One year.

One year.
365 & 1/4 days.
It's an awfully long time.
Sometimes the age
is only a year
365 & 1/4 days.
What can be done in
that amount of time?
The possibilities are
endless.
So many hearts can be broken
So many laughs
smiles
tears to fall
nights you spend alone
365 & 1/4 days.
Individually, they seem so long.
Together, they're so short.
So, so short.
But so much can happen.
Death, Life.
Love, Hate.
A year can change everything.
They can come together
to tell you how meaningless
or meaningful
your life has been.
You know,
I wish you knew
it's been nearly a year
365 & 1/4 days.
Since I took a chance on you.
Here I am now. Still
clinging on.
It's different now.
I adore you, oh I do.
Don't doubt that for a minute.
But I don't know
if I can waste another year
another 365 & 1/4 days
on you.
Oh, but how I wouldn't care
if I did.
The years don't
seem to change me.
I'm still a fool.
Hopelessly lost in the clouds.
One year.
365 & 1/4 days.
Where will I be then?
Where will you be?
Oh how I wonder.

Reasons why I'd be a terrible shojo heroine

So I've been reading too much shojo manga, and after getting annoyed with all the heroines and the stupid situations they get themselves in, I decided to make this list. Enjoy! :D

- If I did have a bunch of hot guys falling in love with me or following me around or whatever, the first thing I'd want is for their to spontaneously create yaoi. :D Because that's what good looking guys are for, amirite? xD
- I have a brain. I'm actually INTELLIGENT. No, I'm not the cute lil girl who gets bad grades in her classes. Okay, I do get some bad grades, but I'm outstanding in APUSH and HAL. HONORS AND AP CLASSES BITCHESSSSS. I want to see one of THOSE idiots pull stuff off.
- I do not see the point in looking pretty. I've been a swimmer all my life. When you swim, make up wears off, so there's no point in wearing it. Since it will run off before the day is done anyways. My mom usually has to force a comb through my hair, and I really like wearing baggy and comfortable stuff.
- I have acne. I think this is self explanatory.
- Okay, I am klutzy and trip over alot of stuff. And have no hand eye coordination. But not to the point of being handicapped. I love sports; staying in shape is good for me.
- I will never claim I'm in love with someone even though I barely know anything about them and have not gone out with them at all. That's just silly shit.
- Being sexually harassed is not romantic or sexy. STRANGER DANGER. FUCKING STRANGER DANGER DAMMIT.
- I curse like a sailor. And that's very attractive in a girl, amirite? :D
- There is no greater joy than making fun of romance. Sure it's cute. But it's just... SO FUN TO MAKE FUN OF. I DON'T KNOW WHY. XD
-I am mean. Seriously, all the shojo heroines are such nice girls who do things for people they might not even like or whatever. Me? NO FRIGGEN WAY. If I don't like you, I will tell you. And I won't want to have anything to deal with you. Never ever. D:<
- I AM SO NERDY IT IS A CRIME.
- I am deepppppp. :P. But seriously, when it comes to guys, it takes more than a pretty face. A whole lot more than a pretty face.

That's all for now. I'm feeling lazy. xP

Sountrack to your life

2 swim meets this week! Woo! Did terrible at them. And I have a 2 day swim meet starting tomorrow. Ugh. So exhausted from this week. Lief as been... well sort of slow. I have to start my East of Eden paper. I have this amazing Main Thesis, Amazing 1st Sub thesis, but then I had to write a 2nd Sub Thesis. And it's so freaking. UGLY. IF THAT'S POSSIBLE. IT'S UGLY UGLY UGLY AUGH I HATE IT WHY. D:

And yeah. Freud did Cocaine. I know. Explains so much huh. XD

I will end this entry with a poem. :D Well more like just random spaced lines. But get over it. XD

Please don't tell me
I'm the only one confused
About this.
What are we doing?
I kind of feel like
I'm standing on one side of the street
and your on the other
Neither of us is willing to cross
Even though there's no cars at all
Just an empty street
separating what could be.
Don't blame me for being hesistant
I don't blame you either.
But someone's gotta make a move.
Cross the street, or just walk away.
I know I'm not going to walk away
just yet.
But I can't bring myself
to take even a step.
I'm scared.
So scared.
There are things that
I don't ever want to go through again
things you put me through
that I never want to think about
again.
Don't blame me
for not wanting to cross the street.
I think I've just
developed a fear of being alone,
no matter if I cross or not.

The 3 Most Underrated Disney Movies

So. I've been watching too much Nostalgic Critic. And I feel like I need to name the three most underrated Disney movies. Because I hate when I'm talking to people and they have NO FREAKING CLUE WHAT THE HELL I'M TALKING ABOUT.

- Robin Hood.
No, I don't care that you may think Men in Tights is better. This Robin kicked ASS. The voices in this movie were AWESOME. Robin has the greatest accent ever; it engulfs you like CHOCOLATE and you DROWN in it. It's funny and easy to like all the characters. Even King John. Your supposed to hate him, but he's so darn pathetic you just... CAN'T HATE HIM. He's just so ADORABLE. It's fun and it's entertaining.

-The Great Mouse Dectective.
Words cannot describe my fangirly joy of Basil. He just... KICKS ASS. I find all the characters cute on some level. Except for Rattigan. He actually creeps the shit out of me. The story is delightful and the adventure keeps you reeled in til the very end. You just don't want to look away til it's over. But there are some BEAUTIFULLY animated scenes in that movie. You just want to stare. And stare. And stareeee.

