Breakup stuff?

GAH. 11 PAGES OF CHEM AND IT'S HARDDDD. x__x;

So yeah. Life is life, cruising along as usual. Yeh. It's pretty good except stupid FINALS WEEK GRRR is coming up. Man, I can't wait for them to be OVARRRR. Dx

So what's been going on with my life?

Breakup after breakup. After breakup. So this is a shout out to everyone that's going through the pain.

You're not alone. Seriously, don't even think that for a second. You have plenty of amazing friends here that will support you through thick and thin and who will seriously go and kick the crap out of this person if you asked them too. Who love you to death and would love to see you smile.

People understand how you feel. Even a little. Alot of us know what it's like to be rejected. Don't even THINK we could never imagine. We can. I know how it feels to feel so goddamn useless and just a VOID of nothing when you lose love. It hurts so much you just want to crawl into some dark space and cry, just waiting for it to go away.

You will learn to love again. It might not be today. Or tomorrow. But you will. Your too fucking young to say you will never love again. You have no idea how many moments may pass you by and the person who truly cares and loves you could walk right by and your too fucking wrapped in your "HOMG I WILL NEVER LOVE AGAIN' to realize. And then it'll be too late.

I've been down that road. I thought I'd never ever ever be able to fall in love after... that. Fuck, I thought I'd never be HAPPY again. But bit by bit, I started to piece things together. I got my heart broken and survived. And I will fall in love again.

God, do you know what? Your letting them win by just... giving up! You're letting all the hate and despair in the world WIN! People wonder why this world can seem so dark and lonely... because they chose to shut out the light. Your going to love again. Might as well leave the door unlocked, or love will sneak through the back door and scare the shit out of you.

I can feel all this... dark energy. And sometimes I feel like I'm absorbing it, because hell I'm happy. But the darkness inside I've long concealed starts to crawl out sometimes. The one's that make me want to hide in my closet, in the dark by myself. That try to tell me how alone I am and how I will never be truly happy and how no one will ever love you enough to even glance your way...

Thankfully I can keep it at bay. But not without consequences.

We all have our scars. I can love again. But I can't believe anyone can. Maybe someday this will change. But it just. Doesn't. Compute.

I don't want the same thing to happen to me that happened to these people.

Just love love love love. Sometimes it's all you can do. The rest will run it's course.