is as proud of their heritage as I am. Who just brings the widest smile to my face, who I'd want to be perfect for, even though we both know he doesn't care.

Is that weird of me? Or hopeless of me?

I don't know.

I guess that's why it's taking me forever to get over... that guy. Because he was my friend. I think we were close. I don't even know, maybe he was playing me, maybe I was playing myself, but in the end, he decided my friendship wasn't worth keeping.

I'm stranded. People keep telling me something and then another and maybe then nothing. They give me half of the story and expect me to understand. It's getting me really pissy, to the point where my demons are getting restless. I've imagined killing several people vividly in the past 2 days. And the thing is, I didn't find it very disturbing. ._.;

It's to the point I'm starting to distance myself from people, and my annoyance levels are skyrocketing. I really feel like I can only tell one person everything without anything being judged, who will just listen.

Plus the fact the other person I usually confine is the one teasing me (I hope not intentionally) with all these things they know and I don't. It's making me very irritable towards her, and I don't like that.

... oh well. ^^;

EYE OF THE TIGERR

I don't even want to talk about today. So I'm going to do a survey instead. :D
BTW, Jensen Ackles is so adorable. Look up "Eye of the Tiger" on Youtube, and click on the one that mentions Supernatural & Jensen Ackles.

It is win :D

[you think you know me? you dont know anything] the survey

[basics you dont know]
nic name you prefer:: Hoshi.
zodiac sign:: Virgo
age including months:: 16, 2 months and 1 day.
real hair color:: Brown.
color you dye it [if you do]:: Dark red. :D
age you got your first piercing/tattooss:: Never.
mental problems/disorders:: Sometimes I think I'm bipolar and a Schizo, but nothing that I know of.
signifigant other and how long:: No one, and not ever.
sexual orientation:: Straight :3

[favorites you dont know]
shampoo/conditioner:: ... I don't know...
deodorant:: I don't really care.
perfume/cologne:: I just like sweet smelling lotion.
perfume/cologne on the opposite sex [or same if prefrence]:: I don't like smelly men D<
favorite shirt:: Probably my red shirt with the funny back.
favorite pair of pants:: My dark Calvin Klein jeans I got on sale @ Marshalls >D
pair of shoes:: My checkered black Vans skater shoes or my red sandals.
color you like to wear:: Black & white.
soap?: Nothing really.
lotion?: The French Vanilla lotion I got from Fragonard :D
picture of yourself?: The picture of me @ SDCC07 with my sonic hat. :D

[deeper that you dont know]
do you hold grudges or forgive easy?: I forgive pretty easily.
how many real, close, friends do you have that you can truly trust?: Honestly? 1.
are you happy when you are single?: I don't know. I suppose.
do you really love yourself?: Not really.
do you have any anxieties?: Yes. You have no idea.
what makes you most unhappy?: Love. Grades.
what makes you most mad?: Intolerant people. And people who won't shut up.
do you feel like you have everything you want/need?: Of course I don't have everything I want, but I'll survive.
are you content?: Most of the time.
how do you spend most of your free time?: On the computer or reading and drawing.
do you have hobbies- can you be alone and have fun-?: Yes I have hobbies & yes I can have fun by myself.
what really scares you?: So many things. Just not the things you'd expect.
do you have any phobias?: Lightning.
whats your favorite physcical feature about you?: I guess my eyes.
whats your favorite part of your personality?: I try to be fair.
what do you hate most about other people?: Intolerance, ignorance, conformity, and people who just don't know ANYTHING and think they know EVERYTHING.
do you feel understood or misunderstood?: Misunderstood.
do you have a problem with pda?: Not really, but it's fun to point it out.

[other things you dont know]
tell us something most people dont know about you:: I have a conscience named Hachi which makes sure I don't go completely insane / murder things.
anything else you want to say about yourself?: There are so many things people don't know about me, or that I know about myself. But that's the wonder of life. We have to find ourselves.
or to the people who think* they know you?: They think they do.

dun dun... DUNE?!

