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I've been reading alot lately. So I recently read New Moon by Stephanie Meyer. Bella went really emo when Edward left her.

... I'm sorry Yang. I lied.

I said I don't understand why anyone would want to stop living because of another person. That was a complete lie. I don't see the point in living sometimes. Because I don't feel loved.

Yeah I know. I am loved. I know because for my birthday I got 2 (!) cakes and an awesome sketch from Sora when I really didn't want anything. But... there's still a hole. I hate my birthday. It reminds me of things I can never have. I try to ward them off, make sure they don't affect me and the people around me. But sometimes it comes out. My insecurity slips through.

Now more than ever, I know I am loved. But... but why don't I feel loved?

I worry excessively. Inside my heart, I'm always worried about you onii chan. And how I worry so much about Tsuki too. But they won't let me in. I've never had a best friend. Or anyone I could pour my heart onto (except for my stuff animals... >_>;; )

Where do I go now...? Back into the shadows of myself. No one likes a broken soul.