HAPPY NEW YEAR.

Welp. This year is finally ending. I'm a little sad that I'm leaving such a wonderful year behind, but excited for what's to come. The future holds so much promise, more times filled with fun and happiness. Sure. There will be pain and sadness, but in the end, It's all worth it.

I got this Prom Dress Magazine in the mail today. GOD. THE DRESSES ARE SO TACKY, IT MAKES ME LOL. XD. Jeez, Why do they think of sending these things to ME?!

And also. I can't go to Winter Formal next year. Sad Face.

Well. It's been all good fun. I love you all.

HAVE A GREAT NEW YEAR EVERYONE :D

How far away.

Last day before the year ends! WOAH MAN.

I've been listening to this one song by Sara Bareilles. It's called Gravity, and it's so beautiful and heartbreaking. I love it so much. You shoud listen to it. Go on Youtube and look up Gravity Sara Bareilles.

Been reading a great Stargate Atlantis fic. Man, Sheppard is so cool in those fanfics. The author captures each character wonderfully. Even though I miss Dr. Beckett after it. But I love Dr. McCay even more after reading it.... XD. Arrogant little jerk. :P

Lots has happened this year. How far we've all come...

I'm glad this year is winding to a close. Goodbye 2008. It's been fun. I will always remember you and cherish this. But we must look towards the rising of 2009. What will the future bring?

Only time will tell.

RONOMNOMNOM.

Welp. This weekend's been pretty good. We mostly played card games. And on Sunday we played a game of Call of Cthuhlu. Great game. WE SAVED BOXCAR. And the only one who died was the "NPC" Climber guy. Who died because he didn't tie his rope. XDDD

Stargate Atlantis is Awesome by the way. I seriously love every single character on that show. Especially Dr. Beckett and Dr. McCay. Beckett has the greatest accent ever and he's freaking adorabe. McCay is so arrogant you want to punch him and hug him at the same time. Shepard is great, as is Teyla. Ronon makes me laugh. Especially his name. Ronomnomnomnomnomnom... XDDD;

End of the year approaching. Look forward to the last post of the year coming your way! :P

Christmas time

Well, Christmas is winding to a close. All in all, I enjoyed it. I love Christmas and I always will. It came really quickly this year though... Christmas time.

Anyways, here's what I got;
- Bones, Season 2
- New Fall Out boy CD
- Beach Boys CD
- Sudoku books
- Money
- Letterman Jacket
-Necklace with my birthstone on it
- Enchanted Blu Ray
- Sleeping Beauty Blu Ray
- The Polar Express Blu Ray
- Revelations book

Yesterday I watched 2 hours of Bones. The Christmas episode, which was wonderful. I got to see Booth and Bones make out. AWESOME. >:D.

Then today, after opening presents, I sort just hung around and did Sudoku with my mp3 player on. After dinner, I watched The Polar Express. I love the architecture of the North Pole... and the music is beautiful. It's a wonderful Christmas Movie.

So it's been a great, slow day. Nothing really happened, Life just went on.
And now my 17th Christmas is coming to a close. I hope you have enjoyed your Christmas as much as I have mine. You all deserve love and happiness.

Happy Christmas.

Dear Boy,
Well, it's Christmas Eve.
Do you know what I'm wishing for?
No, you probably don't
I've driven a wedge between us
And it won't be fixed anytime soon.
I'm wishing for peace & happiness
Because no one deserve to die
or be saddened
by things out their control.
I'm wishing for material things;
video games, CD's,
I'm wishing.
and sometimes it's for you.
I'm always watching the rain fall,
hoping that you will
someday, somehow
show up at my door,
and break out into some corny lines,
like in some movie,
take me into your arms
and the world will be right.
I know.
Funny, right?
I'm such a romantic fool.
I'll live without your love,
but that doesn't mean I want to.
You deserve every kind of happiness.
And even though I know
I could probably never fit in
to that perfect puzzle of your life.
I hope
that tonight
For just a moment
you think of me.
From
the girl who stayed up
wishing at 11:11.

Merry Christmas everyone. <3

Some things change

God, yesterday was so fun. A bunch of went down Christmas Card Lane. It was awesome. Also CALVIN WAS HERE. I missed him, I'm glad I got to see him again before he leaves Christmas eve... day.... >_>; Wow, so confusing.

Jessica was getting really annoying with her ranting about her crush, but I suppose I'm the same. She thinks her situation is so hopeless... aha. My situations is laughably pathetic. I like a guy who could never like me back in a million years, who I've liked for much longer, who....

This year has been very interesting for me. I think I'm starting realize that I am changing for the better. Sure I'm pretty much, but I'm starting to learn what really matters in life, not letting things get me down as much.

The year is ending, but some things are just beginning.

NUES.

Oh my gosh. O Parts Hunter is awesomely confusing. Apparently they had a time skip like Naruto. (well the 2 mangaka's are related... which is really WEIRD. GAH). Jio is so hot after the time skip. And all the girls have giant boobs. It's kind of scary. XD

Ball & Mei are adorable though. XD;. And Cross is so girly it makes me cry.

And everyone's outfits is Asymmetrical. So if Death the Kidd ever read it, he'd FREAK OUT like I was freaking out about the sluttinesssss XD;. Gar, Men are Pervs. >:

I like these indie shonen though... Rave Master, O Parts Hunter, Eyeshield 21... only good mainstream shonen is One Piece. Because One Piece was the beginning of awesome. And before Naruto stopped SUCKING. :D

Kind of a slow day. Friends are all away at Disneyland, and I'm at home. Sadface. Oh well.

... I loveee christmas time, don't you?

MOMMA CAN'T FIX THIS.

BREAK! HELLZ YES. NO SCHOOL FOR A YEAR. HELLLLLLLZ YES MAN.

Okay. Down to a depressing subject.

I'm a fool. A total, utter fool. Because I like someone who could never like me back. Ever.

I've liked him for awhile. I just can't tell myself he's not worth it. Because he is. He is worth every single moment I'm with him. He's made feel so sad, but he's also made me so happy. I've tried to stop, but it just doesn't work that way for me. When I get over him, I will. But til then, I'll be a stupid fool who admires someone way out of her league.

Even though, I know. I can read body language so well. It's one of my strenghts, but one of my greatest weaknesses. I know how he acts with another girl. It's so heartbreakingly obvious. He likes her. She likes him. And once again my heart is on it's way to break.

Why do we draw hearts in foggy windows? Because it's the closest thing some of us will ever get to love. Like me.

He makes me feel so silly.. for being so happy around him. I hate liking people. So much.

Cause you can't fence time.

Things are really confusing for me right now. So here's a survey. :D

STEP ONE:
Spell your name with songs.

H-Hero by Superchick
O-Over You by Daughtry
S-Step by Step by Battle
H-How Far We've Come by Matchbox Twenty
I-If Everyone Cared by Nickelback


STEP TWO:
– Name: Hoshi
– Birth date: September 4th
– Nickname: Hoshi
– Eye Color: Brown
– Hair Color: Brown
– Zodiac Sign: Virgo

STEP THREE:
–The shoes you wore today: My skater shoe vans
– Your weaknesses: Good food.
– Your fear(s): Knives.
– Your perfect pizza: Hawaiian.
– Goal you’d like to achieve: I just want to be happy.

STEP FOUR:
– Your bedtime? Before 11.
– Most missed memory? hm.

STEP FIVE:
This Or That…
– Pepsi or Coke? Either.
– McDonald’s or Burger King: NcDonald's
– Adidas or Nike: Dun care
– Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Snapple.
– Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
– Cappuccino or coffee: Ew to both

STEP SIX:
Do You…
– Smoke: No.
– Curse: You have no idea.
– Sing: Yes, all the time. Just not well. XD
– Dance: All the time
– Take a shower everyday: Pretty much...
– Have a crush: Yes.
– Do you think you’ve been in love?: No.
– Want to go to college: Yes
– Like(d) high school: Yeah.
– Get motion sickness: Nope.
– Get along with your parents: Pretty much.