Tomorrow's the day...

WHEN THE NEW FALL OUT BOY CD COMES OUT! AND THE TWILIGHT SOUNDTRACK WITH 2 NEW PARAMORE SONGS ON IT! YESSSSHHH

... And also the election. Which no one cares about. At all. :P

Eh. Life's life. Trying to find a survey to do e__e;... I give up. My brain's too picky D:.

You made me laugh, you made me cry, I don't know which side to buy...

Eheh. I have absolutely no self esteem, what can I say? That's why I say there's no hope. e__e;. Yeah...

You're all I'm reaching for...

Don't wanna think about you.

Go to my playlist, find Already Over, and listen to it. It is one of the Zutara Songs. And it it is awesome. :D

Halloween was awesome. Got fatting candy with the Jessica's & Nicole, went to Anna's party and watched Shaun of the Dead. Funny but disturbing movie. e__e;.

Then on Saturday I went to the RB tourney with Ben and Risu. I was the wheel on top of the car. Or 3rd wheel. Whatever you want to call it. :D

I was sad when we got last. ;e;. Stupid RB tourney. D:. They are suckage. But I really really really loved their show. Westview's shows got exponetially better than the last time I saw it... the soulja boy dance was actually sort of adorableee. XD.

So afterwards, the bands are walking back to the buses and I'm talking to him. I give him a sort of hug and later he pats me on the head.

When I hear about her... she kind of sounds like me... sort of... perhaps just a better version. Like Lorn and Data from Star Trek: Next Generation. I'm the failure module.

I can't help it. I... I... I don't know. I don't know how to say it. I don't think I can say it. I don't WANT to say it, or even think it. But I do.

And it tears me apart how much I wish, but how much I know things like that don't happen. And how such stupid things can make me happy. Like a simple pat on the head.

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Freaking Stupid.

If he was any other guy, this would be done. I wouldn't feel a thing, and I'd be off and running.

But I can't. Even though my feelings are such a burden, and I'm pretty sure y'all are annoyed at me for not getting over him already, and how he doesn't deserve me, yadda yadda.

That doesn't stop it. It's hard enough keeping these demons at bay, I don't know how to get these words out of my chest and write them down. I don't know what this is, I just want it to go away.

Lalalalalalala, Don't wanna hear this anymore.... don't want to think about you....

I'm not crying over it. Just in agony over it. And also thanking the lord he can't read this.

He's the only person I don't want knowning how... weak I am.

How so very, very, weak.

Jealousy e_e

Halloween is tomorrow. YAY.

Just going to address some drama (let's get some popcorn!). Not involving me in any shape or form, but I like to say what I think.

Jealousy.

It's such an ugly emotion, but it's everywhere. Sure okay. If the guy you like is in love with some other girl, yeah you can be jealous. If it's fleeting, I understand.

But... honestly, it's annoying when people don't get over it. We say mean things in our jealousy, and it sucks.

I'll admit. I get jealous. Especially right now. But I don't let it get to my head.

I mean. I understand it. But really. Does it MATTER? We get what we get. It's a luck of the draw. Don't go around bitching about what your given. Life could be a whole lot worse.

... I could continue, but I keep getting side tracked. XD bue all! :D

Ave freaking Maria!

Ave Maria is love. Darn you Profe, I'M GOING TO TURN INTO A TRUMPET. NOOOOOOOOOO. XDDDD.

Seriously, it's SO catchyyy. Spanish music is the best. They have very catchy songs. xP

So what's up with me? Nothing much... 7 DAYS TIL THE ELECTION. WOOOAHHHHH O-O. New president? Holeeey.... e___e;

Dobby Tsui: I've seen her before and you're way cuter!
Me: It's your JOB to say that. You're my best friend. XD

Risu: You and Ben P make the cutest father - daughter pair!
Me: e___e;

I have weird friends. Quite a few of them thing I'm adorable / cute / pretty/ one of those adjectives that implies I am attractive.

