Day 1: Your Best Friend

Well, I found one thing on tumblr that I really wanted to do, but found that I felt they were too personal to do there so... here I'll do them here instead. It's 30 letters to people, over the course of 30 days. Lets go!

Dear best friend,

Well... I don't know really who consider my best friend. I used to know. Now, I know we're going in seperate directions, but well... I dunno. But you've been my best friend for the longest time so, I guess this letter is to you.

Most people have epic stories about how they met their best friend. Like they knew each other since kindergarden / preschool / other weird stuff like that. But honestly...? I don't quite remember. I just remember 3rd grade you moved over here, and then we became friends. And we've been friends ever since.

We've been through SO much, I don't even know where to begin. Elementary school thru middle thru high school, and now onto bigger things. We're going to different schools, and have changed so much through the past years, yet we're still friends. I don't really understand how or why, I'm just glad I have someone who I've known through thick and thin.

As a person, I like to think I know you pretty well. Your much more girly than me, and is habitually late for everything, almost always extremely hyper, and knows everything that's going on with people. Your an amazing person, and the more people should be able to see it.

I know we've grown apart. It's mainly my problem, I think I'm the one who's changed the most out of both of us... out of alot of people during senior year. Also, we're going down different paths in life. You're going to stay here and go to college, working on a path that's extremely challenging. I'm going relatively far away to go into new frontier and become something I'm not even sure of.

I just know, no matter where I go, I know I've been your good friend since way too long, and all the memories that carry me into the future with you, almost always put a smile on my face. Your the only person who I can really tell what's bothering me, if I tell anyone at all. Thanks for making my life awesome. I hope we continue doing so. :).

I wish I could write more, but there's just so much. I could relay all the memories, but that would take DAYS. You know what they are, haha. I luffle you. x3

<3 Hoshi.

Sweet home alabama

So yeah, I'm posting less and less as you've noticed. This is prolly going to be a developing trend. Since I've made a tumblr. But yeah, the tumblr is just for people I actually want to read. This is just to talk about random things, where I don't have to worry about what people I know irl really think since well. Few of them know this exists, haha.

So started taking a Chinese class. It's... interesting. I'm kinda bad, but I like to think I'm the middle of our class in wellness of speaking ability, haha. :). Also my cousin's weekend was this saturday. It was pretty cool. Relatively good food, and a hilarious best man, haha. x3

Eh, I don't really know what else to talk about. Maybe when something big actually happens. :0

Rants about Pokemon couples and Jane Austen. Whut.

Haha. Well, where do I start? Well I think I've found my cosplay for the convention this summer, since I don't have ANY time for Sebastian. I'm gonna try and do Kotone / Lyra from HeartGold and SoulSilver of pokemon. ^^. I'm actually really excited to do this cosplay. Hopefully it works out. :D.

Also, I would like to report one of my new favorite pairings: Soulsilvershipping. AKA Kotone x Rival. Which I discovered by looking up Kotone on google, haha. :P Yeah you heard right: The douchebag red head. I have no idea why really. I think it's all the fanart and fanfiction which has had me convinced, haha. I mean... I never realized how many Yaoi pairings there are in pokemon. I don't... really ship pokemon. Because well I don't read the manga, but anime wise... Ash and Misty are hilarious. Other than that, I don't ship anything. So it's kind of weird when people ship Red and Blue (Ash / Gary... kind of). I'm just like LOLNO MISTY FUUUUUUUUUU. Yaoi in pokemone in general weirds me out. I'm not a prude or anything, but... well I just don't like it.

MOVING ALONG.

Watched Mansfield Park with my dad today. And... I was pretty underwhelmed. Definetly nowhere as good as Persuasion. I liked Fanny, but I felt like... well the pairings weren't really that intersting. I felt Edmund was more of a brotherly figure than her love interest, and Crawford she just didn't particularly care for. It wasn't really a satisfying ending. Whatever. I probably won't watch it again :P

Airplanes.

So I went to $1 Jamba Juice with Dobby Tsui~. Lots of fun, haha. Saw Onii Chan as well. His hair looks like a Kurosawa Samurai hero. :0

Nothing really else to comment on. I'm in a really mellow mood right now, haha. so enjoy this survey.

This is going to be a deep survey. Are you ready?
BRING IT FOO.

Have you ever had to choose between two people? If so, how hard was it?
Mmm. I guess so. Of course it was hard. It wouldn’t really be a choice if it wasn’t.

Do you have a member of the opposite sex you've told everything to?
Well pretty much everything at the time.

Have you ever lost a friend(s)? How?
Yes I have. How? Well I changed, or they changed, or things happen.

Do you honestly have any regrets?
Mmmm. Sometimes. It’s relative on how I feel at the time.

Have you met anybody that changed your life?
Of course. I’ve met plenty.

Missing anybody?
Not consciously.

Are you in any kind of emotional pain right now?
Nope.

Do you believe in marriage? Do you plan on getting married someday?
Yes I do.But we’ll see how things work out.

Which is harder: walking away from somebody you love or coming back to somebody who has hurt you?
Walking away I think.

Has your heart ever truly ached for somebody?
Sadly.

Ever cried while on the phone with someone?
Yes.

What was the last horror movie you watched? With who?
Erm. Probably Eight Legged Freaks at a friend’s Halloween party. I don’t… really like horror movies. But Eight Legged Freaks is not a horror movie. It’s a comedy trying to be scary. Which fails

Do you take walks often?
All the time.

I bet you're talking to someone right now, aren't you?
Nope.

Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with the guy/girl you like?
Err… well it depends. Considering the fact I don’t really like anyone now, they’d be sleeping with nobody, but if the fact arose, it really depends on the situation.

Do any girls/guys hate you because you went out with their ex?
Maybe. Not that their opinion of me matters to me anymore.

Do you think "I love you" are strong words?
Mmm. I’d say yes.

Are you nice to everyone?
No.

Ever receive a really long apology?
Not that I recall.

Does a kiss make you feel better?
I’d say no.
Is anything bugging you right now?
Just anxiety over college.
Do you think you could live without your cell phone?
Sure.

Would you date someone that none of your friends like?
Hmm. I don’t know. I usually like guys who are my friends first, so… don’t know how that would work.

Who was the last girl to say something to you?
My mommm.

Ready for winter to come?
I’m always ready for anything.

What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
Seeing Onii Chan after so long. :3

What was the last thing you spent money on?
$1 smoothie at Jamba Juice. It was glorious.

How are you feeling at this exact moment in time?
Neutral.

What are you doing tomorrow?
Hanging with Dobby Tsui & Piano Theory.

Are you easy to get along with?
Hmm. Depends.

Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?
Sort of.

Who was the last person you talked to on IM?
Boots. 

Which is hotter, a british accent or an irish accent?
I LOVE BOTH TOO MUCH. DON’T MAKE ME CHOOSE, DAMN YOU.

Do you think things will change in the next few months?
Probably.

Do you have a best friend?
I’d like to think so.

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
No.

Is there anyone that you're mad at right now?
No.

Who was the last person to make you smile?
Cracked. Com? :P

Is there something you want to say to someone but can't/won't?
Always.

How late did you stay up last night?
5:30. Yay grad night.

Has anyone ever told you they love you?
Mmm. In a romantic way? Not that I recall.

Is there a girl that you would do absolutely everything for?
Hmm.

Who do you sit by/talk to in your fourth period?
NO CLASSES FWAHAHAHAHAHA.

Is confidence cute?
Er. I dunno.

Do you like dark or light jeans better?
Dark.

Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Dobby Tsui.

Are you wasting your time on someone?
Not anymore.

Have you ever kissed an ex after breaking up?
This actually repulses me. Not for the reason you think, but just know that it does.

Who started your last kiss, you or them?
No one, man.

Are you still friends with the last person who broke your trust?
Hmm. I dunno.

Would you walk into Walmart naked for $10,000?
No.

Do you hate it when people try to play with your hair?
It’s usually fine.

Is love really worth fighting for?
Always.

Do you have any plans for the weekend?
Piano recital, then it’s my cousin’s wedding.

Would you kiss anyone you have texts from in your phone?
No.

Think back to May, who did you like?
Hmm. I think I liked him by then.

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
Yes.

Do you act differently around someone you like?
I don’t know. Supposedly I do. Enough to make it obvious.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Mmm.

Do you hate the last person you kissed?
Technically, this would be nobody, so no. I don’t not hate nobody.

Have you ever dyed your hair?
Never..

What is your mom saved as in your phone?
Mom.

Are you liking how you look today?
I really don’t care.

Do you have anyone crushing on you?
How would I know?

Do you believe guys mean what they say?
Hmm. Maybe.

Explain your current mood?
This question has already been asked.

Do you have any friends that live a half an hour away?
More so.

Do you talk to people you can't stand?
Hmm.

Do you wish on 11:11?
Not really.

Have you ever kissed someone within an hour of meeting them?
Err. No.

Do you agree with the new driving laws for teenagers?
Whatever, I don’t remember them.

What is your favourite thing to do on a summer day?
Have fun.

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Nah.

Do you believe in love?
Forever.

What are you doing tonight?
Sleeping?.

Who was the first person you talked to today?
My brother.

Do you like meeting new people?
It’s inevitable. So why not?

Do you give out second chances too easily?
Mmm.

Are you good at giving advice?
I don’t think I am.

When you're being kissed do you like it when they hold your face?
Err.

How was your weekend?
Pretty cool! :3

Honestly, have you done something bad today?
Nah.

Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?
Everyone keeps secrets. They’re not big unless you make them so.

Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
More than likely.

My summer in a nutshell?

Had lots of fun this weekend. Went to visit the college and to visit my dad's friends with the family. I really like my college town, haha. It's really cool. I'm now super excited to be going to college. :3. I've got awhile though so.. haha.

And I definetly didn't just realize Toy Story 3 comes out this weekend. Which I'm UBER EXCITED FOR. But I'm freggin busy this weekend. Fawk. Really want to see it, but I guess I'll have to wait D:.

Now a list of TV series I should watch this summer.

-Merlin: I'm not going to lie, Merlin looks like Spock. :P. Haha, but I've heard it's pretty good so...
-Doctor Who: Just the one with the 10th doctor in it. haha. Because as a nerd I should be ashamed of the fact I have never seen a doctor who episode. (Well no. I should probably start with the first episode with Rose in it. So complicated.... ><)
- Firefly:... Also a series I should watch but never got around to. Don't kill me. (this includes the movie, Serenity)
- Cowboy Bebop: I STARTED THIS BUT I NEVER FINISHED. Which I really need to do. Fuuuuu.
-Buffy the Vampire Slayer: This series is... insanely long. I may never get aroun to finishing it this summer. But I will at least watch one episode. Because I remember watched the last episode when it aired. And that's it. Shame on me
- Angel: Because this series goes hand in hand with Buffy, man.
- Hellsing: I've heard too much about it to ignore it any longer. I need to try at least 1 episode. Dx
-Full Metal Panic!: Because BY GOD I need some comic relief on this list. (Fumoffu is also on this list.)

Not really sure what order I'll go it. I'll probably start with Cowboy Bebop since I'm the farthest along in that one. Then Firefly since it's the shortest. Then there I go on a rambling adventure into nerdiness. HOORAY :)

& always

WTF WTF WTF FMA IS DONE. What. The Fuuuuuuuuuu. I don't know what to think. Gaaaaah. IT'S DONE. THE END WAS INCREDIBLY CHEESY, BUT IT'S DONE. SO MUCH OF MY LIFE, GONE WITH IT. FUUUUUUUUUUUU.

So yeah, also watched the Syfy mini series Alice. It's really interesting. But the end... the end makes it HILARIOUS AND AWESOME. I can't even begin to describe the joy it gave me... Without spoiling it though, that's impossible, haha. :D. I really recommend it if you like crazy adventures, and happy endings. Well more like ends that are incredibly satisfying. It's not all happy. :D

So yeah, I had this idea for a story scene in my head for the past day or so... I'll just write it now, haha.

"What's your problem? Usually you're not this complacent and overall no fun to talk to." Adeline

joked. Her partner didn't seem to be amused. "No seriously, what's up? Was it something I said?" Hatter was still quiet, emotions bubbling in his heart. "Adeline. Quiet."

"Ok, now I KNOW something's up. You never call me Adeline. Or even Aline." She was still joking around, much to the Hatter's growing chagrin. "We've already been through this much, you can't trust me with what's bothering you?"

Hatter finally snapped "Fine. FINE." He stepped closer to companion. "What's my damn problem? My goddamn problem is that I'm in love with you. Are you happy?"

That shut up Adeline up. Definetly not the response she was expecting. He continued: "My damn problem is I'm head over fucking heels in love with you, and no matter what I do, I just keep falling harder and harder. I know I'd run across the whole damn world for you, Swim any damn ocean, any other cliche shit you can think of.

"My problem is that I'm so in love with you, but I know it's not the same for you. I know I'm just Hatter to you. Even though I care so much, even though I'd do anything to protect you, I know I'm not going to get anything back. That's my fucking problem, ok? Please... just..."

And Adeline punched him in the face. "You FUCKING MORON." He staggered back, obviously shocked.

"How the FUCK can you pretend to know my feelings? How the FUCK do you know how I feel about you? Yes. You are just Hatter to me. Hatter. The same damn Hatter who helped me get through this messed up world, who fought by my side, who listens, who makes me smile and laugh...

"And who for some fucking reason can't fathom that I might love him back. Even though I can think of so many reasons why he shouldn't, but he does. Stupid fucking Hatter." She gritted her teeth. "I HOPE THAT LEAVES A BRUISE, YOU JERK."

Silence took over the two. Until Hatter starting laughing. "... What." Adeline made an angry face as her companion got up. "I should've known better. Let me try this again."

"Adeline, I love you. Be mine?" A smile slowly crept onto her face. Hugging him, she replied "As long as you'll have me."

(random fluff, yayyyy)

Fin.

And so it ends.

Graduation was incredibly boring. Not going to lie, I didn't really care for the ceremony. Afterwards and during, it just felt like another day. Took pictures with all my friends and stuff, Went to eat with the family, then napped before Grad night.

Grad night was a BLAST. I've never stayed up that late, haha. I actually wasn't that tired though. There was just SO MUCH to do. The blow up obstacle course, the virtual roller coaster, carnival games, dancing. other games, food, photobooth, caricatures... It was pretty darn cool. :). Also some hypnosis person, haha. "Her voice sounds like death." HAHA. Then I went home and slept. For a long while. >:3.

Also watched the Glee finale. It was... DEPRESSING. I won't spoil it but... I was sad by the end. I don't care if it gets redeemed. But yeah, the Journey covers? They were beautiful, haha. I really like Journey, I really want to get their CD. :)

So yeah. High school comes to an end. Honestly, I don't think it's really hit me. I feel like I just started my senior year in high school still. But looking back at the years, I know I've changed so much. While other felt like they hadn't changed at all, now I know I've changed alot. I used to detest myself, but now... I think I'm fine with myself, the way I am. :). I guess... Life just doesn't really get me down anymore. Maybe it's because I know things could always be worse, so there's no point in getting super uber worried and worked up. I dunno how to really explain it, haha.

The people I've met throughout my life.. whether they be friends or anti... friends. (HAHAHAHA Wow I'm weird), they've all impacted me in some way, and brought me to this moment. Thank you all.

It's time to turn the page and start a new chapter in life. Time goes on, and I must go on with it.

One last day.

Man today was really funnn. :).

Woke up late and played Final Fantasy 13 until I had to leave for the picnic. Went and hung out for a couple hours. Played in the park, (Felicia and I were failing at monkey bars. We're too heavy to do them now, fuuuu). Saw our 8th grade teacher again and got our letters from our 8th grade selves (Oh god, I wrote about maple story in mine. Kill me now, haha). It's nice to know I've changed since 8th grade haha. (For one thing, I wanted to move to Canada. Which I definetly don't remember. AT ALL). And just hung out really afterwards. We bought ice cream from the ice cream man (IT WAS SOOOOOOOOO GOOD) and told random stories about our lives.

Then I went to Christine's graduation party. There was Jake's delicious Nutella cake. (I swear, his cakes are always way to dang delicious. It is practically criminal). And then we just kinda hung around. They started talking about Chinese Names and I was like FUUUUUUUUUUUUU. Haha, Fail on my part. I parked soooo far away from her house since I didn't know where it was. Uber fail more. plz.

... I'm sad I'm going to be missing Glee tomorrow for Graduation. D:. Dangitttt. Oh well. I'll have my family tape it. :).

I was going to have some really deep post about graduation and life, but well. I decided against it. I feel like the icon for this post speaks for itself. :D

I love disneyland & my friends

DISNEYLAND WAS BUNCHES OF FUN. <3. Went with Felicia, Fishie, Mijo, Zach, Kevin & Tiffany. Woke up early to get there. I was playing Chocobo tales / Kirby game on the way up, and we got there at a good time. We got on ALL the fast pass rides / the popular rides. We were EXTREMELY lucky man. We got on all the rides with minimal wait. I think our longest wait was Peter Pan's Flight. Which me and Mijo totally waited and had people cut us so we could get one with a blue sail. (Don't be hating).

We also went on Thunder Mountain with like NO WAIT. Because it had been closed up and we happened to walk by. It was totally awesome. :). Space Mountain was open (FOR ONCE) and we went on that one too. :D. SOOOO much fun man. But it was kinda nauseating. Also on the PotC ride, Some girls found out it was Kevin's birthday, and they sang him happy birthday. And then they were being annoying on the entire ride. I couldn't stop laughing. They were very offended it seemed, but I wasn't laughing at them. I was laughing at Kevin because he was so embarassed. XD. For lunch we had TTLY TOO EXPENSIVE PIZZA OTL.

After we'd done the rides, we wandered around the main street. Haha, for the restarant, everything cost so much (14 dollars for a chicken plate? FUUUUU) So we split it up, 2 people per plate. What followed was one of the most hilarious conversations ever. Which include dessert jam (Aka, being so poor, you steal the free jam from them and eat it for dessert), and how we were happy when the other couldn't finish it so their partner could the rest, HAHA. Gosh, just thinking about it makes me laugh so hard. Loveeee my friends.

We took some pictures with Mickey and then went out to watch the fireworks for a bit. We missed part of it as we were on the tram (DARN THE HUGE HEDGES, FUUUUUUUU), but we saw the finale, which was awesome. Afterwards, I fell asleep on the way back, haha.

All in all, I will never forget how super awesome Saturday it was. I loveeee my friends. :).

Man, I love my new profile music. It makes me feel so chill. Even though This Afternoon is such a stoner song. And I definetly don't do drugs so... >>;. Oh well, it's so chill I like it for my summer playlist, haha. :)

Disneyland, I love ya man, Thanks for making my weekend so damn cool. :)

Life is life

So yesterday and today have been pretty funnn. For most the time, I got mostly signatures for my yearbook. WHAP we watched My Sassy Girl (One of the best romantic comedies I've EVER seen. >:3). And then the swim banquet was loads of funnnn :3. We got a lot of signed stuff. And as seniors, we got cupcakes, poster, flowers, candy AND A TOWEL WITH MY NAME ON IT. So excitedddd x3. Most definetly bringing to college with pride, haha C:. I love my swim team. It was loads of fun. I'm really going to miss them when I go off. D:

Today was the breakfast. The food was mediocre, but I went around and got most of the signatures I missed, and made my tile. As well as got to hang out with some underclassmen friends while we waited for it to start up, haha. So yeah, pretty cool couple of days. Hanging out more with my friends tomorrow~. So excitedddd :)

Maybe I'll write more later, going to go play some FF13

ROMA RO MA MA

Too lazy to find an appropriate icon. Just here:

MY HIGH SCHOOL YEARS BOLDING
[redsummersurveys]

FRESHMAN YEAR:
I was looking forward to this year
^ It ended up being a really boring year
I started wearing make-up
I stayed single the entire year
My grades were alright
I was way too worried about my appearance
I didn't have a lot of friends at school
I ate Chipotle for the first time
My awkward phase just ended during this year
I took the first level of a foreign language class

SOPHOMORE YEAR:
This was my least favorite year of high school
I was depressed for the majority of the year
I got my learner's permit
I dated two guys
^ One of which was my friend's ex
My grades were bad
I completely stopped caring about everything
I skipped school for the first time
I attended a Sweet 16 party
I drank beer for the first time

JUNIOR YEAR:
This was my best year in high school
My grades were good
I had a boyfriend for the entire year
My favorite class was English (kinda)
There was one bitch who I couldn't stand
^ But other than that I really didn't have a problem with anyone
I began to see the good in everyone
I became a lot happier with myself as a person
I got my driver's license
I became friends with someone who I thought hated me

SENIOR YEAR:
This year was filled with way too much drama
There was record-breaking snowfall during the winter
I made a new best friend
I liked someone who I never expected to like
I became closer to a lot of people who I wasn't as close to
I changed a lot during this year
I decided where I am going to go to college
I was so happy to be done with high school
I'm kind of scared for the next chapter of my life
^ But excited at the same time!

Wow, pretty atypical til Senior year, haha. :P

Vampglee.

So. I have a love hate relationship with the author Richelle Mead. She writes the Vampire Academy series. Now before you sigh and think less of me, It is a rather decent Vampire series. Actually one of my favorite series. I will not shy away from this fact. Because the characters don't SUCK. And the plot is gripping. And the fights are quite well written. And I just love imagining what I would do in those situations if I was one of them. Because it's so. Much. FUN. >:D

But DEAR LORD, I hate the cliff hangers she always ends on. I don't want to spoil it, but GOSH. IT'S TERRIBLE. The last book of the series comes out this December. I don't think I can wait that long. Gaaaaaaaaaaaaah. D:

So yeah. Nother day of No pants week. Got our yearbooks. Not really sure what else to say. I'm just going to watch some awkward Glee.