STEP SEVEN:
In the past month…
– Gone to the mall: Yes,
– Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No. My mom doesn't buy oreos. D:
– Eaten Sushi: Nah. I don't like it that much.
– Been on stage: No.
– Gone skating: No.
– Made homemade cookies: Haha, YES.
– Gone Skinny dipping: Ew. no.
– Stolen anything: Ew. No.

STEP EIGHT:
Ever…
– Played a game that required removal of clothing: NO.
– If so, was it mixed company: -
- Flashed anyone:... NO.
– Been beaten up: NO.
– Shoplifted: NO

STEP NINE:
– What country would you most like to visit?: Japan. Or go back to Germany, England or Hong Kong.

STEP TEN:
In the opposite sex..
– Best eye color?: I don't care. As long as their pretty.
– Best hair color?: Darker colors.
– Short hair or long hair?: Just as it's not longer than mine
– Height: taller than me.

STEP ELEVEN:
– Number of people I could trust with my life: 2
– Number of CDs that I own: So many. It's not even funny.
– Number of tattoos: NON.
– Number of piercings: NON.

Just dance

Sorry it's been awhile since I updated. Things have been a little, well hectic this week. Getting a break this weekend. YES >:D

So I figured out another thing the US ruins. Anime. The ouran and the Princess Tutu dub are TERRIFYING. SERIOUSLY. They make Princess Tutu sound like some run of the mill show. It's anything but. I love princess Tutu so much. Because not only is it entertaining, its DEEP MAN. Really DEEP. D:

And the voices totally ruin it ;______;''

Life just pulled a shojo manga on me also. I mean seriously; I actually saw this happening. I won't talk about it until later, but I thought it would be longer; like January. But I was off by a month. So if my life is like a shojo manga, I know what will happen next. And it will be greatly satisfying on my part. For not the same reason.... Ahaha.

To coicide with some things (which I don't want to talk about), here's just going to give some pointers to people with friends who broke someone they really care about.

1. If they say they are fine a month later, they are either lying to your face or they obviously didn't care enough for it to be too deep of hurt. Because it takes a long time to get over those things. But if they say they're fine, just let them think that unless their obviously very depressed. Then it's time to intervene

2. Subtly make sure they're ok. People get annoyed if you keep asking them if your ok. Just check up on them and remind them your always there and how much you really care about them.

3. Bring them sweets. That puts them in a good mood. :D

Peace out, beitchs. :D

I do it for...

Everyone's been going into relationships lately.

I feel like everyday, someone else I know is holding hands and being mushy gushy. Not only is it disturbing, it's scary. Because sometimes I really wonder; "Are they happy?". Everything for them is going at the speed of light; too fast, too far. It feels like yesterday something totally different was going on.

And then there are those people who are stuck in... love squares. It's amusing watching it, yet also so sad. When love is so close you can taste it... and yet they do nothing. It's like it's right there in front of them, but their too blind to see it.

And then there are those who don't appreciate it; who keep overthinking and overcomplicating. Who can't leave a sleeping dog lie, who go out of their ways to make things miserable for everyone.

Love is supposed to be sweet. Everyone's adding unessecary ingredients to something that shouldn't need anything else. Love is just love.

And honestly, I'm scared for these people. Because I know if anything happens, they are not going to be ready at all. They are going to shatter into a million pieces over things so stupid, it sounds like it belongs in some movie.

We've tainted love so much. Women and men alike get tossed into things that shouldn't be. Very few couples to me, it seems, can avoid entanglement.

So this is a warning to everyone. No lies. Just Love. Love with your heart, not your eyes. Love as wide as the sky, just love love love. Nothing else.

Don't think too much. You don't love with your brain.

You only get what you give away. So give love.

love y'all k?

There are things I should talk about, that have been bothering me lately. But for some reason, I don't feel like talking about it right now. So here's a survey. I love you all. <3

Positive Thoughts.. Maybe i am not so bad afterall?

List 3 things about yourself that you like: I'm honest, I'm pretty easy going, and I don't care what people think of me.
What makes you proud to be you?: When I do well on tests or in swimming. And after reading a good book and just sitting and thinking afterwards.
What makes you unique?: That I don't let things get to me; I know what matters to me and what doesn't.
What does your family specifically rely on you for?: To correct any letters or assignments in English.
What do your friends count on you for?: I'm not very sure. :<
What meal are you really good at making?: premade Cookies! :D. And Ham and Swiss sandmiches.
What compliments do you often receive?: My clothes are cute / I'm cute. Which is not true. e___e;
What do you like to do to help people?: I just like to listen to them rant and then afterwards try to make them happy again.
What is something that you are really good at doing?: Correcting papers. XD
What do you do to try to cheer up other people?: Tell them the silver lining of the situation and shower them with compliments.
Are you thoughtful of other people's feelings?: I only care about people's feelings if they've taken the consideration to care about mine. <3
Do you hold doors open for other people?: Yes. All the time.
If you see someone struggling with something do you try to help?: I try, but sometimes I make it worse.
Do you apologize once you realize you were wrong?: Yes. Most of the time.
Are you patient with other people?: I try to be, but sometimes, my patience runs thin.
Do you volunteer anywhere?: Not yet...
Do animals and children like you?: Animals sort of like me, but kids like me alot for some reason. o-o;
Do you recognize the beauty and potential in people and things?: Yes. Especially in things everyone ignores and don't really pay attention to.
Do you respect other people's time and belongings?: Belongings, it depends. Time, I try to.
Do you perform random acts of kindness?: I don't know. Any act of kindness is nice.
Do people genuinely like to be around you?: I'd never notice.
Do you try to look your best whenever you go out?: HA NO. I just wear what I want.
Are you happy when you are with people?: Sometimes. Sometimes not.
Do you acknowledge milestones & b-days for people you care about?: Ha, I tell them happy birthday and stuff, but I don't get them anything. I should, but there's never enough time...
Do you accept apologies and grant forgiveness?: Most of time I do. It's only when sorry's not going to cut it is when I don't.
Do you smile at people as you pass them?: To some people yeah. Others I start waving frantically and scream their name. I'm sooo embarassing XD

WARNING! Curse words ahead!

Just finished reading Girl in Blue. I was so ready to tell off Sheldon. Seriously, he's freaking dumb ass. God, thank god I wasn't born in any other generation as a girl. I'd probably be ded by now then. XD;;

Err, so lately I've been seeing all these couples around, which is REALLY kind of freaking me out / really funny. Their popping out like daisies man! FREAKING DAISIES D8.

And people are pissing me off on "HOW TERRIBLE THEY THINK THEIR LIVES ARE." Oh, FUCKING can it. You are loved, you are talented, you have arms and legs, you are alive. People like you gotta learn to start LIVING and stop THINKING. (this is mostly directed towards one person at the moment, so I apologize if I offend anyone. Unless it's that person. Fuck him. He needs to learn to be a fucking man anyways.)

Especially when I hear the word "overthink". It's the most goddamn annoying thing in the world. WHAT IF HE DOESN'T LOVE ME. WHAT IF HE'S CHEATING ON ME. OH MY FREAKING GOD. IT'S CALL TRUST. DON'T GET IN A FUCKING RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE IF YOU CAN'T FUCKING TRUST THEM, YOU KNOW?!

I mean wow. You waited for how long, and your still scared of SOMETHING?! Come on. She's actually tolerated a shitbag like you for 3 years. Whatever the FUCK your thinking about, stop. Just fucking stop. Yeah. The teacher's unfair. Yes. you're life fails yadda yadda.

SERIOUSLY?! OPEN YOUR EYES. YOUR LIFE IS FUCKING WONDERFUL. YOU'D BETTER START LEARNING IT OR I'LL START TRYING TO BREAK YOUR KNEECAPS.

... this avatar is so appropriate XD.