More like adorkable. :P

Besides, looks don't have to do with anything. All my friends got the boy and they think they're only "average" (which they are NOT. They are beautiful people who their boyfriends should idolize. :D ) and I'm left there going... "... what happened to single forever guys...?" XD;

Oh well.

... AVE MARIA.

Yo soy fuel. There's only one guy I can picture myself with. And it makes me sick.
... There are so many things I need to talk about that, but it just never feels right.

... AVE MARIA!

READY, START.

So. Physics test tomorrow. Wish me luck! I'm going to need it. I sort of get the concepts, but not enough for me to be not nervous about the test x__x;

Swim meet and studying. That's all that's really been going on round here lately. I should have something interesting to rant about after 4 days of absence, but you know. I'm lame like that. :B

Life's just been... you know. Life. Not really anything interesting, you know.

Everyone's in their bubble of LOVEEE and I'm just kind of sitting there watching. It's kind of like I'm at home watching TV and I'm screaming at the TV. Because even though I see all (and practically know all... Notreally) I can't tell them. "Dude. You know this freaking fails right?"

Because they just don't GET IT! It's hilariously irritating! >_<;

... Yeah. Nothing more to say. Sorry. >:

OH NOES COLLEGE?!

Uh. I'm really really gunna be busy this week til Monday, so sorry for not updating. Just a small one, cause I don't feel like studying DMV stuff or Physics stuff. Or Chem Stuff. Or Apush stuff.

And I don't really want to talk about my OTHER problems, so I'll just talk about college. Since I went to a college fair today. Here's a list of colleges that I show some interest in;

- Columbia University ( NYC, NY )
- Dartmouth ( Hanover, NH )
- UC : Berkeley ( Berkeley, CA )
- UC : San Diego ( San Diego, CA)
- University of Oklahoma ( Norman, OK )
- University of Oregon ( Eugene, OR )
- University of Pennsylvannia ( Philadelphia, PA )
- University of Southern California ( Los Angeles, CA )
- University of Washington ( Seattle, WA )
- University of Wyoming ( Laramie, WY )
- Washington State University ( Pullman, WA )

This list might change over time, but atm, this is my prelims. (Not THAT old yet!)

See y'all soon~

GG GREENBELT.

Aang is too adorable for Katara. Katara needs someone manly. and Aang just doesn't cut it.

Went to the green belt with Risu, Ben, Tony, Jess & Dobby Tsui. Loads of fun, as usuallllll <3

Life's been confusing, but I'm alive. Things will turn out okay. I hope :E

Appearance
I'm in middle school
I'm in high school
Hell, I'm in college
I have brown hair
I have blonde hair
I have red hair
I have black hair
I have highlights
I dyed my hair
And it's a color that wasn't listed.
I have blue eyes
I have brown eyes
I have hazel eyes
I have green eyes
I have different color eyes
I wear braces
I don't wear braces
But I should have them
I wear glasses
Nope, I wear contacts
And they're WAY better than glasses
I'm underweight
I'm okay
I'm average, but others think I'm fat
Nah, they're right. I'm pretty fat
Or maybe I'm Obese
I'm 13
I'm 14
I'm 15
I'm 16
I'm 17
I'm 18
Psh, I'm older than 18
Or I'm younger than 13
I look older than my age
I look younger than my age

Family
My parents are still together
My parents are divorced
My parents are...something
I hate my parents
Eh, my parents are okay
For the most part, I get along with them.
Ha, I LOVE THEM.
I have siblings.
I have an older/younger sister
I have an older/younger brother
My siblings are annoying sometimes
But they're cool.
Actually, no, I hate them too.
I have a pet
It lives in the water
Or it chews up my shoes
Or it scratches everything up
Or I just have a wonderful pet

Friends
I rather one best friend than a crowd of friends.
Are you kidding? The more the better!
I have gone to my friends for advice
My friends and I have the craziest time when we hang out
No, they're pretty boring.
I need new friends
One of my friends tried to steal my boyfriend.
Well, he wasn't my boyfriend, but i wanted him! aswell
It ruined our friendship
One of my friends stabbed me in the back
And i didn't even do anything
That ruined our friendship too.
I rather be honest with my friends
Well, for the most part.
Like, when they ask how they look and they look really bad, I lie
I lie to them all the time
Sometimes we get in stupid fights
But we made up
I have more than one best friend

Yourself (Personality)
I'm really outgoing- when with my friends
No, I'm really shy
I'm somewhere in the middle.
I'm really emotional
When I get angry, you should leave me alone
I get in a lot of fights
I'm sad all the time
I'm pretty happy, actually.
Eh, shit happens. I'm somewhere in the middle.
I LOVE to party
I also love to hang out with guys
And try to get them
My favorite color is pink
No, my favorite color is blue
I like black and white.
The hell with those colors.
I like all the colors.
I love being outdoors on a nice day
I love being out in the rain
I love jumping in puddles.
Uhhhh...puddle jumping? Wasn't that so when we were little?
I hate people who think they're better than everyone else
Yeah, I'm one of those people who treat others like shit
If I treat others like shit, it better be a good reason.
I love getting out of the house and drive around town
I love everything!
Psh, loving everything is an overstatement
And hating everything is an understatement
I love bunnies!
I like food
I love music

School
I think school is okay
Are you kidding me? It sucks
I love school
Eh, I'm only there to be with my friends
The lunches at my school suck too, actually
I'm late to class sometimes
I like most of my teachers
No, I hate them
I'm the trouble maker in the class
I actually care about my education so i can get out of high school
My teachers hate me
Actually, there's no such thing as a teacher hating you
They LOVE me
I hate science. I suck at it.
The same with English
And math
Actually, I do horrible in school all together
I appreciate my art/music classes
I'm one of those idiots who just fool around in those classes and fail them
I got a detention for a good reason
A GOOD REASON? MORE LIKE A REALLY PATHETIC REASON
I got susppensed
I got expelled
I'm a good kid
I get good grades
I get okay grades
I just suck
I skip my classes sometimes
No, most of the time
I'm a goody two shoes, so I wouldn't. mah tbh i don't see the point

Relationships/Guys
I never had a boyfriend
I only had one boyfriend
Are you kidding? I had MANY more than that
My relationship with guys never last long
I usually break up with them
Sorry, I'm usually the one getting dumped
And it hurts
I've had a relationship last at least 6 months.
It lasted a year
It lasted MORE than that
Actually, I'm in a relationship right now
And we're been together for a long time
Immature guys turn me OFF
The hot looking guys turn me on
Looks don't matter; it's their personality that counts.
I like personality, but hell, if that guy is hot looking too, then I'm really lucky.
I've been rejected by a crush
And that hurts more than being dumped
My crush doesn't even know that i like him!
I'm a sucker for the eyes
Especially blue ones
I still talk to my ex-boyfriends
Psh, I don't talk to any of them.
I've gotten back together with an ex
But of course, it didn't work out
I still want to be with my ex
I've been in love
I still AM in love
Psh, love is for the stupid romantics
I've cheated on my guy
My guy cheated on me
And I almost killed him when i found out
I've made out with a guy
And he wasn't my boyfriend
I'm a virgin

Music(I listen to...)
30 seconds to mars
Acceptance
Hellogoodbye
Carrie Underwood
Keith Urban
Chris Daughtry
Goo Goo Dolls
Avril Lavigne
Pink
The Fray
Cute is what we aim for
From First to Last
The Academy is
Anti- Flag
The Police
Madonna
Justin Timberlake
The Sex Pistols
Bad Religion
Blink 182
Flogging Molly
My Chemical Romance
David Matthews
Fall Out Boy
Brand New
The Used
Panic! At the disco
Britney Spears
Beyonce
Michael Jackson
Janet Jackson
Fleetwood Mac
Sean Paul
Snoop Dog
James Blunt
Coldplay
The automatic
Black Sabbath
Deep Purple
NOFX
Queen
Van Halen
Metallica
Cradle of Flith
Dream Threater
Johnny Cash
Dixie Chicks

Random
I've played strip poker before
I've been in a car accident before
I failed my car license the first time i took it
I cut myself
I used to cut myself
I'm stopping the habit of cutting myself
Cutters are freaks
I've hooked up with a stranger before
I've seen someone die
I have an eating disorder
I had one, but I'm giving it up and eating healthy
I have my own style when it comes to clothing
I love candy
I over eat sometimes
I get bored easily
I get amused easily
I love to write
I love reading
I failed a class
I ALMOST failed a class, but luckily, I passed it.
I've swore at a teacher before
I've swore at my parents before
I got angry and dented the car
By hitting a telephone pole
By hitting other car
I've been in a fist fight before
And I won it
My dad watches weird movies
And it scares me a little bit
Hell, I love watching weird movies WITH my dad
I've thrown a snowball at someone before
And hit them
I'm anti-social sometimes
I love wearing jewelry
I love drawing
I love drawing during a class i absolutely hate
My best friend owns a dog
I don't have my own car.
Instead, I end up driving my parent's.
This survey was really long
But it was really amusing
And it wasted my time

Hay guys :D

<-- Such a cute icon... <3. I love gummy bears they are yummy.

So you know how they say that if you love, you receive love in return? I used to think that wasn't true.

Now I think I understand. You do receive love; maybe just not in the way you want it. I've also learned I give out alot of it. You'd be surprised how many people I consider I "love" right now. And how many of them are boys for that matter. Sure, mostly platonically, but I do really care for them. (In fact two of them, I have cried over because they were so depressed and it was making me sad too xD).

And really, for once I feel pretty content this year. Before... the whole Boots fiasco. Which still hasn't been really fixed, but that's okay. Rome was not built in a day, and this friendship will take many weeks to fix.

I'm still unsure what I feel for him. I should hate his guts, but I don't. I still... love him, in a sense. I don't know how to explain it, but it's like... as long as he's happy, I don't really mind. Everything's pretty good.

Lately, I really don't have anyone to tell what's on my mind. Because... well, I feel sort of intrusive. Everyone's in this bubble of loveeee and happinessss and... I don't feel like I should be interrupting. Like Dobby Tsui and Yang. They're both some of my bestest friends, but sometimes, I just don't know how to say what I'm feeling. Dobby Tsui got her first boyfriend... so how can I bother her with this drama? And Yang's got one, so I don't know how to talk to him about it either.

Oh well. I'll figure it out soon enough.

So if I compliment you, I mean it. I do not joke around about compliments. And when I say "I love you", I mean it.

I love you guys <3.

STAK TREK IS BACK! >D

OH MY GAWD. Article in EW & new stills for the new Star Trek Movie?! I screamed like a little girl when I saw Chris Pine and Zachary Quinto on the front cover. Still, it upsets me how they postponed it til next year ;A;. It was supposed to come out in December, dammit! WHO CARES ABOUT TWILIGHT. I WANT STAR TREK D<

... Watchmen & The Spirit are also movies I look forward tooooo <3. Sure, I've never read these series, but OH MY GOD. Their stuff is FREAKING LEGENDARY. What would the world be like without these geniuses?! IT WOULD BE LAME I SAY. LAMITY LAME LAME. D<

I AM SO NOT NERDY. AT ALL.

Anyways, Some of the cast for the Star Trek movie is very interesting. John Cho as Sulu made me lol. Eric Bana as the bad guy though.... OH YES. THAT GUY LOOKS SO DIABOLICAL IT'S AMAZING Dx.

Still Zachary Quinto and Chris Pine are probably the two actors who I am really surprised / psyched for. Quinto is AMAZING as Sylar on Heroes; and when they were first talking about the new Star Trek movie & he was suggested, it sealed the deal. He's going to be awesome, with his pointy ears and bowl cut :D

Chris Pine. Is. HOT. I always loved William Shatner as Kirk, so Pine better do a DAMN good job, or I'll have to eat up his brain. I also look forward to Scotty & McCoy. Mostly Scotty, because Scotty had the BEST ACCENT EVER in the original series. McCoy always sort of annoyed me, but he'd be interesting... :3

But nothing can beat the crappy effects that made me LOL while watching the series, and the sometimes laughable acting and the music. Even if it's really cheesy, I have a special place in my heart for Star Trek. I'm not a big Trekkie, but I still CAN name a few episodes from the top of my head... XD

Also; THE NEW TWILIGHT TRAILER. It's pretty good~. I still want Emily Browning to play Bella though.... -sigh-

Um, so how's my life right now?

I guess I'm living one day at a time... I'm not really thinking about it right now. Maybe later... XD
LIVE LONG AND PROSPER! XD.

... shutupyoudbethesamewithmyfamily... XD

I know you...

Because I know I won't be able to update later today cause of swim practice and studying, I'm gunna update nao. :D

<-- Hee hee, it's Haruhi. Good series, but Kyon was an annoying little bugger. >:. Itsuki rockedddd.

I wonder how many people realize how beautiful our world is. And how many people it's just passed by. How many people have danced in the rain, watched the clouds roll by, paint pictures in the sky, watched the bugs crawl, walk barefoot in the grass, smell the sweet roses...

Earth has given us so much to love. But some of us don't look beyond our work space, look beyond. Everything is so beautiful in it's own way, and it seems we all seem to forget that.

I wish I was out farther from the city. Like back in Idaho, where the sky was COVERED with so many stars it took your breath away.

I guess I'm just different. In my own special weird way.

... I would like a dress like the one Briar Rose wears in Sleeping Beauty, before she becomes a princess. It's so simple and elegant D: <3

YAY SALES.

So I spent most of the day studying. Got 3 pairs of pants today. Calvin Klein, Ralph Lauren pants, both pairs less than 30 BUCKS? WOAH DANG. YAY FOR CLEARANCE @ MARSHALLS. 8D.

Really, I'm pretty content right now. Friday... well I just decided I didn't care. I mean I didn't tell myself I didn't, I just decided "WHEE I'M HAVING TOO MUCH FUN I DUN CARE ANYMOARRR"

... Yes. Exactly like that.

I'm not other girls, okay? I can get really really emotional, then poof. It's gone, just like that. Funny huh?

I mean, I'm the girl who has strange... thoughts... about getting my schools two drum majors together. And their both guys.

...... BOOTS IS THE SEME AND BEN IS THE UKE. >D

CUP SIZE Z LOLOL.

Oh mah god. I had so much fun today & yesterday. I laughed so hard and I smiled so much, I think my face is starting to hurt. XD

So today is homecoming... o-o;. And I'm at home. Drinking Snapple. And looking up Zutara pictures. So atypical for me :P.

Yesterday was the HC Football game. It was soooo intense; we won 20-16, barely edging it out at the end. FIRST HC GAME WE EVER WON. HELLZ YES. But really, most of the time we were bothering the band or playing pictionary on ASP's DS. BEST GAME EVER. SIZE Z BRA SIZEEE xD. Best Statue of Liberty Ever. I CAN'T DRAW TO SAVE MY LIEF. 8D

Fireworks were beautiful and Boots' parents were there. HE HAS THE CUTEST LITTLE BROTHERS EVER. OH MY GOD. I HOPE THEY DON'T TURN OUT AS UGLY AS THEIR OLDER BROTHER.

... jk Boots. jk. :<

Hot Topic stuff was the best. I WANT A TRENCHCOAT D:. Ben P looked like one of those... what's it called. Those murderer people in the animes. Yeh. :D And we put a suit on his too. :D He looked SMASHING. :D Me: I'll try on a suit if you as Risu to prom. Ben P:... WILL YOU GO TO PROM WITH ME RISU. Risu: Sure. Ben P: NOW LETS GET YOU A SUIT. Me:... XD Ah, life is gooodddd. Minus all the crap outside of mah life, Things are pretty good right now <3.>