Forever and Always?

Finals week is OVARRR. <3

So yeah. On Friday, me, Lontayo, Nicole, Risu and Sora hung out after school. Man, it was alot of fun. Talked about what's going on with drama and just about... everything. It was great to get some stuff out. But it's kind of embarassing that I'm the only one with a "crush"... even though it's been a really long time... e___e;

Sometimes I wonder why I even try. And why I just can't seem to get over him. I don't know, I don't. I just know that when he's around, I'm happy. I really don't like disecting every single feeling I have. Liking people is complicated enough. Why make it anymore confusing?

People always ask "What do you see in him?". Eh, my love is blind. I can't really explain it you know? I just... feel different around that person.

He's not some perfect person like "Edward" (LOL TWILIGHT REFERENCE?) ; he's got his flaws, he has his weaknesses. He is definetly no prince charming. But I'd rather be with him than any other boy. Besides, perfection is so... boring. XD

But do I want a relationship? Honestly, everyone does. But I won't take a chance on someone I don't feel at least a connection with. And even then... I don't know, It's just hard thinking of anyone asking me out. The only person I can think of accepting... I'd probably say no. I honestly don't think I'd be worth his time... >>;

I'm an honest person. I don't like lying to people about how I feel. If I dislike them, I will show it. If I like people, I will show it. I won't lie when I say "I love you", I don't LIE about I feel. That's another reason I'd reject alot of guys... Lying about your emotions is the worse kind of lying.

I tell people what I feel, even if they don't like it... maybe someday that will get me in trouble, but whatever.

So there's only one guy I like, don't know when I'll get over him, don't really care. He's completely oblivious and it seems like half the girls I know have a crush on him too. I know I have no chance but... well, that's life. He's my friend and that will never change. <3