- Oliver and Company
Oh. My. God. How the hell do people not know about this movie. I mean, it was the movie that ALLOWED Disney studios to release the Little Mermaid because of the success of the new musical format. The characters are adorable. The bad guy is scary. Dodger is my all time favorite disney character. (Him and Basil xD). The music was catchy and the scenes they played were eye catching. And it made you think. Oliver and Company makes me think, everytime I watch it. How everyone think Fagin looks like a bad guy, but really? He's just pathetic and down on his luck. I love this movie to pieces and I don't understand how people don't know about it. Probably cause the little mermaid outshined it in the end. D:<

There are all those Disney movies like Aladdin, Beauty and the Beast, which I do love. But I wish someone would turn around and acknowlegdge these master pieces once in awhile.

WHEEEH

So I've been busy the past few days. Not been able to write or anything. Just study. Man I have a headache. Why am I even typing. I want to sleep man. D:

Been watching too much Bum review / Nostalgic Critic. He butchers some of my favorite movies from childhood, but you just.... CAN'T HELP BUT LAUGH. Because it's SO TRUE. Yet so AWESOME.

And I watched some spiral today. OH GOD. AYUMU IS SUCH A WUSS. DEAR LORD WHATACRYBABY. Dx

But Hiyono is awesome. :D Tee hee. I love her stun gun. I love her faith in Ayumu. I just love HER. SHE IS.... AWESOME. EKRHTIREHJYRKTYJRLT JRETKE GARGALE. HUAIHRKWEKJTEW

... ok, Someday I promise I'll post something really good. But my headache sucks. XD

Classes for Senior Year.

Okay, so here's what I'm taking next year;
AP World History (Linked with Honors World Lit.)
AP Gov (Linked with Civics and Economics)
AP Art History
Design in Mixed Media 3-4
2 Off Rolls, both 4th period.

Man, I am so psyched for my classes senior year. <33. Not so psyched for Senior year in GENERAL, but just the classes make me so freaking... EXCITEDDDD <3

I'm so nerdy it's a crime. STFU

HAPPY PI DAY BTW.

MAN I WANT CHICKEN NOW. D: Darn this song talking about Chicken. I just imagined some delicious KFC. GOD WHY AM I SUCH A FREAKING FATTY. Mum's right, in college I'm going to BALOONNNN. 8D

Lol hay thar. SATs weren't as intimidating as I thought they'd be. I'm catiously optimistic that I did well. :]

Well, yesterday we were talking about our failure love lives in Subway. It got me thinking.

My situation with Bear is remarkably odd. We were good friends. Then I confessed to him (sorta kinda), we stopped being friends. He got a girlfriend, I was miserable. I got over him and his stupidity. His girlfriend dumped him just as I was getting over him. I decided it was time to being a baby and be his friend again. We finally became friends and now we're really good friends now.

... and I still like him. Why?

Because he's a good guy. He makes me laugh, he's a good friend, he's amusing. He's not the best guy on the planet, and no one knows how happy I am that he's not. He's just a regular ol' guy who just happens to be one of my best friends.

Hm. Something must be wrong with me.

:D

<-- In honor of watching the 6th movie during lunch. I wish I could get our school drum major to dress up as Vadar. And have a Imperial march of bandos. Man, I'm geeking out at the thought of this. o____o

So 4 day passes are sold out for Comic Con. Glad I got mine, but sad that alot of people still haven't gotten there's. :/ Oh well. So excitedddd for it though. Summer is my favorite time of the year. It's always so nice and sunny. And it's always a good day to go the beach. No school, and everyday you find something interesting to do. And swimming is actually desirable to do. Because the pool feels so gooodddd. And you get to go to the park all the time.

GAH I LOVE SUMMER SO FREAKING MUCH GARHARHAR.

Okay, I swear I'm calm. :D

SATs tomorrow! Wish me luck! It's pi day too. Yay. Pi. 3.14159! :D

... k, I'm going to go watch some Daily show <3 I missed 3 episodes of it cause I was so busy this week. I'M SORRY JON STEWART D:

OHAITHAR.

I just realized how old I feel.

No, not physically. Mentally.

I mean sure. I act like a kid. I'll always be childish and annoying. But.... you know, sometimes I feel so much older that I am.

Maybe because I don't yet alot of thing bring me down anymore. It's weird. Something about this year has really really mellowed me out. Perhaps it's just alot easier to make me happy.

Eh, I've been listening to this one song called Drops of Jupiter. It's so nice and mellow, yet the lyrics are very surprising. And the melody is awesome.

... Heh, been reading alot of delicious shojo manga lately. Tee hee hee I lurve it. Hey, if I'll never get it, I can read it as much as I want <3 :D

... okay I'm going back to reading Time Stranger Kyoko kthxbai.

Dx

THIS WEEK WAS TERRIBLE. SO MANY FRIGGEN FINALLLSSSS ;____; I wanted to cry. -sob-

Eh, other than that, High school swim has been keeping me busy. I really wanted to right something, but I kind of got sidetracked. So just an entry confirming I'm not dead or dying. Just... really really really busy with LIFE. D:

... Obai. D: